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- Ruby Tuesday
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i really miss you.
i still want to know why you didn't contact me when you knew I was in hospital. One little text would have done. If you were ill I would have put everything aside to contact you even if I was scared it wasn't what you wanted/needed just in case it WAS. It sounds facetious, but if I'd gone throught with it, would you have come to my funeral?
i still want to know why you didn't contact me when you knew I was in hospital. One little text would have done. If you were ill I would have put everything aside to contact you even if I was scared it wasn't what you wanted/needed just in case it WAS. It sounds facetious, but if I'd gone throught with it, would you have come to my funeral?
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"'My hands', she said, 'I've left them somewhere and now I can't find them.' She was holding her hands in the air, helplessly, as if she couldn't move them.
'They're right there', I said, 'On the end of your arms'
'No, no', she said impatiently, 'Not those , those are no good anymore. My other hands, the ones I had before, the ones I could touch things with.'" - margaret atwood
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"'My hands', she said, 'I've left them somewhere and now I can't find them.' She was holding her hands in the air, helplessly, as if she couldn't move them.
'They're right there', I said, 'On the end of your arms'
'No, no', she said impatiently, 'Not those , those are no good anymore. My other hands, the ones I had before, the ones I could touch things with.'" - margaret atwood
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I know I should stop feeling so nervous and I will be fine, but I cant help feeling nervous. I have experience working with children, in both a school and drop centre setting, but I still feel nervous. I dont want to make a mistake. I dont want to screw up. I dont want to seem like im trying to do everything and take over, but I dont want to seem like im not doing anything. I know I can do this, I just want to give a good impression. I dont want to do so much that I wear myself out. Im scared and i'm afraid I will mess things up. Im afraid nothing I do will be good enough. I dont have enough confidence in myself. I am so bad at remembering names. What if I never remember anyone's name.
I don't want to be getting depressed again but I can feel it.
I was depressed before I came to uni. Then life changed and things were good. I can't go back home, I know it's not going to be good for my mental health. I see no future for myself. Everything is pretty bleak. Please let this just be a temporary feeling. I feel so hopeless. I could die tomorrow and it wouldn't matter.
I was depressed before I came to uni. Then life changed and things were good. I can't go back home, I know it's not going to be good for my mental health. I see no future for myself. Everything is pretty bleak. Please let this just be a temporary feeling. I feel so hopeless. I could die tomorrow and it wouldn't matter.
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i know it was a simple mistake, but it really fucking hurts, i needed you today
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jonny I miss you so much. You're the first thing and last thing I think about. I'm always walking around and I just feel empty without you. I feel like a failure. Like why couldn't I save you and why couldn't you see.
It hurts to think about these things.
I just want you back. I just want this to not be true.
It hurts to think about these things.
I just want you back. I just want this to not be true.
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I never considered the possibility that I would be alone in the coming months because I was counting on you. I guess I'm not meant to have companionship...
I really wish you had come through for me. I am prideful and firmly an atheist but:
I got down on my knees in my undies with tears streaming down my face and I prayed to God that you would change your mind. I sat there for ten minutes begging, bargaining, pleading, and promising things I would normally never consider in hopes that a God would hear me and help. I fucking prayed for you to come back to me again.
I really wish you had come through for me. I am prideful and firmly an atheist but:
I got down on my knees in my undies with tears streaming down my face and I prayed to God that you would change your mind. I sat there for ten minutes begging, bargaining, pleading, and promising things I would normally never consider in hopes that a God would hear me and help. I fucking prayed for you to come back to me again.
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There are somethings you have done that I can't forgive you for. So, I can't be your friend. Not in that way, because a friend would forgive you.
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You look awful, what have you done to yourself?
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I don't understand why this is so difficult for you. You have less than 24 hours to worry about this. Get it done, go to bed. Stop wasting time.
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You look awful, what have you done to yourself?
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I don't understand why this is so difficult for you. You have less than 24 hours to worry about this. Get it done, go to bed. Stop wasting time.
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Why can't you accept me for who I am? I'm your daugher, for fuck's sake! No, I don't believe in god. No, I am NOT a bad person. When will you stop treating me like shit? Just because we don't have the same beliefs doesn't mean you can act like you're better than me. I am just as intelligent as you. I am more empathetic, compassionate, and loving than you EVER will be.
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Why can't you let me go?
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I want to help you. I want to be there for you. It's just I don't want to be in your business and bugging you. I'm trying to give you space. Go at this from a more relaxed way.
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I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
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The only normal feeling I have felt in a long time means nothing,because you don't love me.
And I guess I don't even deserve a reply from you,because you were 'too busy' to give me one.While I was clutching my knees rocking on my bedroom floor to keep myself from gashing my body to pieces,you were somewhere far away,unaware that I am desperately,miserably,and completely in love with you.
I have never felt so abandoned.
And I guess I don't even deserve a reply from you,because you were 'too busy' to give me one.While I was clutching my knees rocking on my bedroom floor to keep myself from gashing my body to pieces,you were somewhere far away,unaware that I am desperately,miserably,and completely in love with you.
I have never felt so abandoned.
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you said it's better that we both feel this shitty at the time, because we can be honest.
but that's not what's happening. You're just being silent to me, and yet I see photos of you out with other people. I think you liked me so much better when I was 500 miles away. And that's not a nice feeling.
but that's not what's happening. You're just being silent to me, and yet I see photos of you out with other people. I think you liked me so much better when I was 500 miles away. And that's not a nice feeling.
"I saw spiders where there were no spiders" - patti smith
"'My hands', she said, 'I've left them somewhere and now I can't find them.' She was holding her hands in the air, helplessly, as if she couldn't move them.
'They're right there', I said, 'On the end of your arms'
'No, no', she said impatiently, 'Not those , those are no good anymore. My other hands, the ones I had before, the ones I could touch things with.'" - margaret atwood
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"'My hands', she said, 'I've left them somewhere and now I can't find them.' She was holding her hands in the air, helplessly, as if she couldn't move them.
'They're right there', I said, 'On the end of your arms'
'No, no', she said impatiently, 'Not those , those are no good anymore. My other hands, the ones I had before, the ones I could touch things with.'" - margaret atwood
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