last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
because I am working so hard on not, and I don't want to have another slip that I will have to explain to the people at the outpatient place.
Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
the only thing stopping me tonight is the fact its my mum's birthday tomorrow and I don't want to connect it with the first time I self harmed in nearly two years.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
I thought about the fact I am going to IOP tomorrow
Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
Because it makes no sense to put physical pain on top of the physical pain I'm already having.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
Electric Prophet wrote:Because it makes no sense to put physical pain on top of the physical pain I'm already having.
thats a great reason. I think I will tell myself that when im catching myself doing negitive self talk.
Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
the only thing stopping me tonight is the fact I told myself I wouldn't when I started the line of work I am doing now. It makes me resent a job I love at the moment which I hate.
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I know I have to pull myself together this year before I go off to college.
I'm focusing on the future.
I'm focusing on the future.
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I know the feeling beneath the urge doesn't really want to.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
still trying to figure out how i haven't yet...maybe because it's just another item on my list of things i'm procrastinating about right now.
...i like what jadestarwalking said, thats sorta how i feel and why i haven't as of right now...
...i like what jadestarwalking said, thats sorta how i feel and why i haven't as of right now...
I know the feeling beneath the urge doesn't really want to.
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last time i wanted to si, i didn't because it would hurt my boyfriend really badly because he was already breaking down because of me and what's going on in his life.
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last time I wanted to si I didn't because I called the crisis hotline and talked to someone.
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I decided to work off the urges by cleaning house.
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because i was with some friends and i don't want them to know i still hurt myself
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I remembered that my friends and family don't want to see me hurt myself.
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I know that I really don't want to, the urges are just telling me that I do.
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i forced myself to practice guitar and then call my boyfriend so i would stop thinking about it
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Last time i wanted to SI was yesterday...
I didn't because my girlfriend was there and held me after reading my help post and she reminded me on how she is strong and she hasn't done it in 27 days which made me so proud that when i wanted to i just couldn't because when she held me it just reminded me of how it hurt when she would do it and that's why she is stopping, so she stopped it and made me realize that i could hold back too if she could
I didn't because my girlfriend was there and held me after reading my help post and she reminded me on how she is strong and she hasn't done it in 27 days which made me so proud that when i wanted to i just couldn't because when she held me it just reminded me of how it hurt when she would do it and that's why she is stopping, so she stopped it and made me realize that i could hold back too if she could
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
I didn't want any more fresh cuts to hide in the middle of summer.
I want to be able to tell my pdoc and T that I resisted my urges.
I want to be able to tell my pdoc and T that I resisted my urges.
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I kept myself in the here and now
Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
The last time I wanted to SI I didn't because I knew it would take effort.
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