Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by smr89 » Mon Mar 17, 2008 4:50 am

**possible triggers**

I want to slip. I can feel the place on my ankle right now. Hes the only reason I dont, the only reason. Man I want to so bad. But I won't.
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Mon Mar 17, 2008 8:15 am

If I killed myself now, everyone would assume I'm pathetic and did it over a guy :cry:
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Post by tanz » Mon Mar 17, 2008 8:23 pm

I feel like i can't do this whole life thing anymore.
'cause total life forever will never be enough

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Post by marylou » Mon Mar 17, 2008 10:19 pm

I want your husband.
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Post by breathing » Tue Mar 18, 2008 12:29 am

I would like to hide for a short while,
but I wish that you were with me.

I almost want to call you, to know where you are.


You make me feel free inside.

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Tue Mar 18, 2008 12:39 am

I brought vodka with me to uni today.

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Tue Mar 18, 2008 12:52 am

even though i didn't tell him, i'm still worried i might not be able to have kids... my doctor said my chances of carrying through were very slim, but i can't make myself tell him... his expression when he talks about having children is too precious to me, i can't ruin that for him...
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Post by ThanksALatte » Tue Mar 18, 2008 2:50 am

i slipped. after years. i slipped. and now i hate myself.
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Post by ultimate starshine » Tue Mar 18, 2008 1:52 pm

im trying to be nice but i jsut wantto tell you straight that your being an idiot.
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Post by smr89 » Wed Mar 19, 2008 8:19 am

I slipped. I don't even know how I feel right now. Sad I guess. I love Jeff so much....soooo much. It hurts me so bad that I hurt him. I am so sorry but I had to do what I had to do. I don't want to break up but I just really don't think this is meant to be, despite how we feel. Jeff I'm so sorry. Please don't hate me! Please!
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Post by ultimate starshine » Wed Mar 19, 2008 9:32 am

I can be in a huge and crowded room but i still feel lonely when you are not here
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Post by Callisto » Wed Mar 19, 2008 10:20 am

for the first time in as long as i can remember i want a future. a real achieveable, maintainable future. i've spent so long only planning a month or a year in advance, planning long enough to be able to attempt a suicide without being noticed that this feels quite alien to me now. but its amazing. to be able to plan things and have ideas and want to do things/experience things and not feel like there's some time limit being slowly ticked out by my mind is truly amazing.

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Post by Beasty » Wed Mar 19, 2008 7:58 pm

I want his brother more than I want him right now. *cries* We had the most brilliant conversation that lasted four and a half hours and now I want the brother that understands, not the brother that will be devoted. At least I think so. I'd rather be in my anti-social shell with the anti-social boy than be out in the social world with the fun-loving boy. I'm basically asking if I can screw myself over for all time because I made the wrong choice.

Why did I agree and pursue all those months ago? All it did was set me up to regret and long for something else.
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Post by breathing » Wed Mar 19, 2008 10:14 pm

I just feel so sad, despite the fact that everything is going well.

Why can't I just be normal?

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Post by MusicalMorphine » Wed Mar 19, 2008 10:47 pm

I want to help you all. If I don't how can I ask for the same in return? But it's just draining me right now, because I need it too and none of you seem to be able to see that.

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Post by Scatterbrain » Wed Mar 19, 2008 11:12 pm

I miss you and its been like 24 hours. How the hell am I going to get through the summer?

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Thu Mar 20, 2008 9:27 am

i'm afraid i'm alone.

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Post by calypso » Thu Mar 20, 2008 11:12 am

I want to restrict again.

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Post by caged bird » Thu Mar 20, 2008 9:48 pm

i went hunting for them, and found them, now i just have to convince myself to keep going
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Post by smr89 » Fri Mar 21, 2008 3:52 am

Something doesn't feel right. I'm not sure why.
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"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand under it."
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