After

[half/hearted]

* have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait.
Yes.

* what had happened just before?
I'd been writing in my diary about what shape I wanted to cut.

* what were you thinking and feeling?
I felt terrible about drinking.

* why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it?
Drinking.

* how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events that led up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decision and not arrived at the final straw.
I could have chosen not to drink.

* were there outside factors like drugs, alcohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
Alcohol. I'm never drinking it again.

* what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
I wrote poetry.

* in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
Playing music.

* name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
1) keep my tools hidden farther from reach
2) not drink

* how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
I'm not going to drink anymore.

* are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
I will feel depressed and feel like I need to be punished.

* what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.
1) play music
2) draw something
3) write

* What made that opportunity more appealing than any other?
I was drunk and felt like that was an excuse.

* Did you make an opportunity or was it there for the taking?
I made the opportunity. I took the choice to drink.

* What would you have done if there was no opportunity, how would you have handled your urge?
I would have taken deep breaths and used my anti-anxiety meds (within prescribed dosage).

* If there had been no opportunity would your urge to self-harm have increased or decreased?
Decreased.

* What constitutes opportunity for you? Being alone? having new tools? waiting for the right feeling?
Being drunk and out of control.

* If your opportunities were taken away, how would you feel?
Free.