who are you right now? *lang trigs*

[nirvana]

did this originally in my place to stop myself from dissociating, and i really liked it. i'm sure it's been done somewhere here before, but i don't know where. so this might help someone. i'll post a blank one incase anyone wants to use it, then post my current answers.

i am...

i am not...

i feel...

i want...

i need...

i have...

i love...

i hate...

[nirvana]

i am...
-alive.
-real.
-friendly.
-trustworthy.
-intelligent.
-myself.
-a bitch. sometimes.
-complicated.

i am not...
-a slut/whore/ho/skank.
-invisible.
-stupid.
-worthless.
-dead.
-a bitch. most of the time.
-easily trusting.
-easy to understand.

i feel...
-alone.
-empty.
-confused.
-confusing.

i want...
-sleep.
-a teddy bear.
-a friend.

i need...
-sleep.
-to stay busy.
-to study/finish work.

i have...
-goldfish.
-my phone.
-fuzzy pants.
-books.

i love...
-these pants.
-my friends.
-bus.
-food.

i hate...
-labels.
-feeling this way.
-certain people.

[VowsOfSadness]

i am...
a person. A REAL person.
i am not...
SI. I am not evil. I am not "bad".
i feel...
a bit sad, often happy, i'm working on it.
i want...
To find myself.
i need...
love, kindness, understanding, support (especially from myself).
i have...
depression. I have friends and a loving family. I HAVE FAITH.
i love...
ice cream, movies, social things.
i hate...
the screaming in my head, any screaming, bad feelings.

-thankx for that
~*~Vows~*~ (Amanda)

[Mundo Cani]

I don't think that I can be overly positive with this and I hope that I haven't missed the point in doing so. If it's not meant to be self depricating and to be more life affirming then pm the mods and I won't mind at all if it gets removed. But I'm really intrigued by this and want to do it. Sorry again if I've missed the point.

i am...
-pathetic
-weak
-overly and unnecesarily complicated
-unworthy

i am not...
-happy
-'well'
-dead yet

i feel...
-alone
-sad
-tired

i want...
-peace
-happiness
-to feel like everything will be ok

i need...
-love that I can appreciate and feel deserving of
-to have someone to love in return

i have...
-scars and troubles
-a great many things that I can't appreciate or be thankful for (which makes me hate myself more)

i love...
-my ex and her whippets

i hate...
-me

[Catylyx]

i'll answer these the best i can...

i am...
hurting
beautiful
strong
trying...

i am not...
stupid
just "wanting attention"
as strong as i pull off to be
alone anymore...

i feel...
depressed
hurt
scared
tired
worried
loved
frustrated
angry
...beautiful when you look at me...

i want...
to not hurt anymore
to be able to look at myself in the mirror w/out flinching
to accept love
to wear shorts again
to not be so paranoid anymore

i need...
to love myself

i have...
scars
nightmares
issues
cool toe socks...that say i have issues...

i love...
-Daniel
-Sam
-BUS
...my paintings...
and hugs

i hate...
my scars
that i hurt
that i can't ask for help
that so many people don't understand


Hope that was okay...i liked that, made me realize a few things....thanks

--Sammy

[nirvana]

I don't think that I can be overly positive with this and I hope that I haven't missed the point in doing so. If it's not meant to be self depricating and to be more life affirming then pm the mods and I won't mind at all if it gets removed. But I'm really intrigued by this and want to do it. Sorry again if I've missed the point.

i think it can help no matter what mood you're in. i mean, i was upset. and i can definately think of times when i would have answered the questions a lot more harshly. but either way, it can help to have it out of your head and written on paper.

glad people like this; it helped me a lot. i'll probably do it often too, because my moods change so often.

xxx

[mallie]

This is a great idea Tara.

Even if its not positive, it can be good to be able to specify what you're feeling/thinking at a point in time. Once its defined, it can be easier to work on ways to deal with those feelings.

[red umbrellas]

i am...
real
someone who wants to be something else
kind (well, i try...)

i am not...
weak
stupid
confident
cruel

i feel...
weak
lonely
scared
tired
alone
unmotivated

i want...
to be loved by someone i can return the love to
to be more able to cope
to be more confident
to not be alone
to be motivated

i need...
love
support
more than i can ever have

i have...
caring parents
a wonderful dog
a fantastic best friend
a messed up head

i love...
my friends (although i sometimes wonder if they love me)
my family
the lovely bussers who are there for me
the music that keeps me going

i hate...
myself
the way i can be so stupid sometimes
my social inabilities.

