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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Milvus » Wed Jun 11, 2008 12:04 am

I wish I could know what it is I feel for you. Then I might have a better idea of whether to risk telling you :/
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Post by Ruby Tuesday » Fri Jun 13, 2008 12:15 pm

i really miss you.
i still want to know why you didn't contact me when you knew I was in hospital. One little text would have done. If you were ill I would have put everything aside to contact you even if I was scared it wasn't what you wanted/needed just in case it WAS. It sounds facetious, but if I'd gone throught with it, would you have come to my funeral? :-?
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Post by Chey Kizoxie » Fri Jun 13, 2008 3:52 pm

I know I should stop feeling so nervous and I will be fine, but I cant help feeling nervous. I have experience working with children, in both a school and drop centre setting, but I still feel nervous. I dont want to make a mistake. I dont want to screw up. I dont want to seem like im trying to do everything and take over, but I dont want to seem like im not doing anything. I know I can do this, I just want to give a good impression. I dont want to do so much that I wear myself out. Im scared and i'm afraid I will mess things up. Im afraid nothing I do will be good enough. I dont have enough confidence in myself. I am so bad at remembering names. What if I never remember anyone's name.

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Post by amyfairy » Fri Jun 13, 2008 4:47 pm

I don't want to be getting depressed again but I can feel it.
I was depressed before I came to uni. Then life changed and things were good. I can't go back home, I know it's not going to be good for my mental health. I see no future for myself. Everything is pretty bleak. Please let this just be a temporary feeling. I feel so hopeless. I could die tomorrow and it wouldn't matter. :-?

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Post by caged bird » Fri Jun 13, 2008 5:15 pm

i know it was a simple mistake, but it really fucking hurts, i needed you today
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Fri Jun 13, 2008 8:23 pm

jonny I miss you so much. You're the first thing and last thing I think about. I'm always walking around and I just feel empty without you. I feel like a failure. Like why couldn't I save you and why couldn't you see.

It hurts to think about these things.

I just want you back. I just want this to not be true.
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Post by vampirelover » Fri Jun 13, 2008 9:10 pm

Im not her , I am ME , GET OVER IT
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Post by Beasty » Sat Jun 14, 2008 12:20 am

I never considered the possibility that I would be alone in the coming months because I was counting on you. I guess I'm not meant to have companionship...

I really wish you had come through for me. I am prideful and firmly an atheist but:
I got down on my knees in my undies with tears streaming down my face and I prayed to God that you would change your mind. I sat there for ten minutes begging, bargaining, pleading, and promising things I would normally never consider in hopes that a God would hear me and help. I fucking prayed for you to come back to me again.
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Post by DecemberLivy » Sun Jun 15, 2008 2:55 pm

There are somethings you have done that I can't forgive you for. So, I can't be your friend. Not in that way, because a friend would forgive you.

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You look awful, what have you done to yourself?

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I don't understand why this is so difficult for you. You have less than 24 hours to worry about this. Get it done, go to bed. Stop wasting time.
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Post by divided_by_zero » Sun Jun 15, 2008 11:34 pm

Why can't you accept me for who I am? I'm your daugher, for fuck's sake! No, I don't believe in god. No, I am NOT a bad person. When will you stop treating me like shit? Just because we don't have the same beliefs doesn't mean you can act like you're better than me. I am just as intelligent as you. I am more empathetic, compassionate, and loving than you EVER will be.

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Post by Beasty » Mon Jun 16, 2008 3:16 am

No matter what happens with people in my life, I love you. I love you more than anyone I've ever known and will do so forever. No matter what happens with your sons, one of which is torturing me, at the moment. Whether or not I end up with your firstborn, I hope always to be with you. Thank you for everything.
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Post by steady hands » Mon Jun 16, 2008 6:20 am

I feel so lonely.

I wish you were here.
I'm sorry I interrupted you when you were talking.
It was either that or getting defensive, and I knew getting defensive would give you a clue as to what's going on.


i'm so sorry.

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Mon Jun 16, 2008 8:41 pm

I want to help you. I want to be there for you. It's just I don't want to be in your business and bugging you. I'm trying to give you space. Go at this from a more relaxed way.
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Post by kittyfever » Mon Jun 16, 2008 10:14 pm

I told you it irritates me when you talk to her...and to top things off you hardly ever talk to me. Grrr.

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Post by infectiousbrain89 » Tue Jun 17, 2008 9:20 am

The only normal feeling I have felt in a long time means nothing,because you don't love me.
And I guess I don't even deserve a reply from you,because you were 'too busy' to give me one.While I was clutching my knees rocking on my bedroom floor to keep myself from gashing my body to pieces,you were somewhere far away,unaware that I am desperately,miserably,and completely in love with you.

I have never felt so abandoned.
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Post by Ruby Tuesday » Tue Jun 17, 2008 7:48 pm

you said it's better that we both feel this shitty at the time, because we can be honest.
but that's not what's happening. You're just being silent to me, and yet I see photos of you out with other people. I think you liked me so much better when I was 500 miles away. And that's not a nice feeling. :cry:
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Post by amyfairy » Tue Jun 17, 2008 7:58 pm

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Post by Eva » Tue Jun 17, 2008 8:34 pm

I didn't really mean all those things I've said yesterday. No, I don't want to be single. No, I don't want to be alone. I really want to see you again...hope you want to see me too...but I guess you don't, since I haven't heard from you. I understand a hint. It's ok. :bsad:

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Post by infectiousbrain89 » Wed Jun 18, 2008 1:54 am

No amount of scars could ever say how much you hurt me.
And no amount of tears can make me understand why.
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Post by kittyfever » Wed Jun 18, 2008 5:44 am

I need a friend. This crap with you is ridiculous.

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