Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]
- Scatterbrain
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I'm fucking terrified.
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
not knowing is killing me. not talking to you is killing me. at least if you just ended it i'd know where i'd stand and be able to move forward somehow.
i really hope you're not stupid enough to end this over one thing.
im planning to turn up at your flat later, unexpectedly, because i need a resolution on this and i think that face-to-face is the only way i'll get it.
i really hope you're not stupid enough to end this over one thing.
im planning to turn up at your flat later, unexpectedly, because i need a resolution on this and i think that face-to-face is the only way i'll get it.
- DecemberLivy
- just plain inspiring
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I'm way too lazy to go into further education and I know it, but I've managed to fool everyone into thinking I'm some brilliant hardworking prodigy. I'm not. I'm just a lazy girl.
<center>my walpole cafe
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
- balletomane
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I told my friend he didn't have to be friends with me. I gave him an "out." He said he didn't want an out. We talked more and I said that I would feel more comfortable only spending time together when I am happy. He said whatever makes me comfortable is fine. What he doesn't know yet is this is me taking my out.
PMs welcome.
PMs welcome.
- VowsOfSadness
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all my life I said I want to be invited to these big parties like the ones I see on TV. But I never knew the right people. I haven't BINGE DRINKED in 6 months. I'm finally invited to a big party. This is my chance right???
WRONG.
It is a co-ed beer pong tournament. and kw, my bestie from work (this mainly involved the guys from work) asked me to be his partner. I was so flattered but im concerned about three things
1.) His GF is going to be there as well (can you say DITCHED) with only know the host it doesn't seem like a good thing.
2.) When I am drunk I am a few things: I am very much "in love" or "love" people, or so I think. I am very bellegerent. I am depressed after. That doesn't make for a good party.
3.) Though me & kw have "made up" with the host & have "made up for" the things we've done the underlying plan is to....trash his house. I mean it's not my plan but supposedly I'll "Like it a lot more when I'm drunk".
That's what the hell I'm afraid of. We are supposed to be showing how we can be UNDER CONTROL not showing why we are almost unwanted at parties.
to be partners we had to have a lot of exceptions. Everyone is talking about it. Even the host was worried that's why we have all these exceptions. He said.
"Oh great, the two people who are the most out of control, that shouldn't be partners, found eachother."
he's afraid for his house. & I am too.
PM's WELCOME <3
WRONG.
It is a co-ed beer pong tournament. and kw, my bestie from work (this mainly involved the guys from work) asked me to be his partner. I was so flattered but im concerned about three things
1.) His GF is going to be there as well (can you say DITCHED) with only know the host it doesn't seem like a good thing.
2.) When I am drunk I am a few things: I am very much "in love" or "love" people, or so I think. I am very bellegerent. I am depressed after. That doesn't make for a good party.
3.) Though me & kw have "made up" with the host & have "made up for" the things we've done the underlying plan is to....trash his house. I mean it's not my plan but supposedly I'll "Like it a lot more when I'm drunk".
That's what the hell I'm afraid of. We are supposed to be showing how we can be UNDER CONTROL not showing why we are almost unwanted at parties.
to be partners we had to have a lot of exceptions. Everyone is talking about it. Even the host was worried that's why we have all these exceptions. He said.
"Oh great, the two people who are the most out of control, that shouldn't be partners, found eachother."
he's afraid for his house. & I am too.
PM's WELCOME <3
*Challenges welcome*
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Drop by my place & say hi
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Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
- steady hands
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- PassingCloud
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it was her that triggered me.
[I'm talking about my life.][I can't seem to get that through to you.]
[I'm not just talking about one person,][I'm talking about everybody.]
[I'm talking about form, I'm talking about content.][I'm talking about inter-relationships.]
[I'm talking about God, the Devil, Hell, Heaven!]
[Do you understand?]
[Finally?]
(one flew over the cuckoo's nest)
My Place
- DecemberLivy
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I love you and you'll never know it.
