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Post by Chey » Wed Jan 05, 2011 5:35 pm

I miss some people who used to be here that I met that live near me.


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Post by Annybelly » Wed Jan 05, 2011 5:53 pm

I think I'm depressed. I've been having a lot of suicidal thoughts. I'm not looking for negatives, I'm just not all that sure I want to live anymore.
I had to check to see if this was allowed. I hope it is..
I don't have any plans to su. I don't intend to. I just have a lot of thoughts.
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Post by Stawberry_Lollipops » Fri Jan 07, 2011 1:17 pm

I'm loving this way more than I should. I should stop this now before I do something I regret. But I can't seem to convince myself it's the right thing to do. I deserve it and I love the pain.
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Post by SplinteredGirl » Sat Jan 08, 2011 12:06 am

sometimes these days i speak outloud to myself when i put myself down. ill say things like "piece of shit" or "just kill yourself" :oops:

the other week i was talking with my bro, something about discmans, and he was all, but you have one, in that drawer dont you. :oops: the drawer where i used to keep my blades and bloody tissue, great, just great.

sometimes i do abuse drugs to escape. i used to know not to do that, but then sometimes it just happens. my parents do cocaine and speed sometimes, and its not that hard to steal "just a little" when im bored or going out or wanting some kind of distraction or escape. i know this sounds worse then it really is.. but yeah.

When i was at my friends house the other night (visiting her mom, my friend passed away) i was trying so hard not to cry, but maybe i should have. i woldnt want to upset her mom.. but at the same time i dont know.. its been 6 years. sometimes i feel like what happened is partly my fault.

i dont consider myself SU, but i still have random thoughts. im scared of dying, but sometimes i cant help thinking about putting myself in danger. or close to death
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Post by mande » Sun Jan 09, 2011 1:05 am

*serious SA*

I make sure I get my AIDS/STD tests every year, because I'm still afraid that after you raped me, I'm going to get something. It still scare the fuck out of me that I might be infected even though it's illogical.

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Post by steady hands » Sun Jan 09, 2011 8:36 am

I can't figure out if I miss you or if I just miss doing drugs with you.

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Post by Chey » Sun Jan 09, 2011 2:10 pm

Sometimes I wish I didn't have any cats. I just want to not be begged for food all the time and have to deal with food and litter and pesky crawling on my face because they want attention. Sure I love my cats but sometimes they are too much. Sometimes I am just sick of people starting a conversation with 'so how are your cats'. to hell with the cats what about me? Why not ask me how **I** am?


still i love my cats.


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Post by stripysocks4christ » Sun Jan 09, 2011 9:14 pm

i feel so guilty for treating her like dirt even though i know shes going through a tough time.. but i dont think i can just forgive her and pray for her... she hurt me so many times, i just cant do it. i think that must make me a horrible person, idk. :-?
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Sun Jan 09, 2011 10:19 pm

im really not coping, and i dont know who to talk to about it. i dont want to get proffesional help, and i dont want to burden those who are already going through a hard time. i honestly cant see how i am gonna get through this month...
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Post by xPeggiePatchx » Sun Jan 09, 2011 10:28 pm

I'd rather we had an aquaintences with benefits scenario, than a relationship..
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Post by Isis » Tue Jan 11, 2011 9:28 pm

i didn't even start writing my thesis. :oops: i'm just too lazy and i think i'll need 7-10 days to write it, so why bother when i still have time? :oops:

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Post by capricorn » Tue Jan 11, 2011 11:23 pm

Sometimes I really resent her.
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Post by Stormy Llwellyn » Wed Jan 12, 2011 2:18 am

I'm tired and wish I didn't have to do this anymore.
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Post by strider 151 » Wed Jan 12, 2011 6:31 pm

i like any attention from anyone, no matter how much i protest. thats why i like sitting next to J, he gives me attention.
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Post by anna--xo » Wed Jan 12, 2011 11:04 pm

I love you and i want to marry you, but i still don't regret cheating on you.
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Post by strmdncr » Fri Jan 14, 2011 6:12 am

i can't tell anyone about the anger because then they'll know that i failed at what it is i am supposed to do
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Post by strider 151 » Fri Jan 14, 2011 5:41 pm

i dont wanna be more than friends but i know how you feel for me and i dont make it easy. but i cant tell you because i still want you around...
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Post by capricorn » Sat Jan 15, 2011 4:09 pm

I think about killing myself every day.
Just some days more seriously than others.
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Post by mande » Sat Jan 15, 2011 6:59 pm

Everyone keeps telling me we should date. That we are cute together and mesh well. But I'm with someone and while you're really cool, I know that I wouldn't have a chance anyway.

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Post by helpinghayley » Wed Jan 19, 2011 11:18 pm

I'm not sure I have any energy left for fighting.

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