Secrets Thread - Read first post!

[Chey]

I miss some people who used to be here that I met that live near me.

[Annybelly]

I think I'm depressed. I've been having a lot of suicidal thoughts. I'm not looking for negatives, I'm just not all that sure I want to live anymore.
I had to check to see if this was allowed. I hope it is..
I don't have any plans to su. I don't intend to. I just have a lot of thoughts.

[Stawberry_Lollipops]

I'm loving this way more than I should. I should stop this now before I do something I regret. But I can't seem to convince myself it's the right thing to do. I deserve it and I love the pain.

[SplinteredGirl]

sometimes these days i speak outloud to myself when i put myself down. ill say things like "piece of shit" or "just kill yourself"

the other week i was talking with my bro, something about discmans, and he was all, but you have one, in that drawer dont you. the drawer where i used to keep my blades and bloody tissue, great, just great.

sometimes i do abuse drugs to escape. i used to know not to do that, but then sometimes it just happens. my parents do cocaine and speed sometimes, and its not that hard to steal "just a little" when im bored or going out or wanting some kind of distraction or escape. i know this sounds worse then it really is.. but yeah.

When i was at my friends house the other night (visiting her mom, my friend passed away) i was trying so hard not to cry, but maybe i should have. i woldnt want to upset her mom.. but at the same time i dont know.. its been 6 years. sometimes i feel like what happened is partly my fault.

i dont consider myself SU, but i still have random thoughts. im scared of dying, but sometimes i cant help thinking about putting myself in danger. or close to death

[mande]

*serious SA*

I make sure I get my AIDS/STD tests every year, because I'm still afraid that after you raped me, I'm going to get something. It still scare the fuck out of me that I might be infected even though it's illogical.

[steady hands]

I can't figure out if I miss you or if I just miss doing drugs with you.

[Chey]

Sometimes I wish I didn't have any cats. I just want to not be begged for food all the time and have to deal with food and litter and pesky crawling on my face because they want attention. Sure I love my cats but sometimes they are too much. Sometimes I am just sick of people starting a conversation with 'so how are your cats'. to hell with the cats what about me? Why not ask me how **I** am?


still i love my cats.

[stripysocks4christ]

i feel so guilty for treating her like dirt even though i know shes going through a tough time.. but i dont think i can just forgive her and pray for her... she hurt me so many times, i just cant do it. i think that must make me a horrible person, idk.

[stripysocks4christ]

im really not coping, and i dont know who to talk to about it. i dont want to get proffesional help, and i dont want to burden those who are already going through a hard time. i honestly cant see how i am gonna get through this month...

[xPeggiePatchx]

I'd rather we had an aquaintences with benefits scenario, than a relationship..

[Isis]

i didn't even start writing my thesis. i'm just too lazy and i think i'll need 7-10 days to write it, so why bother when i still have time?

[capricorn]

Sometimes I really resent her.

[Stormy Llwellyn]

I'm tired and wish I didn't have to do this anymore.

[strider 151]

i like any attention from anyone, no matter how much i protest. thats why i like sitting next to J, he gives me attention.

[anna--xo]

I love you and i want to marry you, but i still don't regret cheating on you.

[strmdncr]

i can't tell anyone about the anger because then they'll know that i failed at what it is i am supposed to do

[strider 151]

i dont wanna be more than friends but i know how you feel for me and i dont make it easy. but i cant tell you because i still want you around...

[capricorn]

I think about killing myself every day.
Just some days more seriously than others.

[mande]

Everyone keeps telling me we should date. That we are cute together and mesh well. But I'm with someone and while you're really cool, I know that I wouldn't have a chance anyway.

[helpinghayley]

I'm not sure I have any energy left for fighting.