Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]
I cut again tonight. I was trying to cut deeper but I couldn't. I know it's not the case but it feels like it would help. Maybe it's attention seeking. I want help but I can't think of any way in which anyone could help me right now. So what would be the point in asking? I feel like I want people to know about the extension. I want support or sympathy or something but I know I couldn't deal with it, it would feel like pity. But I have hopes of girly hugs and kind words and nice gestures. But i'm not used to that. I've never had that. I shouldn't expect that.
and tomorrow will come
When today is done...
"To me, photographyis an art of observation. It's all about finding something interesting in an ordinary place... I've found it has little to do with the things you see, and everything to do with the way you see them."
- Elliott Erwitt
When today is done...
"To me, photographyis an art of observation. It's all about finding something interesting in an ordinary place... I've found it has little to do with the things you see, and everything to do with the way you see them."
- Elliott Erwitt
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looking healthy is always goodamyfairy wrote:good. i'm trying to convince myself and it's somehow working.Licentia Poetica wrote:yupamyfairy wrote:i've put on some weight, a couple of pounds, but i think that's okay?
i guess my secret is that i skipped a period which never happens so it's good i'm gaining the weight a lost. i must look healthier. okay, trying to be okay with this!
*Challenges welcome*
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even if I want to go to bed I wait up till midnight when you get off work (or I turn my text alert on to an alarm ringtone so it will wake me up) so that we can have a "wind down the day conversation" you know, how was work, how was your day, and always the I love you.
I realized from when we fight that I JUST can't sleep without our wind down conversation. I really don't feel right if I don't tell you goodnight.
You are the first person I love. I never even believed in love. I thought it was stupid. All my ex's I would never tell them I loved them even if they said it.
I realized from when we fight that I JUST can't sleep without our wind down conversation. I really don't feel right if I don't tell you goodnight.
You are the first person I love. I never even believed in love. I thought it was stupid. All my ex's I would never tell them I loved them even if they said it.
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a
I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
I always love a
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
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I'm afraid while you're in rehab fixing your life I'll be left behind.
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I always love a
I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
I always love a
Drop by my place & say hi
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I'm fully Recovered!
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I feel pathetic for not being able to tell you that the reason I'm not going to graduate is because I'm too depressed to be able to focus on anything.
So now you just think I'm lazy.
But I don't think not being able to get out of bed because you wish you hadn't woken up is the same as not wanting to get up because the bed is warm.
I am so ashamed of myself for so many different reasons.
So now you just think I'm lazy.
But I don't think not being able to get out of bed because you wish you hadn't woken up is the same as not wanting to get up because the bed is warm.
I am so ashamed of myself for so many different reasons.
I hope you never quit smoking again, you got so cruel and mean and out of control.
"We think the point is to pass the test or overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don't really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. The healing comes from letting there be room for it all to happen: Room for grief, for relief, for misery, for joy." Pema Chodron
"There is room for all of your feelings - take a moment, be quiet and let there be room in your heart and the bursting will ease" C
"What a Long, Strange Trip it's been" Grateful Dead
"There is room for all of your feelings - take a moment, be quiet and let there be room in your heart and the bursting will ease" C
"What a Long, Strange Trip it's been" Grateful Dead
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i feel like I don't know you.
you empty shell.
or is that me?
Because you're hollowing me out.
you empty shell.
or is that me?
Because you're hollowing me out.
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a
I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
I always love a
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
I like that I've finally been able to SI 'well'. I know this is twisted.
and tomorrow will come
When today is done...
"To me, photographyis an art of observation. It's all about finding something interesting in an ordinary place... I've found it has little to do with the things you see, and everything to do with the way you see them."
- Elliott Erwitt
When today is done...
"To me, photographyis an art of observation. It's all about finding something interesting in an ordinary place... I've found it has little to do with the things you see, and everything to do with the way you see them."
- Elliott Erwitt
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I say I have no friends, and it feels true. But there are people who care about me. I feel selfish for not being well for them.
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when I see pictures of everyone with their mates I just get really jealous. Ryan's not around. We don't even have pictures of us together.
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a
I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
I always love a
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
this isn't a secret, more something i can't talk about irl.
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i really want to lose weight. i was triggered today as someone said someone else was tiny and i want that person to be me. i know many people say it, but other ppl are small and i need to be smaller and i'm not and i hate that.
i have always been known for being petite. it is part of my identity. i don't know how i would handle putting on weight.
i wish i didn't feel hunger, i don't want to have to eat.
i want to be tiny and shock people with bones.
i know i shouldn't feel this way which makes me feel guilty. but the truth is, i do.
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i really want to lose weight. i was triggered today as someone said someone else was tiny and i want that person to be me. i know many people say it, but other ppl are small and i need to be smaller and i'm not and i hate that.
i have always been known for being petite. it is part of my identity. i don't know how i would handle putting on weight.
i wish i didn't feel hunger, i don't want to have to eat.
i want to be tiny and shock people with bones.
i know i shouldn't feel this way which makes me feel guilty. but the truth is, i do.
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I'm too depressed and too stressed out to focus on my schoolwork- its the last quarter of my junior year, the absolute most crucial time for me...I've given up and I'm settling for community college, because they have no standards. One of my brothers went to a good state university, the other is going to a prestigious military university, I, as always, will cointinue to be not nearly as good, not nearly as smart, not nearly as worth it. What else is new?
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I want to push him, I want to push him until he snaps...just to prove that he doesn't really love me that much. But, I don't because I don't want to risk losing him either.
"Even if you're the lone voice in the wilderness, it does not mean you're wrong."
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