Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sun Mar 02, 2008 12:03 pm

my parents didn't want me
my best friend can't make time to even ask me how i am
m didn't want me
a left me behind
and now t doesnt want me either.

and i dont blame any of them.

whats the point in still trying to pretend it's them and not me.
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Post by MusicalMorphine » Sun Mar 02, 2008 3:11 pm

Honestly, I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. I need help.

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Post by kittyfever » Sun Mar 02, 2008 7:33 pm

I wish he still loved me. It still hurts too much, 4 or 5 years later.

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Post by Geordie » Mon Mar 03, 2008 11:40 am

I think my friends are getting sick of me :cry:
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Post by vampirelover » Mon Mar 03, 2008 9:20 pm

im afraid i might be happy
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Post by Peege » Mon Mar 03, 2008 9:26 pm

so i'm doing it again. yes.
a small part of me knows its a bad idea.
most of me enjoys having something to smile about.
all of me cant wait to feel the true effects.
it's pure unadulterated anticipation.

And the birds up on the wires and the telegraph poles
They can always fly away from this rain and this cold


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Post by Quiet little Angel » Mon Mar 03, 2008 9:44 pm

i wish i was more sick so that i could quit lawschool and be IP for a while... have peace to get better without having to struggle with school as well...
i've never had to struggle like this with school-work... and it's not even because i'm finding the subjects tough... i just can't do it...
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Post by recovering4me » Tue Mar 04, 2008 9:42 pm

i want mandy to hug me, but im scared to ask because she might say no because its unprofessional.
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Post by vampirelover » Tue Mar 04, 2008 9:44 pm

Im afraid my anorexic mate will judge me caus of my SH
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Post by _MessedUp_ » Wed Mar 05, 2008 12:15 am

i really really dont like that guy. why cant you see he's a complete dickhead?
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Post by amyfairy » Wed Mar 05, 2008 12:53 am

i still wish it was me that had od'd. & that's so wrong, i know. :-?

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Post by manda » Fri Mar 07, 2008 11:01 am

im so lost that dont even know how to begin to find my way. the thought of starting on that path is so overwhelming i put it off 'till tomorrow' every day. im scared that one day ill be ready to put my energy toward it, only it will be too late....
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Post by Pink_Stars » Fri Mar 07, 2008 3:38 pm

If only they realised I know more than them.
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Post by Roxi » Fri Mar 07, 2008 4:59 pm

I've been having urges and not telling anyone.
Sometimes it's just easier to pretend that being in recovery is easy
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Post by Beasty » Sat Mar 08, 2008 3:54 am

When we kiss...



.... I think of his mum
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Post by MusicalMorphine » Sat Mar 08, 2008 12:11 pm

I feel bad but I am disappointed that I didn't get the one thing I wanted for my birthday. It wasn't much to ask.

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Post by ShellyT » Sun Mar 09, 2008 5:01 am

I slept with C. But I dreamed about J.
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Post by caged bird » Mon Mar 10, 2008 8:51 pm

i screwed up
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Tue Mar 11, 2008 2:52 am

I'm stupid. No, really.
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Post by mephistopheles » Tue Mar 11, 2008 2:53 am

I want to starve again.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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