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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Forget Me » Thu Sep 08, 2005 10:28 am

B: i know you are better than me... i know you could have someone so much better than me... and you deserve someone who isnt broken like me. but i'm trying to fix myself... truly i am. please want me. i know im not good enough for you. but please.... settle for me.

M: shut the fuck up about emo kids. its not fucking fair. get over it, you asshole. not everyone who cuts is emo, not everyone who is emo cuts. so fuck off.

J: please be happy. im sorry i cant make you feel better... but i never have been good at helping like that. im sorry.

you know... recently my posts here have been so similar it isnt funny.
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Post by what_if » Thu Sep 08, 2005 11:32 am

J--
Why wont you leave me alone? Why must you always come back to hurt me, over...and over? When will it be enough for you?

S--
Leave. Me. Alone. You haunt me every single day. Your presence is more than i can handle. You need more from me, dont you? You need to completely squeeze all innocence and life from me before you'll let go, dont you? You lied....those lies traumatized me. Every word you say to me traumatizes me.You're sick. You're fucking sick.

Mom and Mels--
I love you more than you'll ever know. :pinkstar:
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Post by what_if » Fri Sep 09, 2005 11:37 am

J: Just one more email from you, pretending like the last 3 years never happened... :evil:
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Post by SilverStarG » Sat Sep 10, 2005 1:02 am

all I want is to hold you close and kiss your tears away.. to lift you up and kiss those scars and tell you how beautiful you really are..
You touched my heart.. like an imprint in the sand.. and were just as easily washed away.

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Post by pretty » Sat Sep 10, 2005 4:08 pm

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you fucking ass hole. i can't believe what you did to him. how do you live with that? i'd like so much to do awful violent things to you. but i don't, because it's so much easier to let everyone forget and get on with life. because he wants to forget and get on with life. i just want you to know though, that i know what you did, and i despise you.

i know what you did.
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Post by Illumina » Sat Sep 10, 2005 9:43 pm

It is because you're too busy to help most of the time. And I think that hurts more than complete rejection - that's why I try to push you away.

And... yeah... sometimes I wish you didn't have a life. 'Cause I don't. And I know that makes me possibly the most selfish person in the world but... I'm hurting and I hate being alone :cry:
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Post by Not_what » Sun Sep 11, 2005 12:23 am

Go away
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Post by ~*Star*~ » Sun Sep 11, 2005 12:39 am

"you're doing ok"

- to myself.
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Post by GirlInterrupted » Sun Sep 11, 2005 1:29 am

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Post by Wall » Mon Sep 12, 2005 2:09 am

Communicating with you is so difficult. Yesterday I told you how hard it was to wait seven days until I could interact with another adult human. Then you told me about the needs of your mother and plans to visit her or, banish the thought, invite her over. I felt blown off, like what I'd said was unimportant, like my needs should be secondary to hers. It happens a lot and has for years.

I started having troubles and then technology repeatedly failed and you decided to go get dinner. Tonight you spent hours talking to others and when my time came you were too tired. The adventurous dinner you had upset your stomach. I lost you to your dinner choice (why can't you simply cook for yourself??), twice. What is it about you <i>needing</i> special experimental dinners? Why do you <i>need</i> to spoil yourself with new, special things nearly every day? Why can't you keep something standard so you can be stable for your family? Why is your <i>need</i> for special food so strong that you'll trade time with me for it?
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Post by Skyeler » Mon Sep 12, 2005 6:12 am

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Post by twistddreamr » Mon Sep 12, 2005 3:21 pm

i'm acting this way because i'm afraid i'm hopeless, that nothing you will try will help me and i'll fail at being helped. i clam up and dont let you in, i know. and i know it isn't productive and doesnt get me anywhere. but i so scared.


so very scared.
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Post by marylou » Tue Sep 13, 2005 2:44 pm

I hate that you think you can treat me like that.
I hate that when you show up I'll love you just the same.
"You loosen my chains and just ask me to trust you. But it's so much easier this way, even though I know that I am bound."

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Post by bexy » Tue Sep 13, 2005 5:36 pm

I haven't seen you smile at me like that for years. I haven't heard you say you're proud of me for so long. I haven't heard you say I was clever or pretty for even longer. And then you did it all in the space of two days and it meant more to me than you'll ever know.

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Post by Forget Me » Wed Sep 14, 2005 6:24 am

i never see you... damn you! i want to see you and be with you. grrr..... i would get over you so much fster if i could just see you once in a while...
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Post by Wall » Thu Sep 15, 2005 2:47 am

this sucks. you're traveling, spending money on toys for yourself. it sucks.
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Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end
And we are caught in the middle


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Post by pointeless » Fri Sep 16, 2005 10:44 pm

I'm scared, I don't want to go back this weekend, i'm worried what I might do.
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Post by silvertears » Sat Sep 17, 2005 3:08 am

MOM -- THanks sooo much for ( while being drunk) shareing you problem about a ingrown hair ( down there) with me.. I am soo happy to knwo. NOT!!! IF I WANTED TO KNOW I WOULD HAVE ASKED!!!!!!!!!!

J - your welcome for you clean room.. I love ya girl!

Will- UHH will you just leave me alone! I don't want to date you right now i don't even want to talk to you! if you would get off your high horse at work and quite thinking your better than everyone else then maybe things would get better. DON"T HAVE THAT ATTITUDE WITH ME I WILL NOT TAKE IT!!!!!!! you will never control me.. no man will EVER control me! leav me the f*ck alone!!!

Joni- ummmm lets see I don't like working with you.. why b/c you are a cry baby. get the f*ck over it and work!! you are now a manager WORK!!! go to the doctor and don't cry to me about it b/c I don't have any pitty for you! my give a dame is busted!

Dawn - I really want off by 4 next sunday!

P- you are a nasty slut!

Toni _ I AM not on the menu so don't come into our resturant and think that i am! you nasty dirty man. I can't stand pigs like you. Lets cut off you dink dong and hang you up by your feet. RESPECT WOMAN YOU F*CK!!!!!

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Post by SilverStarG » Sun Sep 18, 2005 10:51 pm

I wish you knew.. how much I love you.. every night I lie awake thinking of you and what could have been.. nothing is your fault.. but it's because of this I'm living a lie.. I tell you I wont be gone long.. that was a lie too.

Shawn.. you don't deserve me.. you know I have cheated on you once.. truth is I fucked him every time I saw him.. you have been nothing but wonderful.. I'm a dirty piece of shit.
You touched my heart.. like an imprint in the sand.. and were just as easily washed away.

The sky is the sky wherever you go, and people are people, always waking you up from a good nap (something like that :-P ) ^____________^

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Post by Skyeler » Mon Sep 19, 2005 2:46 am

A- If you go, I won't make it.


Most of the time I feel like I don't belong.
But I got my new favorite record today.
My favorites change every single day.
Except you,
You'll always be number one.
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