Things Left Unsaid *LA*
B: i know you are better than me... i know you could have someone so much better than me... and you deserve someone who isnt broken like me. but i'm trying to fix myself... truly i am. please want me. i know im not good enough for you. but please.... settle for me.
M: shut the fuck up about emo kids. its not fucking fair. get over it, you asshole. not everyone who cuts is emo, not everyone who is emo cuts. so fuck off.
J: please be happy. im sorry i cant make you feel better... but i never have been good at helping like that. im sorry.
you know... recently my posts here have been so similar it isnt funny.
M: shut the fuck up about emo kids. its not fucking fair. get over it, you asshole. not everyone who cuts is emo, not everyone who is emo cuts. so fuck off.
J: please be happy. im sorry i cant make you feel better... but i never have been good at helping like that. im sorry.
you know... recently my posts here have been so similar it isnt funny.
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<b>FISHY! WHY ARE YOU SLEEPING?!</b>
~"What could I say to you that would be of value, except that perhaps you seek too much, that as a result of your seeking you cannot find."~
Another Lonely Day
~~Laura~~
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<b>FISHY! WHY ARE YOU SLEEPING?!</b>
~"What could I say to you that would be of value, except that perhaps you seek too much, that as a result of your seeking you cannot find."~
Another Lonely Day
~~Laura~~
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J--
Why wont you leave me alone? Why must you always come back to hurt me, over...and over? When will it be enough for you?
S--
Leave. Me. Alone. You haunt me every single day. Your presence is more than i can handle. You need more from me, dont you? You need to completely squeeze all innocence and life from me before you'll let go, dont you? You lied....those lies traumatized me. Every word you say to me traumatizes me.You're sick. You're fucking sick.
Mom and Mels--
I love you more than you'll ever know.
Why wont you leave me alone? Why must you always come back to hurt me, over...and over? When will it be enough for you?
S--
Leave. Me. Alone. You haunt me every single day. Your presence is more than i can handle. You need more from me, dont you? You need to completely squeeze all innocence and life from me before you'll let go, dont you? You lied....those lies traumatized me. Every word you say to me traumatizes me.You're sick. You're fucking sick.
Mom and Mels--
I love you more than you'll ever know.
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Living life is easy with eyes closed
The future is just a concept that we use to avoid living today
You can live with dignity; you can't die with it
~* My Place! *~
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J: Just one more email from you, pretending like the last 3 years never happened...
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Living life is easy with eyes closed
The future is just a concept that we use to avoid living today
You can live with dignity; you can't die with it
~* My Place! *~
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Living life is easy with eyes closed
The future is just a concept that we use to avoid living today
You can live with dignity; you can't die with it
~* My Place! *~
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all I want is to hold you close and kiss your tears away.. to lift you up and kiss those scars and tell you how beautiful you really are..
You touched my heart.. like an imprint in the sand.. and were just as easily washed away.
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you fucking ass hole. i can't believe what you did to him. how do you live with that? i'd like so much to do awful violent things to you. but i don't, because it's so much easier to let everyone forget and get on with life. because he wants to forget and get on with life. i just want you to know though, that i know what you did, and i despise you.
i know what you did.
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you fucking ass hole. i can't believe what you did to him. how do you live with that? i'd like so much to do awful violent things to you. but i don't, because it's so much easier to let everyone forget and get on with life. because he wants to forget and get on with life. i just want you to know though, that i know what you did, and i despise you.
i know what you did.
'this is what she says gets her through it,
"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world
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"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world
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It is because you're too busy to help most of the time. And I think that hurts more than complete rejection - that's why I try to push you away.
And... yeah... sometimes I wish you didn't have a life. 'Cause I don't. And I know that makes me possibly the most selfish person in the world but... I'm hurting and I hate being alone
And... yeah... sometimes I wish you didn't have a life. 'Cause I don't. And I know that makes me possibly the most selfish person in the world but... I'm hurting and I hate being alone
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Communicating with you is so difficult. Yesterday I told you how hard it was to wait seven days until I could interact with another adult human. Then you told me about the needs of your mother and plans to visit her or, banish the thought, invite her over. I felt blown off, like what I'd said was unimportant, like my needs should be secondary to hers. It happens a lot and has for years.
I started having troubles and then technology repeatedly failed and you decided to go get dinner. Tonight you spent hours talking to others and when my time came you were too tired. The adventurous dinner you had upset your stomach. I lost you to your dinner choice (why can't you simply cook for yourself??), twice. What is it about you <i>needing</i> special experimental dinners? Why do you <i>need</i> to spoil yourself with new, special things nearly every day? Why can't you keep something standard so you can be stable for your family? Why is your <i>need</i> for special food so strong that you'll trade time with me for it?
