last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
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We are the girls with anxiety disorders, filled appointment books, five-year plans. We take ourselves very, very seriously. We are the peacemakers, the do-gooders, the givers, the savers. We are on time, overly prepared, well read, and witty, intellectually curious, always moving… We drink coffee, a lot of it. We are on birth control, Prozac, and multivitamins… We are relentless, judgmental with ourselves, and forgiving to others. We are the daughters of the feminists who said, “You can be anything,” and we heard, “You have to be everything." - Courtney Martin.
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i dont like looking at what ive done the last few days
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Because I didn't want my mom worrying about me more than she already does.
Because my best friend threatened me with random things if I hurt myself again
Because I want to be a strong person and let others think I'm a strong person
And I haven't done it since! Six days (?) and counting!
Because my best friend threatened me with random things if I hurt myself again
Because I want to be a strong person and let others think I'm a strong person
And I haven't done it since! Six days (?) and counting!
~*We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars-Oscar Wilde*~
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coz i dont want to explain anything to my friend s when we see her next week
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KLove24's twin | Owns ultimate starshine | Haven's special RW buddy
Oftentimes all we need is a thought or a message to help us see another side to the problem,
or just some hope that life will be better - magicmum
Hugs & PM's are fine
The Truth that can set Souls Free is Buried within Sweet Pandemonium
To cry is to know that you're alive
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i have work tomorrow.
and I have to wear short sleeves or a hoodie to cover my scars in which case everyone knows anyway.
and I have to wear short sleeves or a hoodie to cover my scars in which case everyone knows anyway.
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a
I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
I always love a
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
I promised myself that I could if I needed to, but that I really had to need to.
I had everything that I needed with me. But I didn't feel as bad as the previous night when I did, so I didn't do it this time. It comes down to that for me, I need that promise for myself. I need to know I can if I want to, and that makes it easier for me not to do it when I don't have to.
If I told myself I absolutely *mustn't* ever do it again, something inside me would go f**k you and be more likely to do it.
I managed over 18 months before falling off the wagon this time, and a similar period before that.
It's hard just now. I'll be promising myself that again tonight. But only if I absolutely need to.
I had everything that I needed with me. But I didn't feel as bad as the previous night when I did, so I didn't do it this time. It comes down to that for me, I need that promise for myself. I need to know I can if I want to, and that makes it easier for me not to do it when I don't have to.
If I told myself I absolutely *mustn't* ever do it again, something inside me would go f**k you and be more likely to do it.
I managed over 18 months before falling off the wagon this time, and a similar period before that.
It's hard just now. I'll be promising myself that again tonight. But only if I absolutely need to.
~Chameleon~
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i felt too drained to do anything
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KLove24's twin | Owns ultimate starshine | Haven's special RW buddy
Oftentimes all we need is a thought or a message to help us see another side to the problem,
or just some hope that life will be better - magicmum
Hugs & PM's are fine
The Truth that can set Souls Free is Buried within Sweet Pandemonium
To cry is to know that you're alive
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my dad was home
I like having low self-esteem it makes me feel special.
They say you need to pray, if you want to go to heaven. But they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to hell.
The beautiful thing about music is when it hits you, you fell no pain.
I'll fake all the smiles, if it stops all the questions.
I wouldn't be surprised if I was voted most likely to kill everyone at a high school dance.--- Kurt Cobain
I wear my scars proudly. They represent the battles through which I have gone, and I am proud because those battles I have won.
They say you need to pray, if you want to go to heaven. But they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to hell.
The beautiful thing about music is when it hits you, you fell no pain.
I'll fake all the smiles, if it stops all the questions.
I wouldn't be surprised if I was voted most likely to kill everyone at a high school dance.--- Kurt Cobain
I wear my scars proudly. They represent the battles through which I have gone, and I am proud because those battles I have won.
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i dont want to mess up my challenge and i dont want nasty marks for the weekend coz s will not be happy
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> My Sigillum Diaboli - Read 1stPost <
KLove24's twin | Owns ultimate starshine | Haven's special RW buddy
Oftentimes all we need is a thought or a message to help us see another side to the problem,
or just some hope that life will be better - magicmum
Hugs & PM's are fine
The Truth that can set Souls Free is Buried within Sweet Pandemonium
To cry is to know that you're alive
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I'm within sight of a year for the first time...I can't mess it up now
...and I fell asleep. Not the first time that has saved me!
...and I fell asleep. Not the first time that has saved me!
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
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GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
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son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
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because tomorrow it will be 7 weeks and my arm feels GOOD all healed up.
"We think the point is to pass the test or overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don't really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. The healing comes from letting there be room for it all to happen: Room for grief, for relief, for misery, for joy." Pema Chodron
"There is room for all of your feelings - take a moment, be quiet and let there be room in your heart and the bursting will ease" C
"What a Long, Strange Trip it's been" Grateful Dead
"There is room for all of your feelings - take a moment, be quiet and let there be room in your heart and the bursting will ease" C
"What a Long, Strange Trip it's been" Grateful Dead
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I am in respite and have promised myself I would never hurt myself in respite since I come here to get help and, well, respite. It wouldn't be fair to the people I'm staying with to hurt myself while I'm here. And it could jeopardize my chance of getting into respite again.
Kali (previously known as Michelle)
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I'm not around much and rarely reply to folks but being here always helps me. You're all amazing.
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Hugs are always welcome!
I'm not around much and rarely reply to folks but being here always helps me. You're all amazing.
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coz id already done it earlier that day
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KLove24's twin | Owns ultimate starshine | Haven's special RW buddy
Oftentimes all we need is a thought or a message to help us see another side to the problem,
or just some hope that life will be better - magicmum
Hugs & PM's are fine
The Truth that can set Souls Free is Buried within Sweet Pandemonium
To cry is to know that you're alive
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