Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

Post by Spidey » Fri Oct 10, 2014 3:23 am

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Post by mande » Fri Oct 10, 2014 2:56 pm

I don't think I can stay strong enough anymore.

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

Post by capricorn » Sun Oct 12, 2014 4:20 pm

can't you EVER stop fucking fighting and making each other miserable? and when the fuck is either of you going to wake up to the fact that you are pretty fucked up and like, my mental illnesses did not happen in a vacuum?! FOR FUCK'S SAKE
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Post by mande » Sun Oct 12, 2014 11:03 pm

I'm not really that sick. I'm depressed and I want to be by myself.

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

Post by Spidey » Wed Oct 15, 2014 2:50 am

I wish your mom was here to see this. She would have been proud.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

Post by WalkingStick » Sat Oct 18, 2014 11:30 pm

I'm not okay today and I know I could tell you that but I'm sick of always having problems and I don't want to be "that friend". I'm sorry. I want to talk to you but I feel like a burden.
I feel like I should be better by now. I'm sorry.
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Post by PokemonGeek » Sun Oct 19, 2014 2:56 am

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Post by Spidey » Mon Oct 20, 2014 1:09 am

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Post by bearcat » Sat Oct 25, 2014 6:12 am

Why did you have to respond that way? I was wrong but that was ridiculous. I can't understand why you would come at it that way- it wasn't fair to me. Now I feel nothing and I feel stupid for even trying this... what a crazy thing to try... Why would I think that this would work when there's barely any sign of anything. I feel like I can't tell you the truth, because the truth is impossible to tell- what words could I use that would make any sense? Everything feels like a lie.

I feel more broken than ever.

I have these ideas about myself, and maybe that's stupid, but mostly I need to feel seen, need to have conversations where someone shows an interest and follows up on what I say.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

Post by WalkingStick » Sat Oct 25, 2014 9:10 pm

Thank you for not judging me.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

Post by Just Pomegranates » Sat Oct 25, 2014 11:07 pm

Why am I even surprised?!
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

Post by bearcat » Sat Oct 25, 2014 11:10 pm

Really? That's it? Mixed messages? Ignoring me? Totally fine but don't tell me that I'm the fuck up. If that's all it took to discourage you then I really don't see the point in any of this and will consider it a huge mistake.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

Post by WalkingStick » Tue Nov 04, 2014 1:38 am

You're my best friend but sometimes you make me uncomfortable.
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Post by desperateforgrace » Mon Nov 10, 2014 3:33 am

You make work almost unbearable. Why is it that when you tell me what to do and demean me and others it's ok, but when people tell you what to do you get all mad and stuff? You rarely help me with the 10,000 crates piling up and you talk to female customers sometimes at length. How the heck do you think your wife feels about this? No, I won't "congratulate" you on your laziness and insolence to me and my friend (who worked at [insert place i work here] before). Shut up, or f*** off!
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

Post by Akor » Wed Nov 12, 2014 6:15 am

I'm not really OK, I feel like a dam about to burst. Id give anything for a friend to talk to. Hate myself right now
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

Post by Spidey » Sat Nov 15, 2014 8:29 pm

Your friends are crap, man. Utter crap. And so are the decisions that you make with regards to them. You get all upset about what they do, and instead of solving the problem you just cut them off so you don't look bad to me for being "dramatic".

That's the HEIGHT of dramatic - cutting off your friends so you look better to someone else. That's not just dramatic but it's douchey to boot. Never mind that all I hear about is...well...your friends.

I don't want this and in all honesty because of this I'm not terribly sure I want you, anymore.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

Post by Stawberry_Lollipops » Sun Nov 16, 2014 11:35 am

I would have said it back even though I couldn't feel it because you still know it. It doesn't matter how you feel in the moment, if you know something then you know something. Why couldn't you have just said it back?

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

Post by Stawberry_Lollipops » Tue Nov 25, 2014 2:55 pm

That wasn't fair. At all. So you're allowed to get away with shit because you're sick but I still have to put the time and effort in. You're pathetic sometimes.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

Post by Paws » Sun Nov 30, 2014 12:55 am

It's not my fault. I can't control what she says, how she feels. But in all honesty, the real fact; the real difference is that she knows and respects her boundaries where as I will sit and take it... Because that's just what I do.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA* v. 6

Post by Spidey » Sun Dec 07, 2014 5:20 am

Why did you even bother to ask in the first place if you had absolutely no intentions of doing it? Christ.
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