[treasure]

i am... crying

i am not... going to si

i feel... so alone & different

i want... a hug, everyone around to go away (except someone to give me a hug )

i need... to stop procrastinating, to calm down

i have... cds to play

i love... (have to think hard) being independent, that my sister is visiting in a week

i hate... uni, myself

thank u for this

[lonelygirl]

i am...
frustrated

i am not...
able to think straight

i feel...
alone

i want...
to be happy

i need...
some to say its all gonna be ok

i have...
too much to think about

i love...
my music

i hate...
the screaming in my head

[nirvana]

i am... tired

i am not... upset

i feel... calm

i want... a teddy bear

i need... sleep

i have... fuzzy pants on

i love... him

i hate... my dad

[eyeris]

I am . . . revolting, disgusting, worthless, pointless, a waste of space, NOTHING, a hopeless failure, a coward, weak, to blame for everything, ready to give up, stuck in a dead end

I am not . . . worth the money for treatment, worth my t's time, hopeful about anything

I feel . . . hopeless, worthless, pointless, inconsequential, insignificant, pessimistic, hateful towards myself, like giving up

I want . . . to feel thin enough to escape my self-hatred, the courage to 'off' myself, to not care about anyone's feelings so that I can SU without fearing guilt, to figure out what the hell I'm so depressed about, to understand why I sometimes feel the need to SI and why I sometimes actually do it and other times I don't, to [feel like I] deserve to be better, to stop trivializing everything bad that's happened/is happening to me just b/c I don't feel it's bad ENOUGH

I need . . . to have a clue what I need -- as of yet, I have none

I have . . . no future, no friends, too much fat, too much guilt, too much despair, too much skill at pretending everything's okay

I love . . . my hyperactive tabby cat, my dying tabby cat, to like most people and things okay, to avoid admitting I love anything or anyone

I hate . . . MYSELF MYSELF MYSELF! life, humankind as a destructive and self-centered species (no offense -- individual exceptions of course), my body

-e

[mallie]

Having a pretty tough day today. Thought I might have a go at this and see if it helps. Its a lot harder than it looks.

i am...
trying
generally capable

i am not...
stupid
worthless
a lost cause

i feel...
tired and disconnected
very low
empty and alone

i want...
to feel okay again
to be loved and comforted
for life to be simple

i need...
to be hopeful
reassurance and encouragement
mental clarity

i have...
bus where i can ask for support
control over my actions

i love...
my cat
things that colour my day
natural smiles

i hate...
how I'm feeling right now
emptiness
being irrational

[Green Beauty]

i am...
Worthless

i am not...
Who i want to be

i feel...
Angry
Sad
Miserable

i want...
To be able to say what i want to when i want to

i need...
Help

i have...
Not alot worth mentioning

i love...
My family
My friends
And most of all even though she doesnt know, I love Kim

i hate...
Me
Rude/Arrogant People

[lonelygirl]

i am... frustrated

i am not... in a good place

i feel... like im going crazy

i want... to not feel this way

i need... something, anything

i have... a headache (again )

i love... Michael Jackson more than my own life

i hate... ignorant people

[Wall]

i am...
lonely
frightened
wary

i am not...
beyond reach
angry
controlling

i feel...
confused
uncertain
numb

i want...
a hug
a friend
to be seen

i need...
air
ambient temperature

i have...
all i need
it easy
too many blessings to count

i love...
my sons -- though i have no idea what love ireally s

i hate...
not knowing what love really is
having no idea whether anyone cares whether i'm breathing
feeling completely alone
feeling nothing

[meg0n]

i am...
A new person,
loving,
happy,
but alone

i am not...
too sad
too angry

i feel...
alone
weird
not sure really

i want...
to be happy all the time
everyone to accept me
i want to be who i am

i need...
to be loved
to make decisions

i have...
myself
my music
and my friends

i love...
my music
my friends

i hate...
most things,
people who put others down.
selfish people, even though i can be selfish so i hate myself in a way to.

Ok so that was interesting, made me think.!

[ladymorgaine]

i am...
A waste
Hopeless
A pessimist
Unique in my own way
A human being

i am not...
Pretty
Who I want to be

i feel...
Lonely
Afraid
Depressed
Angry
Sad
Hopeless

i want...
To disappear

i need...
Money
To move
To find my purpose

i have...
Nothing... that matters anyway

i love...
My cat
My books
Shopping
Music
Movies

i hate...
Myself

[Miss_Panda]

i am...
*alive
*here
*trying to explain why I do what I do

i am not...
*stupid
*a dumb child
*invisible

i feel...
*like i don't want to be here any more

i want...
*to ignore L and not listen to her dumb lies

i need...
*someone who understands how I feel to listen to me

i have...
*great friends who I love so much (Ames, Nikki, Kitty, Sanch)

i love...
*being able to talk to Ames and the fact that she understands how I feel

i hate...
*L, everything about her.I wish I'd never met her....

[singo]

i am...
sad
alone
scared of the future


i am not...
feeling loved
hungry
interested

i feel...
unloved
tired
hurt
not good enough


i want...
to cut
my bf to cuddle me
to sleep

i need...
to be heard
a hug

i have...
everything material i require
a phone

i love...
my ben
chocolate
honey on toast
coffee

i hate...
tea
loud noises
people who don't show affection