I started having troubles and then technology repeatedly failed and you decided to go get dinner. Tonight you spent hours talking to others and when my time came you were too tired. The adventurous dinner you had upset your stomach. I lost you to your dinner choice (why can't you simply cook for yourself??), twice. What is it about you <i>needing</i> special experimental dinners? Why do you <i>need</i> to spoil yourself with new, special things nearly every day? Why can't you keep something standard so you can be stable for your family? Why is your <i>need</i> for special food so strong that you'll trade time with me for it?
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Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end
And we are caught in the middle
Somewhere in the Middle
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Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end
And we are caught in the middle
Somewhere in the Middle
Casting Crowns
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i'm acting this way because i'm afraid i'm hopeless, that nothing you will try will help me and i'll fail at being helped. i clam up and dont let you in, i know. and i know it isn't productive and doesnt get me anywhere. but i so scared.
so very scared.
so very scared.
As I search for the resolution...
"we're all just a little bit fucked up." ~Rob Thomas
"you have to earn your heaven." ~ Pop RIP
i never see you... damn you! i want to see you and be with you. grrr..... i would get over you so much fster if i could just see you once in a while...
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<b>FISHY! WHY ARE YOU SLEEPING?!</b>
~"What could I say to you that would be of value, except that perhaps you seek too much, that as a result of your seeking you cannot find."~
Another Lonely Day
~~Laura~~
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<b>FISHY! WHY ARE YOU SLEEPING?!</b>
~"What could I say to you that would be of value, except that perhaps you seek too much, that as a result of your seeking you cannot find."~
Another Lonely Day
~~Laura~~
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I'm scared, I don't want to go back this weekend, i'm worried what I might do.
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MOM -- THanks sooo much for ( while being drunk) shareing you problem about a ingrown hair ( down there) with me.. I am soo happy to knwo. NOT!!! IF I WANTED TO KNOW I WOULD HAVE ASKED!!!!!!!!!!
J - your welcome for you clean room.. I love ya girl!
Will- UHH will you just leave me alone! I don't want to date you right now i don't even want to talk to you! if you would get off your high horse at work and quite thinking your better than everyone else then maybe things would get better. DON"T HAVE THAT ATTITUDE WITH ME I WILL NOT TAKE IT!!!!!!! you will never control me.. no man will EVER control me! leav me the f*ck alone!!!
Joni- ummmm lets see I don't like working with you.. why b/c you are a cry baby. get the f*ck over it and work!! you are now a manager WORK!!! go to the doctor and don't cry to me about it b/c I don't have any pitty for you! my give a dame is busted!
Dawn - I really want off by 4 next sunday!
P- you are a nasty slut!
Toni _ I AM not on the menu so don't come into our resturant and think that i am! you nasty dirty man. I can't stand pigs like you. Lets cut off you dink dong and hang you up by your feet. RESPECT WOMAN YOU F*CK!!!!!
J - your welcome for you clean room.. I love ya girl!
Will- UHH will you just leave me alone! I don't want to date you right now i don't even want to talk to you! if you would get off your high horse at work and quite thinking your better than everyone else then maybe things would get better. DON"T HAVE THAT ATTITUDE WITH ME I WILL NOT TAKE IT!!!!!!! you will never control me.. no man will EVER control me! leav me the f*ck alone!!!
Joni- ummmm lets see I don't like working with you.. why b/c you are a cry baby. get the f*ck over it and work!! you are now a manager WORK!!! go to the doctor and don't cry to me about it b/c I don't have any pitty for you! my give a dame is busted!
Dawn - I really want off by 4 next sunday!
P- you are a nasty slut!
Toni _ I AM not on the menu so don't come into our resturant and think that i am! you nasty dirty man. I can't stand pigs like you. Lets cut off you dink dong and hang you up by your feet. RESPECT WOMAN YOU F*CK!!!!!
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I wish you knew.. how much I love you.. every night I lie awake thinking of you and what could have been.. nothing is your fault.. but it's because of this I'm living a lie.. I tell you I wont be gone long.. that was a lie too.
Shawn.. you don't deserve me.. you know I have cheated on you once.. truth is I fucked him every time I saw him.. you have been nothing but wonderful.. I'm a dirty piece of shit.
Shawn.. you don't deserve me.. you know I have cheated on you once.. truth is I fucked him every time I saw him.. you have been nothing but wonderful.. I'm a dirty piece of shit.
You touched my heart.. like an imprint in the sand.. and were just as easily washed away.
The sky is the sky wherever you go, and people are people, always waking you up from a good nap (something like that ) ^____________^
My chocobo head ^.^ <img src="http://i6.photobucket.com/albums/y213/S ... dStill.gif" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com">
The sky is the sky wherever you go, and people are people, always waking you up from a good nap (something like that ) ^____________^
My chocobo head ^.^ <img src="http://i6.photobucket.com/albums/y213/S ... dStill.gif" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com">
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