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I am really struggling here people. Can someone please answer a text? Like is it really that you're busy or am I just that annoying. What have I gotten myself into?
"What we see is not reality in itself, but reality exposed to our method of questioning." Werner Heisenberg, 1901
"It went wrong.
But you are still here.
So it went right, too."
~Nisi
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I'm bad dog owner.... I'm aware of that. "I don't have time" it's not an excuse. I do have time but I spend it somehow else. I didn't took him to the training classes at the park because I didn't wanted to go by myself because it would make me feel really really anxious and I didn't want to cry in front of a bunch of strangers that were judging me because I'm a super bad dog owner. I want to put him up for adoption but that's kind of hard here and it's not up to me only... but maybe we should... I don't even like to walk him, he's a huge dog and... being out... it's not easy. But that's not an excuse.
"I didn't want to take the chance that I'd grow up to be a war.
I wanna be a belly dance, or an acordion, or a pogo stick..."
Andrea Gibson, Letter to the playground bully
Leslie Feinberg
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Believe it or not, I'm utterly terrified about my residency next semester. I have no fashion sense, no desire to try and I know nothing about make up and other feminine things. Somehow I gotta get it together so that they will take me seriously at work. I just wish that appearance didn't matter and I could do whatever I wanted. Why am I so defective and can't understand fashion and how to act like a normal 25 year old woman??
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
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I don't know how to go on without you. I'm muddling through but I don't know what I'm doing.
I hurt in ways that no one could ever hope to comprehend. I feel untethered.
I don't know how to go on. How do I go on. Just give me a sign mok
I hurt in ways that no one could ever hope to comprehend. I feel untethered.
I don't know how to go on. How do I go on. Just give me a sign mok
-marya hornbacher
spidey immer voran
(spidey ever onward)
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Massive anxiety attack .. I need to get this under control .. It's going too far .. I need to for my family
If you think outside the box there's no such thing as square one.
No matter which sleeve you wear your heart,
Whichever way you wear your crown,
Tomorrow is another day to turn it all around
I will stop when I'm ready I'll shown everyone my cards
But for now I'll keep on playing even when the game gets hard.
19/07/1952 - 30/12/2013 Never Ever Forgotten
13/05/14 - I Love Her
19/4/15 - The Day I Said Yes
17/06/17 - Rings swapped, Hearts interlocked
<-- Marlo & Mookau-->
Caffiene Addict since 2004
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I don't think I even know what coping is any more. I don't understand the word.
For among these winters there is one so endlessly winter
that only by wintering through it all will your heart survive.
~Rainer Maria Rilke
My place
that only by wintering through it all will your heart survive.
~Rainer Maria Rilke
My place
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I'm glad you're okay ... Stupid as it makes me ... I still worry.
If you think outside the box there's no such thing as square one.
No matter which sleeve you wear your heart,
Whichever way you wear your crown,
Tomorrow is another day to turn it all around
I will stop when I'm ready I'll shown everyone my cards
But for now I'll keep on playing even when the game gets hard.
19/07/1952 - 30/12/2013 Never Ever Forgotten
13/05/14 - I Love Her
19/4/15 - The Day I Said Yes
17/06/17 - Rings swapped, Hearts interlocked
<-- Marlo & Mookau-->
Caffiene Addict since 2004
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there's a grey area between a bad week and depressive episode that i have no idea how to communicate. i think i'm ok right now, i'm not going to hurt myself, but i think about it every day. that's over the line into depression, i think, but i feel unsure still, like it's still something i should take care of by myself. i am sharing with people, but they see me unsure and in this grey space, and i don't know how to get help without freaking people out.
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Sometimes I wonder if I'm a smart as everyone thinks I am.
That aside for the first time I'm truly happy with my life.
That aside for the first time I'm truly happy with my life.
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I want to have kids but I don't think anyone would want me as a parent.
Clean & sober since July 14, 2012.
SI free since January 29, 2016.
Cigarette free since May 12, 2017.
"i'm falling back in love with being alive."
- Kesha, "Rainbow"
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So relieved.
I finally feel accepted for who I am.
I finally feel accepted for who I am.
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It is over.
-marya hornbacher
spidey immer voran
(spidey ever onward)
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Because of trauma, I am basically a sociopath. It happens sometimes, but it makes me feel like I am a bad person. Like I am capable of evil things.
~isra al-thibeh
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rainbow confessions
the only reason i haven't cut today is because my little brother drew a butterfly on my arm in sharpie
i'm terrified of turning 18
i've tried to kill myself 4 times in the past, the first two times i was disappointed when i didn't die
nobody knows that when i isolate i feel better, happier
i fear my girlfriend will leave me and i feel nothing but love for her
i have no idea who i am, right down to gender.
love can't save me from myself
the only reason i haven't cut today is because my little brother drew a butterfly on my arm in sharpie
i'm terrified of turning 18
i've tried to kill myself 4 times in the past, the first two times i was disappointed when i didn't die
nobody knows that when i isolate i feel better, happier
i fear my girlfriend will leave me and i feel nothing but love for her
i have no idea who i am, right down to gender.
love can't save me from myself
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I would rather hurt myself than go to work tomorrow. I need an out
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last night i had an emotional breakdown because of my sexual assault
i just want to starve myself, but i can not seem to stop eating, not for one second.
i really hate myself for my weight and i just want to cut really badly
support forums like this, safe haven, ryl... they make me want to cut more so i can have something to contribute to the board like everybody else.
i want to fucking binge but i know i will hate myself if i eat tomorrow or the rest of the day today
the weirdest things trigger me, like knowing that i'm fat makes me want to binge more
i want to cut
i just want to starve myself, but i can not seem to stop eating, not for one second.
i really hate myself for my weight and i just want to cut really badly
support forums like this, safe haven, ryl... they make me want to cut more so i can have something to contribute to the board like everybody else.
i want to fucking binge but i know i will hate myself if i eat tomorrow or the rest of the day today
the weirdest things trigger me, like knowing that i'm fat makes me want to binge more
i want to cut
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I FEEL LIKE I'VE EATEN TOO MUCH BUT I LOGICALLY KNOW I DIDN'T, I ATE A LOT OF FRUIT AND EVEN THAT MAKES ME FEEL FAT.
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I'm feeling positive .. And better than I have in years .. That scares me a little bit.
If you think outside the box there's no such thing as square one.
No matter which sleeve you wear your heart,
Whichever way you wear your crown,
Tomorrow is another day to turn it all around
I will stop when I'm ready I'll shown everyone my cards
But for now I'll keep on playing even when the game gets hard.
19/07/1952 - 30/12/2013 Never Ever Forgotten
13/05/14 - I Love Her
19/4/15 - The Day I Said Yes
17/06/17 - Rings swapped, Hearts interlocked
<-- Marlo & Mookau-->
Caffiene Addict since 2004
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STOP ARGUING!!! There is a fucking point where you guys just need to not yell at each other or us for shifty things. Do you know how hard it is trying to keep you guys pleased? Doing a stupid sport because you want me to, not necessarily because I want to. Listening to your bickering in a freaking car for a lot of the day. Constant ARGUING. I want to tell you to your faces, but I've tried and it doesn't work...
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I am thinking about being impulsive some how right now and it scares me
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