Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

Ruby Tuesday · Post by **Ruby Tuesday** » Sun Nov 09, 2008 11:02 am

I'm too scared to contact you to see how you are, because I think you'll tell me about her. I suspect she's living with him or that they're in engaged, and the suspicion is bad enough ... but hearing that it's true? I don't want to know. I know that makes me a bad friend to you, but at the same time, you're not exactly beating down my door to talk either.

KLove24 · Post by **KLove24** » Sun Nov 09, 2008 9:24 pm

I just want to be able to call you and see what you are up too. I am scared to do that though. I am scared you hate me or that you are happy and want nothing to do with me.

mephistopheles · Post by **mephistopheles** » Mon Nov 10, 2008 2:37 pm

It's back. It wins. I give up. Whatever.

vampirelover · Post by **vampirelover** » Mon Nov 10, 2008 3:50 pm

Although i get annoyed at people who selfharm for attention ,I have done it more then once

vampirelover · Post by **vampirelover** » Mon Nov 10, 2008 3:51 pm

Im afraid if i tell my dad the truth he wont love me and his fake love is keeping me alive

ambivalent red · Post by **ambivalent red** » Mon Nov 10, 2008 4:13 pm

I'm glad. I could have made a huge mistake. I'm happy it did not work out.

kgraff · Post by **kgraff** » Mon Nov 10, 2008 10:18 pm

im glad my suicide attempt failed because i want to live. but im sad because im still in pain and dont know what to do

caged bird · Post by **caged bird** » Tue Nov 11, 2008 1:37 pm

it's my fault, i'm sorry. i've been waiting to hit rock bottom for so long that i dont think i realised that i've probably been here a long long time

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Wed Nov 12, 2008 5:54 am

I resent it. And I could never ever tell you and I won't. But in some ways, no matter how much I get angry or hurt, you mean the world to me. Everything flips backwards for me...it's ridiculous and foolish and it hurts.
But you do all the same

(*Haven*) · Post by **(*Haven*)** » Wed Nov 12, 2008 7:28 am

I will push those feelings away. I don't want to have them.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Wed Nov 12, 2008 1:15 pm

Before anyone lynches on me, no this is not related to anything on here.

I feel bad that I'm not in tears over this, but.....I also don't see why I should be because I'm fairly sure that my suspicions about your motivations are correct

vampirelover · Post by **vampirelover** » Wed Nov 12, 2008 1:23 pm

I want you to ring me

Never Again · Post by **Never Again** » Thu Nov 13, 2008 6:02 pm

*si*
i 'wrote' love on my arms
and i liked it.

Silent_Tears · Post by **Silent_Tears** » Thu Nov 13, 2008 11:18 pm

I picked up my meds that my friend holds... even though I didn't need a refill yet. I guess I wanted to be able to be able to OD again. I don't know what's going on in my head. I'm so confused. I don't want her to know I have them. I want to be able to have those options again I guess. I hate that the thoughts are already coming back. I also bought a tool. I am not suppose to be here on bus... but here I am. I'm being bad all the way around.

daisy_chain · Post by **daisy_chain** » Sat Nov 15, 2008 8:46 pm

I just want to really matter to somebody and im scared that i never will.

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Sun Nov 16, 2008 6:50 am

lumbar puncture hole, please stop hurting.

I am deathly afraid that at any second, you will start leaking spinal fluid and I will collapse to the floor.
I think I would've felt better if they'd stitched you up instead of just covering you with a bandaid.

I HATE the hospital, please do not make me go back so they can repuncture me and fill you with blood.

(I don't know if my irrational fear or the fact that I'm talking to a hole in my back is worse.

)

Geordie · Post by **Geordie** » Sun Nov 16, 2008 2:24 pm

I like her and I hate her. I hate being a teenage girl.

I finally worked out why I can't tell if he's lying.

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Sun Nov 16, 2008 6:04 pm

I do love her. I want things to be perfect.

...and I want to make my love completely public, but I know I can't thanks to conservative bastards.

SplinteredGirl · Post by **SplinteredGirl** » Mon Nov 17, 2008 1:28 am

comming to your house has made me feel better before. just knowing that your there, and your still smiling. i can see her smile in your face. i know that each of us is the closest thing we have to her... i couldnt bring myself to call you back about the babysitting. ive done it before. and ive been fine..
..its just the house is to empty without her. i just dont think i could have done it. theres not one place in this town that i dont have a memory with her.and now i have no one to go on walks around town with.

i miss my best friend.

SplinteredGirl · Post by **SplinteredGirl** » Mon Nov 17, 2008 1:33 am

i slipped after a month..
no one knows i slipped..
no one knows about the SI...
i feel like if no one knows, because im hiding it so good, whats the difference?

.nothings going to change.

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