Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]
I'm worried that my anal-ness about my eating habits and exercise habits is morphing into some sort of twisted eating disorder.
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I was sexually assaulted when I was a teenager and never told anyone. And when I got home, they yelled at me for being late and told me how irresponsible I was, for not being home on time to take over watching my baby brother because my father was always too drunk or stoned to do so before I even got out of school. I didn't argue that I wasn't the irresponsible one, or that they could have cared why I was a mess or asked me why I was late before they started yelling. I just took it, apologized, and took a really long shower. Then they yelled at me for hogging the bathroom.
I hate my parents more for that day than for anything else they ever did to me.
I was sexually assaulted when I was a teenager and never told anyone. And when I got home, they yelled at me for being late and told me how irresponsible I was, for not being home on time to take over watching my baby brother because my father was always too drunk or stoned to do so before I even got out of school. I didn't argue that I wasn't the irresponsible one, or that they could have cared why I was a mess or asked me why I was late before they started yelling. I just took it, apologized, and took a really long shower. Then they yelled at me for hogging the bathroom.
I hate my parents more for that day than for anything else they ever did to me.
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I am the grammarian about whom your mother warned you!
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I can has place now?
I am the grammarian about whom your mother warned you!
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I want to be physically loved, I crave it, and I don't want a guy. I want a girl to love me.
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I want to kiss her..
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I do not want to get better... I want to stop eating... I'm afraid someone will try to stop me. I remember the day I started this "diet", it's been over a year and a half... no one knows when it started, I remember the day.
do I really have an ed? is it possible?... i think i do... that scares me so much
I AM SELFISH!!! I do not care how much you tell me that I give to others... I DO NOT, all I think about is myself...
do I really have an ed? is it possible?... i think i do... that scares me so much
I AM SELFISH!!! I do not care how much you tell me that I give to others... I DO NOT, all I think about is myself...
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i dont want to live there because im afraid. i dont want to watch her die. i cant handle seeing people i love sick. its why i couldnt stand being in the hospital with him...and why being there messed me up so badly. i cant live there.
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"A thousand times I've failed, still Your mercy remains...should I stumble again, I'm caught in Your grace..."
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this has actually been a totally awful weekend.
i felt sick so didn't get to go out
my frineds were all busy, out or went away
so for the first weekend i've had off in AGES, i've still spent it totally isolated.
story of my life - and yet it's all my own fault
oh and i've just become spare wheel in the house, again
i felt sick so didn't get to go out
my frineds were all busy, out or went away
so for the first weekend i've had off in AGES, i've still spent it totally isolated.
story of my life - and yet it's all my own fault
oh and i've just become spare wheel in the house, again
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I'm testing you, and i'm ashamed and embarassed that i'm doing it but i can't stop myself
i'm scared you're going to fail
i'm scared you're going to fail
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I think I'm ready to let myself be happy again...
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I was going to lean in and kiss you.
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I feel like I will never be loved by a guy and I deserve it.
I feel like a fake 24/7 cause I never say how I really feel.
I feel like a fake 24/7 cause I never say how I really feel.
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I now know how to feel sad without the world ending.
Emptiness I don't understand.
I am the living dead right now.
Emptiness I don't understand.
I am the living dead right now.
If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
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