last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Roxi » Mon Oct 20, 2008 9:09 pm

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Post by *pixie dust* » Mon Oct 20, 2008 11:03 pm

...because my mum is coming to visit me on Friday and I'll be damned if I'm going to let her down after all this time.
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Post by snowangel_03 » Tue Oct 21, 2008 12:27 am

i dont like looking at what ive done the last few days :(
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Post by Never Again » Wed Oct 22, 2008 1:52 am

because my sister is getting married next year. im her maid of honor. i want her day to be perfect.

i already have enough ugly scars to hide from family, and to cover up to so that her pictures come out perfect for her.
I have love. I have love but I don't know where to put it.

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Post by Kiki_in_LA » Thu Oct 23, 2008 6:41 am

Because I didn't want my mom worrying about me more than she already does.

Because my best friend threatened me with random things if I hurt myself again

Because I want to be a strong person and let others think I'm a strong person


And I haven't done it since! Six days (?) and counting!
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Post by ReineDuSommeil » Thu Oct 23, 2008 9:50 am

I thought 'this is ridiculous'
And didn't actually feel the need to. Plus I was tired, and in a lesson...

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Post by zombiepeople » Thu Oct 23, 2008 4:14 pm

I don't want to have to explain to my boss again what I did as the uniform I have to wear is short-sleeved...plus I've gone for over three months now and I'm doing all I can not to break my record.
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Post by snowangel_03 » Thu Oct 23, 2008 5:53 pm

coz i dont want to explain anything to my friend s when we see her next week
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Post by Luscious Peanut » Fri Oct 24, 2008 1:34 pm

^*^~Branded~^*^ wrote:I squeezed ice and drew on myself.
OOOhhhh. Hennna maybe. mmmm.... sharpie.... ooohhh. thank you for that.
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Sat Oct 25, 2008 3:15 am

i have work tomorrow.

and I have to wear short sleeves or a hoodie to cover my scars in which case everyone knows anyway.
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Post by chameleon » Sun Oct 26, 2008 7:32 pm

I promised myself that I could if I needed to, but that I really had to need to.

I had everything that I needed with me. But I didn't feel as bad as the previous night when I did, so I didn't do it this time. It comes down to that for me, I need that promise for myself. I need to know I can if I want to, and that makes it easier for me not to do it when I don't have to.

If I told myself I absolutely *mustn't* ever do it again, something inside me would go f**k you and be more likely to do it.

I managed over 18 months before falling off the wagon this time, and a similar period before that.

It's hard just now. I'll be promising myself that again tonight. But only if I absolutely need to.
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Post by snowangel_03 » Mon Oct 27, 2008 7:01 pm

i felt too drained to do anything :-?
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Post by ambivalent red » Mon Oct 27, 2008 9:34 pm

I got on BUS and read every post.
I made an outline of what I need to fix with my pdoc.
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Post by black rain » Mon Oct 27, 2008 11:08 pm

my dad was home
I like having low self-esteem it makes me feel special.

They say you need to pray, if you want to go to heaven. But they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to hell.

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Post by snowangel_03 » Wed Oct 29, 2008 12:46 pm

i dont want to mess up my challenge and i dont want nasty marks for the weekend coz s will not be happy
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Post by 5th section » Sat Nov 01, 2008 11:47 pm

I'm within sight of a year for the first time...I can't mess it up now
...and I fell asleep. Not the first time that has saved me!
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
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Post by whiteroomeyes » Tue Nov 11, 2008 5:24 am

because I love my girlfriend, and I would never want her to feel guilty about what I've done to myself. Its worked for two months.

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Post by Inthebox » Fri Nov 14, 2008 7:54 am

because tomorrow it will be 7 weeks and my arm feels GOOD all healed up.
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Post by arianwen1174 » Sun Nov 16, 2008 7:00 am

I am in respite and have promised myself I would never hurt myself in respite since I come here to get help and, well, respite. It wouldn't be fair to the people I'm staying with to hurt myself while I'm here. And it could jeopardize my chance of getting into respite again.
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Post by snowangel_03 » Mon Nov 17, 2008 2:17 pm

coz id already done it earlier that day :roll:
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