Things Left Unsaid *LA*

[capricorn]

You're so fucking obvious.

[mande]

I'm tired of you making me feel like shit when you feel like shit.

[sparklingdust]

I know it's so wrong, but it hurts so much to see you beginning a new relationship. We're so close and I'm definitely happy for you, but to know that you've found someone you love and who loves you too... it's just too much to take in. I've been wanting a relationship myself, and part of being happy for you involves being sad for myself. Logically it doesn't make any sense because I really do want you to be happy and you totally deserve to, and I feel like a selfish b***h saying all these, but it does hurt. But I always love you the same. You're almost like a sister to me and I know this will never change. I hope this will never change.

[Annybelly]

I'm not okay. I'm really not okay, and as pathetic as it seems, I need you to make things better.

[loveLights]

i'm faking everything

[Neviah]

You're my best friend, so I'll always be here, through anything. I promise

[Annybelly]

Thank You

Thank You Too.

Sorry, but its better this way, thats why i thank him. Honest.

[volta]

hi, d-daddy.
it's veteran's day this thursday.
i still want to call you and hear your voice.
i know that you never heard me in our phone calls - you usually just said hi, i love you, and handed the phone to memomma. but i called just to hear you say it, anyway.
i don't go to visit her anymore, and i feel awful about it. i hate to see her like this. alone. i hate to see her alone.
i wish you'd come back.
i wish you weren't dead.
i love you.

-b

[Windswept Thumb]

I love you. I always will. It tears me apart that you can walk right by me and never even look at me, like I don't even exist.

[Annybelly]

Its better this way.. you didnt really like him all that much.. trust me. I sound so awful, but please, its so much better like this, and you are worth a million of him, and i'll say that until you believe it. I honestly will.

[Stefani140]

boss, you are a complete and utter moron. I am so tired of you "forgetting" stuff and fucking things up and I get to pick up the slack. I should get a raise for all the clean up work I do around here.

[sparklingdust]

You leave me feeling really confused if you talk to me; you leave me feeling really confused if you don't talk to me. My problem or yours? I think it's mine... I wish I had no emotions

[Annybelly]

[strider 151]

oh please, im so sorry, oh im so sorry

[Stefani140]

there is one thing on this planet that infuriates me more than anything else...insecurity. and you sir are the king of that fucking castle! How exactly can you tell me that you would never tell me what to do, and then in the same breath inform me that you don't want me spending time with someone. How does that even make sense in your brain? Do you actually think before this bullshit spews forth? I am not dealing with this right now, I've been dealing with it for 16 hours today and I'm too tired to do anymore.

[catylyx,ver.2]

J: I know you know i lied about that new scar on my leg. i wasn't brave enough to tell you that i was struggling so hard with my ED that i had to cut in order to not relapse. i'm sorry.

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D: i want to come home so badly. you never expected me to be anything i'm not, or do anything i couldn't do. all you wanted was me happy and safe. i miss you and the boys so much it hurts.

[Neviah]

im so scared you're not ok, the number doesn't work, i don't know where you are and im just so scared that you're not ok. You're my best friend and I just feel so powerless..I miss our chats. I've sent so many emails. I hope you're IP. I'm taking the fact I've not had an email about you to be a good thing. And I'm hoping that if you are IP I may get an email in 6 months time when you've been in, and I hope you come out feeling good. I'm not doing all that great. Now that I don't have you to talk to in the mornings I wish I'd been straight with you instead of always saying "im ok" and you always saying "try again" I just want to curl up and cry, I want to fade away and I don't know why. I miss you. I want to be the friend you wanted when you said you wanted one you could depend on all the time. I wish I wasn't so far away if I was there I'd go by your place and see you or at least be able to ask someone where you are, if you're ok. Least I'd know you were alive. I keep checking that other forum but you've stopped posting on it, quite a while ago actually. That worries me more. Cause you said you were on others of the same nature. PLease please be ok. Or at least tell me you're not and we can talk about it. I want to be able to kick back and think "he's ok he'll be IP" but I can't because of the guilt i'll feel if you weren't cause of the guilt I'm feeling every day for not being able to call you but that number won't work.. and I don't know if it's me or what but i don't really know anything about US numbers.

Please be ok.

[Annybelly]

^ [if okay- I know this is generally non-reply]

I just wish you'd stop being a moody cow all the time. Can you not see what you're doing to this family? The way you make him act makes me feel ill, its disgusting.
And you can stop being a lazy slob as well, I almost sympathise with the cow..

[DuchessN]

I can't believe it. Why don't you see? She hurt you again, she does that more and more often. And it's me you come to for comfort. I was there for you early this AM as you were crying over this latest hurt she caused. I was there for you, just as I always am, not matter the time or place. How many times is she going to hurt you only for you to go back and tell me "We're fine now." I'm eventually going to end up screaming this at you: SHE DOES NOT DESERVE YOU! All the amazing things you do for her, the things you say about her, she doesn't deserve them. What I would give for you to once look at me that way. Why won't you even give me a chance?

[xXelmoscaresmeXx]

i like you. alot. god, just please stop avoiding me, ignoring me. hell, at least tell me why! what did i do? monday was awesome, i want to come over again. it was the most content ive felt in the past 3 years. i wasnt bored at all, and we were watching the fucking 4 o' clock news! you made the 4 o' clock news interesting, pointing out random ass things. only youd notice that the fucking ad for the army had a dude playing solitaire in the background. you fucking noticed my arm, and asked why? not how can you do that, or tell me to stop. just why. and when i couldnt answer, you didnt push it. just ran your fingers over the scars, then held onto my hand. i didnt want to leave. and you didnt want me to leave. we were cuddling on your couch, and 5:30 came around, and you just held me, we stood up and hugged and just fell back on the couch, and you were just whispering "im sorry, you have to go" but you didnt let go, and our lips were an inch apart. and then we stood up and walked to the door and you hugged me again, picking me up off the ground, and whispered for me to text you when i got home, so you could make sure i got home safe. you made me feel loved, wanted, you made me feel worth it. then you avoided me. all week. i miss you. and now i remember that im not worth it, that i dont deserve you. that im not wanted, i dont deserve the love. now im just a fucking emotional time bomb, i know that if you dont talk to me on wednesday, on my fucking birthday, ill fall apart. and its not your fault im so fragile, its not your fault im this weak.