who are you right now? *lang trigs*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Illumina
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Post by Illumina » Wed Jun 01, 2005 12:31 pm

i am...
- stronger than I think
- hurting
- trapped
- going to be ok
- feeling guilty

i am not...
- to blame for everything
- depressed

i feel...
- hurt
- broken
- pushed to the limit
- guilty

i want...
- to feel safe
- to feel loved
- to be held

i need...
- security
- stability

i have...
- people that want to be there for me
- people that love me (even if they fuck up as much as me)
- a complicated life.

i love...
- too many people that don't love me

i hate...
- myself.
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Post by Beasty » Wed Jun 01, 2005 7:56 pm

i am...
a crewbie
compassionate

i am not...
alright
preppy

i feel...
pained
fat

i want...
to be loved
chocolate

i need...
a haircut
to excersize today

i have...
two Phantom movies
toe shoes

i love...
Alex
Ms. Funderburk

i hate...
myself
being alone
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Post by t_k » Fri Jun 03, 2005 11:15 am

i am...
- tired
- sore
- out of it
- hungry
- intruiged...
- cold

i am not...
- warm
- happy
- safe feeling
- content

i feel...
- depressed
- fat
- mentally exhausted
- fake
- useless

i want...
- brittany to leave nick alone
- corey to stop being a dick (ha!)
- to burn... a lot
- my dylan
- things the way they were

i need...
- sleep
- food
- sex

i have...
- a perfectly good bed to sleep in
- work in the morning
- burns on my arm

i love...
- sex
- hugs with gavin
- my piercings

i hate...
- brittany.
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Post by plantt » Sat Jun 04, 2005 2:05 am

i am...
me
tall
capable
determined
stubborn
difficult
going to make it to my goals
(human)

i am not...
stupid
fat
(unlikeable)

i feel...
tired
blank
empty
unreal

i want...

i need...

i have...

i love...
turnip
skittles
bean

i hate...

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marylou
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Post by marylou » Sun Jun 05, 2005 4:18 pm

i am...
in a really good place just now

i am not...
depressed anymore

i feel...
empowered

i want...
to keep this up

i need...
continual support

i have...
a terrific church and support group

i love...
my new flat!!

i hate...
that L used me
"You loosen my chains and just ask me to trust you. But it's so much easier this way, even though I know that I am bound."

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Illumina
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Post by Illumina » Sun Jun 05, 2005 4:24 pm

i am...
- empty
- low

i am not...
- the only one at fault

i feel...
- alone
- trapped
- scared

i want...
- to be loved

i need...
- security
- stability

i have...
- very little left

i love...
- her even thought she's so bad for me

i hate...
- this situation
- feeling like this
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Post by lin » Mon Jun 06, 2005 4:40 am

i am...
capable

i am not...
bad
horrible
fat
manipulative
stupid

i feel...
confused
overwhelmed
numb

i want...
to hide
for everything to be better
to be honest

i need...
to sort out my thoughts
to study for my exams
freedom
space
time alone

i have...
a cat on my knee
a family that cares about me

i love...
windy weather
rain
the beach
my cats

i hate...
feeling like this
not being able to identify what i'm feeling
being treated this way

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Post by magebaby » Mon Jun 06, 2005 1:10 pm

i am...
-tired
-selfish
-struggling
-foolish
-alone

i am not...
-ok
-good

i feel...
-guilty
-dirty inside myself
-sick

i want...
-to die
-to go back to the way things were before

i need...
-to feel needed
-to feel loved
-to be listened to

i have...
-caused pain to people i love

i love...
-them

i hate...
-myself
-feeling this way
"If you hear a voice within you say 'you cannot paint,' then by all means paint, and that voice will be silenced." -- Vincent Van Gogh

"Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?" --Nelson Mandela

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Post by BrokenxAngelx » Wed Jun 08, 2005 8:36 pm

I am...
~ Tired
~ Triggered
~ Alone
~ Upset
~ Hurting

I am not...
~ Beautiful
~ Coping
~ Special

I feel...
~ Upset
~ Shaky
~ Alone

I want...
~ To be happy
~ To be loved

I need...
~ To feel loved
~ To feel as though I'm not invisible

I have...
~ Made somebody happy

I love...
~ A certain person who I canot have

I hate...
~ Myself
~ Alot of people
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Post by leensie » Thu Jun 09, 2005 3:42 am

i am...
alive
lonely
sad
a little hopeful

i am not...
complaining
talking
thinking
sleeping

i feel...
invaded
closed up
like crying

i want...
to cry
sleep
my pillow

i need...
sleep
a hug
help

i have...
best friends

i love...
my best freinds
my family (somewhere deep down)
ice cream
my freinds
my bed
my music
bus.

i hate...
mean people
being ignored
feeling ignored
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Post by balletomane » Thu Jun 09, 2005 4:02 am

i am...
still breathing

i am not...
writing
thinking
fighting


i feel...
tired
lonely
scared
disappointed

i want...
to escape
to be free

i need...
Sleep
A shower

i have...
this question is too hard to answer

i love...
nothing

i hate...
me

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Post by DecemberLivy » Thu Jun 09, 2005 5:14 pm

i am...