<center>my walpole cafe
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
- VowsOfSadness
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I sold drugs to get the money to pay my dad. I just didn't have the money on me. And I was mad he said he didn't care how I got it.
Then my friend kept saying "lets celebrate us making a nice cut!" And I said NO I'm clean I just needed money.
And she said let me walk you to class (because I did this before college classes started) But we had to walk past the stadium and there was a pirates game and there was all this excitement even though we always lose.
And everyone is drinking. And I thought, "Why not celebrate" so I got guys to buy me alcohol.
And I skipped one class & went to the other one tipsy.
I'm not sure if I should count that against my binge drinking free for 6 months, I guess I'd call it a slip.
more so I lied to my mom. She was calling me ugly and fat & I said "I'll have you know I could have gotten free beer on my way to class today because I had to pass the stadium!"
and she said "Like that would have been a good idea."
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Then my friend kept saying "lets celebrate us making a nice cut!" And I said NO I'm clean I just needed money.
And she said let me walk you to class (because I did this before college classes started) But we had to walk past the stadium and there was a pirates game and there was all this excitement even though we always lose.
And everyone is drinking. And I thought, "Why not celebrate" so I got guys to buy me alcohol.
And I skipped one class & went to the other one tipsy.
I'm not sure if I should count that against my binge drinking free for 6 months, I guess I'd call it a slip.
more so I lied to my mom. She was calling me ugly and fat & I said "I'll have you know I could have gotten free beer on my way to class today because I had to pass the stadium!"
and she said "Like that would have been a good idea."
lksdhfjahdjklfjiadb
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a
I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
I always love a
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
- dawni
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I'm scared that secretly you just want to tell me to just do it already.
While the thought is appreciated, I often don't do well with hugs so unless I ask for them, hug alternatives such as flowers or rainbows (or anything else at all, really) would be preferred please and thank you.
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I feel stronger with you close by ~ dawni's Place - all welcome.
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I feel stronger with you close by ~ dawni's Place - all welcome.
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- acdcrocker1909
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I'm scared to admit how I feel.
Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.
Less Traveled Roads <-- Everyone Welcome.
- treasure
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i want to tell my counsellor how i've been feeling and go ip, but i'm really really scared that she will not understand or the hospital won't take me. they've done it before where they didn't think i was depressed enough. i'm scared of what i will do to prove i'm not ok. (or decide i don't want to bother with ip and just si/od/su)
- My Hazey Clarity
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i become fasinated with getting this or that to the point of it becoming an pbsession.. then once I get it , i really dont want it by the next day and move onto the next thing I must aquire.
If you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.
~ Friedrich Nietzsche
Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.
~ T. S. Eliot
~ Friedrich Nietzsche
Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.
~ T. S. Eliot
- VowsOfSadness
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I can't go to the hospital because I don't have time.
I haven't told my mom I'm failing out of college.
I'm DEATHLY afraid of kw leaving for college this summer.
I'm afraid of what my life's become.
I haven't told my mom I'm failing out of college.
I'm DEATHLY afraid of kw leaving for college this summer.
I'm afraid of what my life's become.
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a
I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
I always love a
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
- acdcrocker1909
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I'm scared of walking out of those doors.. and being forgotten.
Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.
Less Traveled Roads <-- Everyone Welcome.
- My Hazey Clarity
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I used to steal from shops all of the time and was never caught. I miss the feeling i would get from it even though i am now older and mature and am afraid of getting caught
If you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.
~ Friedrich Nietzsche
Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.
~ T. S. Eliot
~ Friedrich Nietzsche
Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.
~ T. S. Eliot
- VowsOfSadness
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I probably rather be hit by a truck than go to this beer pong tournament.
In fact I have been thinking of crazy ways to get out of it without being held at fault for leaving my b.p. partner alone.
idk.
its scarier as it gets closer
In fact I have been thinking of crazy ways to get out of it without being held at fault for leaving my b.p. partner alone.
idk.
its scarier as it gets closer
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a
I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
I always love a
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
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