Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Beasty » Sun Sep 21, 2008 11:46 pm

I'm worried that my anal-ness about my eating habits and exercise habits is morphing into some sort of twisted eating disorder.
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Post by Pissenlit » Mon Sep 22, 2008 6:40 am

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I was sexually assaulted when I was a teenager and never told anyone. And when I got home, they yelled at me for being late and told me how irresponsible I was, for not being home on time to take over watching my baby brother because my father was always too drunk or stoned to do so before I even got out of school. I didn't argue that I wasn't the irresponsible one, or that they could have cared why I was a mess or asked me why I was late before they started yelling. I just took it, apologized, and took a really long shower. Then they yelled at me for hogging the bathroom.

I hate my parents more for that day than for anything else they ever did to me.
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Mon Sep 22, 2008 1:03 pm

I just.. want someone to love me, and to make me feel loved... mentally ... and physically.

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Post by ambivalent red » Mon Sep 22, 2008 6:13 pm

i kissed her and i will kiss her again.
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Tue Sep 23, 2008 2:31 am

I want to be physically loved, I crave it, and I don't want a guy. I want a girl to love me.

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Post by KLove24 » Fri Sep 26, 2008 6:13 am

I cheated on you
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Post by bee.loved12 » Sun Sep 28, 2008 12:25 am

i want you back so badly. the next time i see you, im gonna make you wish you never ended things. and im gonna kiss you.
maybe today, we can put the past away.

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Sun Sep 28, 2008 4:40 am

I want to kiss her..

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Post by idork » Sun Sep 28, 2008 5:03 am

I do not want to get better... I want to stop eating... I'm afraid someone will try to stop me. I remember the day I started this "diet", it's been over a year and a half... no one knows when it started, I remember the day.

do I really have an ed? is it possible?... i think i do... that scares me so much

I AM SELFISH!!! I do not care how much you tell me that I give to others... I DO NOT, all I think about is myself...
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Post by ThanksALatte » Sun Sep 28, 2008 4:16 pm

i dont want to live there because im afraid. i dont want to watch her die. i cant handle seeing people i love sick. its why i couldnt stand being in the hospital with him...and why being there messed me up so badly. i cant live there.
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Post by mephistopheles » Sun Sep 28, 2008 4:21 pm

Is this working? Is it? I can't tell. Are we falling out or is it ok?
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Post by caged bird » Sun Sep 28, 2008 5:57 pm

this has actually been a totally awful weekend.

i felt sick so didn't get to go out
my frineds were all busy, out or went away
so for the first weekend i've had off in AGES, i've still spent it totally isolated.

story of my life - and yet it's all my own fault
oh and i've just become spare wheel in the house, again
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Post by caged bird » Mon Sep 29, 2008 10:17 am

I'm testing you, and i'm ashamed and embarassed that i'm doing it but i can't stop myself

i'm scared you're going to fail
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Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
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Post by amyfairy » Mon Sep 29, 2008 12:00 pm

I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I don't know if I like working with disabled clients or if I'm doing it because it's my only option. If this doesn't work out then I've wasted so much time. I'll be the ultimate failure.

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Post by Holi » Mon Sep 29, 2008 10:07 pm

I think I'm ready to let myself be happy again...

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Post by Callisto » Thu Oct 02, 2008 12:53 am

I become obsessive quite easily.....especially over him. I know its not normal, but I can't get past seeing it as protecting myself from hurt. I think I might have a quite serious problem.

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Thu Oct 02, 2008 4:56 am

I was going to lean in and kiss you.

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It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live - APWBD.


Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.

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Post by Dorky&Weird2 » Thu Oct 02, 2008 6:00 am

I feel like I will never be loved by a guy and I deserve it.

I feel like a fake 24/7 cause I never say how I really feel.
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Thu Oct 02, 2008 9:47 am

I now know how to feel sad without the world ending.

Emptiness I don't understand.

I am the living dead right now.
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