alone

i am not...

the girl that guys want to date

i feel...

nothing inside... numb

i want...

to have someone who i can see and love me... like a bf

i need...

someone to love me and be here

i have...

to go to the loo (lol...)

i love...

mark

i hate...

myself
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Post by neassa » Sun Jun 12, 2005 5:53 pm

i am...
ugly
alone
broken
fat
single

i am not...
happy
thin
pretty
cheerful

i feel...
lonely
tired
depressed
sad
hurt

i want...
to be thin
to be happy
a boyfriend (rory)
a friend that actually listens and cares

i need...
to cry
rory
to stop lying to S
to stop lying to myself

i have...
long brown hair
a headache
an addiction to big brother
a guitar

i love...
pasta
rory
MCR
babies (as long as i can give them back)
my mam
S
my dad

i hate...
myself
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Sun Jun 12, 2005 10:13 pm

i am... me

i am not... bad, cocky, ugly, concieted

i feel...sad (atm), tired, unsure, insecure
(BUT I AM NOT THESE THINGS I ONLY fEel THEM)
i want... to start today over, to have something to do, Ryan to like me even more than he already does

i need... reassurence, something to do

i have... a couple days to my birthday (like 11 or something)!!!!!

i love... Laughing, hugs, kisses, smiles

i hate...myself sometimes it seems
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Post by Wall » Sun Jun 12, 2005 10:58 pm

i am...

a woman in a difficult situation some of which is the result of her own stupid choices

i am not...

stupid, selfish, controlling, abusive or emotionally out of control

i feel...

frightened, angry, stressed, anxious and utterly alone

i want...

to be not alone, to have the support of people who love and care for me, for the bastard who wears my ring to wake-up to his addictive behavior, admit what it's doing to our lives and begin the road to recovery

i need...

....who the hell knows? Frankly, just a hug from someone who acknowledges that this is damn hard would be so much more than I've received in years that I'd probably turn into a completely incapable emotional blob.

i have...

to live for my children

i love...

God and my children

i hate...

the bastard who wears my ring
Fearless warriors in a picket fence
Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end
And we are caught in the middle


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Post by XclippedXwingsX » Mon Jun 13, 2005 8:31 pm

i am...
~beautiful
~alive

i am not...
~ugly
~stupid

i feel...
~heartbroken
~bittersweet

i want...
~love
~to win a contest (heh)

i need...
~love
~happiness

i have...
~friends
~a heart

i love...
~my bus bussies
~my friend Dan

i hate...
~the color green
~pop music...
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Re: who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Post by GLaDOS » Mon Jun 13, 2005 11:13 pm

i am...

Sleepy. Tired. Blank.

i am not...

Triggered. Happy. Sociable.

i feel...

weird. No idea why.

i want...

my life to end.

i need...

Someone. Z.

i have...

everything I should. but it's not enough.

i love...

Z. Always.

i hate...

Myself.
This was a triumph.

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RG
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Post by RG » Tue Jun 14, 2005 5:15 am

i am...

depressed and suicidal

i am not...

happy, excited, (anything to do with joy)

i feel...

empty and wishing this would all end

i want...

be gone from this place

i need...

to talk to Celi but I spent last night on the phone with her trying to cope with su thoughts and don't want to do it to her again

i have...

alot going for me that has been slowly taken away

i love...

How my friends are there for me

i hate...

My life

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Post by Arcadia » Tue Jun 14, 2005 11:39 pm

i am...
needy, out of work, panicking about the possibility of failing first year of uni cos of missing lessons. stressed out.

i am not...
ugly, stupid, happy, stable or safe.

i feel...
cold. blunt. needy. panicky. paranoid. bored. tense. aggressive.

i want...
a hug, to fall in love, to have sex, to paint, to feel beautiful, to have money, to be accepted unconditionally by my parents, to get a full night's sleep, to quit drugs, to have more fun when i go out. hair extensions. less clutter.

i need...
sleep. proper food. more iron. someone to look after me. someone who needs me.. more structure. money. peace. quiet. simplicty.

i have...
good friends. talent. neuroses. bad friends. no control. a very comfy bed. six or seven library books. lots of clothes. huge shoes. an addictive personality. a huge amount of boredom.

i love...
hair extensions. art. painting. my friends. sex. music. clubbing. clothes. creating things. writing. solving problems. body modification. control. self-control. power.

i hate...
fakeness. bitchiness. snobbery. neuroses. paranoia. intolerance. my very slight acne. my lack of confidence. over-analysing. lack of control. lack of power. being used for sex. people being scared of me. people making assumptions about me. people talking about me. laziness.
"Does it really come as a surprise
When i tell you i don't feel good?"
- Garbage

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Post by Territorial Hawk » Sun Jun 19, 2005 1:40 am

i am...
... coping

i am not...
... insane
... a menace
... a schizo freak (as some people refer to me)

i feel...
... safe
... tired

i want...
... to sleep
... to find an antipsychotic that doesn't leave me numb

i need...
... sleep

i have...
... my cat
... a future

i love...
... my music

i hate...
... bigots who think that people with schizophrenia are freaks

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