After

[Annybelly]

slips are chances to learn. you figure out what stresses are still too hard for you and you can work on how you'll deal with them next time you run into them. so instead of beating yourself up, take action.

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait.
have done..

what had happened just before?
erm, i was at a concert actually, it was good, i came home, watched some tv, and went upstairs to bed.

what were you thinking and feeling?
glad the conert had gone well, proud it had, on a bit of a high. then i got into my room.. and my tools started calling me.

why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it?
i would've been 3 weeks on sunday si free (which, for me, is big) soi think part of it was fear of that. fear of such a long (for me) time without si. i'd been missing it for ages anyway. i just think i couldnt b bothered to fight anymore. and i'd eaten fairly well, which wasnt helping

how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events that led up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decision and not arrived at the final straw.
i dont think there was much else i couldve done. the 'final straw' so to speak, was just missing si, and i would miss si ultimately till i did si. so i couldve put it off, but not forever.


were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
not really. i was tired i guess, both from staying up later to avoid triggers, and lack of food/sugar.

what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
in the past few nights, i tried a lot, and they all worked. i didnt try much last night, i just gave in. i couldnt thinkof a way to fight it.

in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
i prolly couldve written something. done some homework.

name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
ooh.. toughie. imma keep my notebook near my tools, so i see it before i si. and i'll try and find a new place for my tools.

how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
it's resolved to the point where its not so long since i sied, but then again, iv given in now. i dont know how i could help it. at the end of the day, this time, i sied mainly because i just missed it, and secondly because i'd eaten too much, and had too good a time.

are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
i'll want to si..

what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.
oooh...
1) writing something.. poem, story whatever
2) homework
3) writing on me with pens