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Post by DecemberLivy » Sat Nov 01, 2008 10:16 am

I'm not crazy about him anymore. I don't know whats changed but somehow this life long crush has just fizzled out. But I feel I have to pretend to still be in love with him to keep his spirits up. I still do love him, in a sense, but I've realised what a mistake that is. I confused love for friendship.
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Sat Nov 01, 2008 4:54 pm

I never knew what falling head over heels felt like.. now I think I do. And the scary thing is, I've fallen in love with a girl. And I can't tell anyone..

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Post by kgraff » Sun Nov 02, 2008 11:55 pm

sometimes the only reason i dont kill myself is because of you, because im in love with you. but i cant tell you because your a girl and you can never love me back.

i want to tell you everything. my dad hits me. im anorexic, i cut...alot, i take lots of pills, and drink by myself to ingnore my pain and i think about SU all the time.

but if i did tell you then whatever small chance that you could love me like i love you would be gone. im so alone
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Post by ambivalent red » Mon Nov 03, 2008 6:27 pm

I want to move in with my best friend. I love my husband, but I think we want different things.
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Post by steady hands » Wed Nov 05, 2008 2:02 am

ugh

I hate being sick.
hate hate hate.
I need to eat healthily to get over this.

I don't know if I can handle that.

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Wed Nov 05, 2008 5:28 am

I've always had this thing where I wanted to get you, I wanted you to fall for me, even though I didn't "like" you that way and knew you were dating another friend. And then unexpectedly we became best friends and its as if I still stive to have you fall in love with me EVEN THOUGH you are STILL in this relationship. And maybe the more I deny the fact that subconciously I am trying to get you to fall for me the more I fall for you on some level.

WHAT IS THIS. god this is bad news
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Post by Dorky&Weird2 » Wed Nov 05, 2008 6:30 am

i think ur really cute and funny and i wish you would have flirted with me instead of someone 6yrs older than you,i know shes 100 times prettier than me but i still wonder if you will ever like me
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Post by kgraff » Thu Nov 06, 2008 4:24 am

i hate myself so much. it makes sicude feel like a good option. like the only option
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Thu Nov 06, 2008 6:54 am

I have fallen in love with a girl, and I don't give a flying fuck what people think at the moment. But, I am terrified my brain will kick in with "you dumbass" and rattle off how fucked I am due to loving an amazing woman.

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Post by Never Again » Thu Nov 06, 2008 6:58 am

i feel like i'm a different species. i have never fit in, ever. and i dont expect that i'll ever find someone who will understand me, or put up with me. i can't even find someone to pay to listen to me. i call my mom to talk about regular stuff, but i know she only talks because she feels obligated because she's my mom. i feel like the most gigantic loser ever.
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Post by caged bird » Thu Nov 06, 2008 1:12 pm

i have more self hatred then i ever thought was humanly possible
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Post by vampirelover » Thu Nov 06, 2008 2:35 pm

your the only thing keeping me from slipping back , but im afraid thats not enough
longest with no slips - 2 years , 6 months
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Post by red umbrellas » Fri Nov 07, 2008 3:35 am

the three things i need most seem to be the things i will never, ever have
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And excuses and excuses and excuses

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Post by Geordie » Fri Nov 07, 2008 10:39 am

I really want her out of my life. I lied about it just being a 'personality clash' between us. I HATE her. And she hates me. I don't know how you missed this.

I hate her because she's an immature, manipulative, selfish bitch. And because she has you.
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Post by fadingbutterfly » Fri Nov 07, 2008 2:23 pm

I'm more suicidal at the moment than I have been in 5 years.

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Post by ambivalent red » Fri Nov 07, 2008 10:52 pm

I want the phone call to say 'I'm outside- lets go!'
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Post by Geordie » Sat Nov 08, 2008 12:40 am

I think I'm too lazy to live.
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Sat Nov 08, 2008 1:08 am

surprise surprise my secret is about the same person as the last secret I posted was about so lets just make this blunt

I've fallen for my best friend & she is taken.
and I'm sure there is some reason I am a horrible person because of it
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I always love a :lpurpstar:

I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

Drop by my place & say hi :)
Ask me anything!!!

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Post by Geordie » Sat Nov 08, 2008 3:42 am

I lied about everything.
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Sun Nov 09, 2008 6:10 am

I don't want you to join me at my college. I love you to death, but I don't know if having you around will be good.

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It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live - APWBD.


Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.

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