Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Tue May 06, 2008 5:44 am

I don't want to get better.
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Tue May 06, 2008 5:47 am

DecemberLivy wrote:I'm terrified that I fancy girls
It ain't a bad thing.
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by guest567 » Tue May 06, 2008 5:33 pm

It didn't take much but i am here again, and i had forgotten how good it feels

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Post by Callisto » Thu May 08, 2008 11:02 am

it hurt to admit that in my place. i've never admitted it before. not even to myself.

please don't all hate me for being honest. i know what i said wasn't nice....but please, i need help with this not hatred.

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Post by caged bird » Thu May 08, 2008 3:22 pm

i wish you'd let me go driving on my own today. i'd do anything for you but you got in the way of plans :-?
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Post by mephistopheles » Sat May 10, 2008 1:04 pm

a glass of wine at 2pm doesn't make me an alcoholic.
but the bottle i had this morning..?
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Post by Cellardoor » Sun May 11, 2008 10:15 pm

She was amazing. I'm afraid to talk about it incase i ruin it. I know i know i know it's wrong. She is m's, and i am J's... But i love her i love her i love her. She was so beautiful. so soft. but i couldn't have J stay over. I couldn't have her touch me after i'd woken up with someone else. And i'm sorry M, i'm so sorry. But fuck, she is incredible...
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Post by cant-take-it » Sun May 11, 2008 11:59 pm

Ive never had a real boyfriend. I want someone to love me.
Im so scared about my A levels. I cant be anything else but a vet. Why am I not smart enough? I feel im getting stupider by the minute.
Ive felt ugly for a long time now. What if this is just the me now and im going to be ugly for the rest of my life?


Ive got a lot on my plate right now.
<center> Depression.
Is like a warm blanket I wrap around myself, like a friend I haven't seen in years,
I welcome you back in my life.
I let you in and you are so familiar. You are here to keep me warm and safe and sane, but I know that’s not the truth, those are your words, your lies for me to hold onto and find comfort in.
All I want to do is lie on the floor and stare into space, and you put your arms around me and say its ok, don't get up, you don't have to do anything anymore. You say the things I want to hear, I know you are the only one who understands that I am worthless, meaningless, that I am nothing.
You stroke my hair and face, and you say yes, it is that bad.
And it is never going to get any better.

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Post by Chey Kizoxie » Mon May 12, 2008 5:26 pm

I dont like how i am sometimes. all cold and keeping people away. I just dont know how to stop it.

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Post by Beasty » Sat May 17, 2008 3:07 am

I think the only people I can get close to are the ones I knew before my personality took a U-turn.
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Post by Callisto » Sat May 17, 2008 4:46 pm

i hate my mother....and im ok with that.

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Post by Scatterbrain » Mon May 19, 2008 4:50 am

I'm distancing myself from all of you. I just realized it. I dont want to leave at the end of the year. So I've put up a wall in order to stop from hurting then. I'm sorry. But it is still really hard for me to believe that all of you miss me as much as you say... I love you all for it though.

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Post by Spidey » Mon May 19, 2008 12:35 pm

It was because I couldn't deal with you any more.
there is, in the end, the letting go.
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Post by MusicalMorphine » Mon May 19, 2008 8:21 pm

It really hurts that not one of you said anything.

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Post by Binayshee » Sat May 24, 2008 12:29 am

i want to get drunk to forget the things that
bothered me today and go numb for a little
while :(

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Post by Scatterbrain » Sat May 24, 2008 6:34 am

I'm isolating and distancing myself so it will hurt less to leave in a 3 weeks. But I'm not sure I can deal with the lack of support in the mean time...

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I'm not here/This isn't happening"
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Post by Cuppy » Sun May 25, 2008 4:40 pm

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Post by Siofra » Mon May 26, 2008 2:50 pm

I'm scared.

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Post by rememberthatiloveyou » Tue May 27, 2008 3:05 pm

i'm moving there to be with you, not because of the school work...my school is fine, and better than the one there, i'm not struggling...i could figure out what i wanted to do if i tried, i haven't tried. not because i like the town, honestly...i like my town better, its bigger and more fun...yes partly for a new start.

i have loved you from the start.
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Post by Aly » Tue May 27, 2008 4:03 pm

I don't like you anymore.
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.


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