tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.
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by Scatterbrain » Sun Apr 13, 2008 6:04 am
I had to leave because I was so fucking uncomfortable. I hate that I cant even deal with that kind of situation. Sometimes I think that I'm just socially defective.
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by Afternoon » Sun Apr 13, 2008 9:18 am
I'm not good enough for him.
He's brilliant and creative and compassionate and interesting and independent.
I'm mediocre and fake and selfish and boring and needy.
What the f does he think he's doing with me?
When will he wake up and realize who I am? When will he leave?
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by VowsOfSadness » Mon Apr 14, 2008 3:20 am
i hate that i've been cutting again.
its so dumb.
and everyone notices.
its just.... everything is changing and I HATE change
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by My Hazey Clarity » Mon Apr 14, 2008 4:02 am
If you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.
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Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.
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by ThanksALatte » Mon Apr 14, 2008 4:22 am
i feel a little bit high right now. endorphins are...more noticeable than i thought.
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by strmdncr » Mon Apr 14, 2008 7:27 am
Right now I am feeling hurt, lost, little and alone but for once I'm realizing that it's b/c you can't care or maybe it's just won't care. I thought I mattered at least a little bit to you and your actions are saying that I thought wrong....and so I hate you for making me think that someone cared.
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by VowsOfSadness » Tue Apr 15, 2008 6:51 am
i got what i wanted
only its not what I want.
GOD why am I always doing this.
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by caged bird » Wed Apr 16, 2008 3:28 am
my thoughts are bad

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Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
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by rememberthatiloveyou » Wed Apr 16, 2008 10:58 pm
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by caged bird » Fri Apr 18, 2008 1:20 am
this is hurting so much more than i thought it would
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Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
Thieves and Kings: Volume Two by Mark Oakly
The line between normal and crazy seemed impossibly thin. A person would have to be an expert tightrope walker in order not to fall.
Running with scissors - Augusten Burroughs
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Scatterbrain
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by Scatterbrain » Fri Apr 18, 2008 2:07 am
I just dont care right now.
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I'm not being honest with you.
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by Blake 1 » Fri Apr 18, 2008 6:51 pm
I can't take much more of this.
I'm not as
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by Chey Kizoxie » Sat Apr 19, 2008 6:28 pm
I feel gross because of how i look
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by volta » Mon Apr 21, 2008 4:24 am
i'm scared of trying to do better.
because what happens if i try and i can't?
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by HakunaMatata » Mon Apr 21, 2008 2:52 pm
*STRICTLY NO IRL*
I've been there for 2 or 3 friends through pregnancy scares/miscarriages now. Only when it was my turn last week cause I was late, I didn't have anyone. And I realised if I did get pregnant, I wouldn't/couldn't tell a soul, not even my bf. I'd only tell medical people, so I could have an abortion. That way I'd only have to suffer from the guilt of me knowing, not having others know too.

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by Licentia Poetica » Tue Apr 22, 2008 2:38 pm
I could stop... if I wanted to.
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by Chey Kizoxie » Tue Apr 22, 2008 3:17 pm
dont bother calling me, im not going to talk to you
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by VowsOfSadness » Wed Apr 23, 2008 6:19 am
okay so I am gay.
or am I?
or does it even matter.
this kid was being crazy nice to me today and asked me out. This Guy, this man, I guess I should say.
And he isn't hott. But he isn't ugly. and I said yes. because he was a nice guy. and I'm bored. and I feel like im always asking god what to do & he just threw this one in my lap.
but today he was talking about sex & I said I was a virgin. we arent even dating yet we just met. and he was like I wont make you do anything until you're ready and I didn't answe the text so he was like im sorry I just believe in being open.
but i just thought. okay well even if we go out I have to tell him that it will never happen. because that part of me is still gay & scarred & hides behind "no sex until marriage" which Im not sure i believe.
idkkkkkkkkkkkk this sure is a challenge