Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

[roseleaf]

It's been a week now. I know I'm selfish, but please just let me know.

[Birdie]

Maybe if I can gather my thoughts here, I can work up the courage to actually say some of this to you.....

But if you're wondering WHY i'm pissed off....
-You didn't defend me. I was always loyal to you. Always. Even when no one else was. You could always count on me. I didn't deserve this.
-You didn't check on me. Didn't ask how I was doing. Didn't make sure I was still fucking alive. Just let me go. How could you? Did you even care? Do you have any idea what could have happened?
-You KNEW how I felt about him....you knew that he was one of the few positive relationships I had left, what right did you have to interfere? It had nothing to do with him, why did you drag him into it?! And now that's gone too. Thanks a lot.
-You're a hypocrite! YOU'RE talking to ME about being APPROPRIATE? The things I could say about you...
-None of this was ever a concern until they had to open their fucking mouths. Then everything changed. And that's what hurts the most. Knowing that even as I continue to hold out hope, there's no going back. And now the entire thing is just tainted. The support, the love, the trust I had there....all of it's gone. And you have no idea how that breaks my heart.

[RG]

Its fucking driving me up the wall that you don't talk to me anymore. I am doing my best to stay supportive and trying to remain patient until you come around, but I think one of these days I am going to snap on you. I need someone to talk to right now and I feel scared and nervous to talk to you because you have backed off. I want my fucking friend back...

[TheRockingHorse]

Yes I left my internship early and called the suicide hotline because I felt just a little bad and didn't want to stick it out. Fuck you, I'm drowning.

[capricorn]

Anger is a valid emotion, a valid response to all the fuckery that goes down in the world, it's what moves people to change things, it's what gets shit done. It is a part of being human. So seriously, fuck you for being judgy and shaming me for HAVING A FUCKING EMOTION, and telling me it's not right, not warranted, not valid.
Guess what, I don't have to have your permission to FEEL WHAT I FEEL.
Also guess what, you, as an incredibly privileged straight white dude, do NOT get to tell me I'm not allowed to be angry about ableism, misogyny, homophobia, what the fuck ever. WHO THE FUCK GAVE YOU THE RIGHT?
Don't patronise me, don't tell me 'anger is never the right response', don't try to shame me for swearing when you don't see a problem with someone calling people 'retards', don't imagine for a SINGLE SECOND that you get to have any kind of opinion about MY emotions, MY life, what I do with MY body, MY opinions, MY reactions to MY experiences.

I literally do not respect you, please shut up.

[Birdie]

I love you, but you scare me.
Which is saying something, because I scare me.
I wish I could fix it all, because you don't deserve this.

[treasure]

Fuck you, A. I wish you'd learn how to deal with anger cos your tense silences make me feel uncertain and like I need to walk on eggshells to try and make you feel better. I don't even know if you're angry at me or just had a bad day but despite doing nothing wrong I keep second-guessing and feeling guilty and ashamed for doing something to upset you. I wish you had the compassion to deal with whatever I'm not doing properly, cos your anger makes me feel worthless and you don't say anything to offset that.

[Just Pomegranates]

STFU you petty, whiny bitch. I SOOOO see what V meant about you lately and frankly I'm disgusted/disappointed by it.

*someone from another site that's irritating me *

[Birdie]

So apparently, you have no idea, but i'm in love with you. I didn't ask for this, I didn't want this. But I love you and I can't stop loving you. You have no idea how much it hurt not talking to you for all that time. Even if I can't have you like that, I still want you in my life as a friend. You're so important to me. The reality hasn't quite sunk in yet that you're moving soon, getting married soon, starting a new chapter in your life....I just hope that, even in some small way, i'll continue to be a part of your life, and you in mine. Thank you for everything that you did for me, i'm eternally grateful. All I want is for you to be happy and to live your dreams. Just don't forget about me, kay?

[Paws]

Finding out you are expecting your first child with her when you told me you never wanted kids, you have no idea how much that hurts! I shouldn't be surprised really, everything you told me was lies. I wish I could be happy for you, you look so happy together. But knowing you've moved forward in your life so dramatically while I seem to be taking eternal steps backwards... Well, it just hurts too much. I can only hope and pray that I never see you again because I think it would finish me for good.

[kermit]

I don't want to be back here.

[Spidey]

I'll just quote Yeezy here:

I guess you've got another advantage
'cause you could blame me for everything.
And I don't know how I'm a manage,
If one day you just up and leave

You blame me for everything and it's frankly, bullshit.

[Birdie]

You suck at your job.
You're an asshole.
Everyone knows you're full of shit.
Fuck you.
Take your bullshit elsewhere. PLEASE.

[Spidey]

I'd really like to know what the fuck you were thinking when you decided to have a go at me and decide that I was lying to you when I clearly wasn't. Oh wait, I'm sorry - you wanted me to spend a shitton of money I couldn't afford just to make you happy.

So very, very typical of you. Every time you open your mouth, you find a way to lose even yet more of my respect.

[Spidey]

JESUS H TITTYFUCKING CHRIST ARE YOU A FUCKING MORON

[[iamacliche]]

i'm starting to hate you.

[TheRockingHorse]

Shut the fuck up and let me talk. That's what I pay you for isn't it?

[Birdie]

I have a completely unhealthy attachment to you, and if that's disturbed, i'm legitimately afraid i'll die.

[Just Pomegranates]

So fucking sick of being told that everything I do is worth nothing/not classified as 'real work' and that by extension I'm not worth anything. Why don't you get off your whinging ass and get a university degree for at least 3/4 years - probably 2 degrees - and tell me if that's hard work or not? Why don't you sort your own mental health out instead of living with your head in the sand blaming everyone else and keep it sorted and tell me if that's hard work or not?

I'd SO badly love to slap you in the fucking face for that, you horrible bitch.

[Spidey]

I knew what you'd have to say would be hard, but I didn't expect it to hit me like this.