Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

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Post by Scatterbrain » Sun Apr 13, 2008 6:04 am

I had to leave because I was so fucking uncomfortable. I hate that I cant even deal with that kind of situation. Sometimes I think that I'm just socially defective. :-?

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Post by Afternoon » Sun Apr 13, 2008 9:18 am

I'm not good enough for him.

He's brilliant and creative and compassionate and interesting and independent.

I'm mediocre and fake and selfish and boring and needy.

What the f does he think he's doing with me?

When will he wake up and realize who I am? When will he leave?
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Mon Apr 14, 2008 3:20 am

i hate that i've been cutting again.

its so dumb.


and everyone notices.

its just.... everything is changing and I HATE change
*Challenges welcome*
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Post by My Hazey Clarity » Mon Apr 14, 2008 4:02 am

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If you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.
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Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.
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Post by ThanksALatte » Mon Apr 14, 2008 4:22 am

i feel a little bit high right now. endorphins are...more noticeable than i thought.
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Post by strmdncr » Mon Apr 14, 2008 7:27 am

Right now I am feeling hurt, lost, little and alone but for once I'm realizing that it's b/c you can't care or maybe it's just won't care. I thought I mattered at least a little bit to you and your actions are saying that I thought wrong....and so I hate you for making me think that someone cared.
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Tue Apr 15, 2008 6:51 am

i got what i wanted


only its not what I want.

GOD why am I always doing this.
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Post by caged bird » Wed Apr 16, 2008 3:28 am

my thoughts are bad :(
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Post by lily_trying » Wed Apr 16, 2008 10:11 pm

things are harder than i can admit. :cry: :oops:

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Post by rememberthatiloveyou » Wed Apr 16, 2008 10:58 pm

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i'm at my summer job as a camp counselor, if it takes me a while to answer, its not because i'm ignoring you...just don't get on a computer much.

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Post by caged bird » Fri Apr 18, 2008 1:20 am

this is hurting so much more than i thought it would
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Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
Thieves and Kings: Volume Two by Mark Oakly

The line between normal and crazy seemed impossibly thin. A person would have to be an expert tightrope walker in order not to fall.
Running with scissors - Augusten Burroughs

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Post by Scatterbrain » Fri Apr 18, 2008 2:07 am

I just dont care right now.
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I'm not being honest with you.
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
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"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
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Post by Blake 1 » Fri Apr 18, 2008 6:51 pm

I can't take much more of this.
I'm not as
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Post by Chey Kizoxie » Sat Apr 19, 2008 6:28 pm

I feel gross because of how i look

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Post by volta » Mon Apr 21, 2008 4:24 am

i'm scared of trying to do better.
because what happens if i try and i can't?

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Post by HakunaMatata » Mon Apr 21, 2008 2:52 pm

*STRICTLY NO IRL*

I've been there for 2 or 3 friends through pregnancy scares/miscarriages now. Only when it was my turn last week cause I was late, I didn't have anyone. And I realised if I did get pregnant, I wouldn't/couldn't tell a soul, not even my bf. I'd only tell medical people, so I could have an abortion. That way I'd only have to suffer from the guilt of me knowing, not having others know too.

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Tue Apr 22, 2008 2:38 pm

I could stop... if I wanted to.
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by Chey Kizoxie » Tue Apr 22, 2008 3:17 pm

dont bother calling me, im not going to talk to you

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Post by steady hands » Wed Apr 23, 2008 1:18 am

I never want to stop.



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Post by VowsOfSadness » Wed Apr 23, 2008 6:19 am

okay so I am gay.

or am I?

or does it even matter.


this kid was being crazy nice to me today and asked me out. This Guy, this man, I guess I should say.

And he isn't hott. But he isn't ugly. and I said yes. because he was a nice guy. and I'm bored. and I feel like im always asking god what to do & he just threw this one in my lap.

but today he was talking about sex & I said I was a virgin. we arent even dating yet we just met. and he was like I wont make you do anything until you're ready and I didn't answe the text so he was like im sorry I just believe in being open.

but i just thought. okay well even if we go out I have to tell him that it will never happen. because that part of me is still gay & scarred & hides behind "no sex until marriage" which Im not sure i believe.

idkkkkkkkkkkkk this sure is a challenge
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a :lpurpstar:

I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

Drop by my place & say hi :)
Ask me anything!!!

I'm fully Recovered!

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