Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by idork » Mon Nov 12, 2007 1:51 am

I don't want to stop. I just don't want to get caught.

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Post by red umbrellas » Mon Nov 12, 2007 9:18 am

today my heart flipped and i felt about 14 again.
i really want something to come of this
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Post by Kaelyn » Mon Nov 12, 2007 3:52 pm

I fear that this time the eating/food issues are much worse than last time. I fear that I'm never going to be able to cope without a destructive (ED/SI/drugs) mechanism. And at the same time I'm angry at myself for being so "weak" - for not being able to cope in a healthy way all the time.
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Post by wilson » Mon Nov 12, 2007 4:58 pm

***RELIGION***

i've lost my faith in the lord because no one deserves to suffer as much as i have and get ignored. the only thing that has been keeping me alive is my belief that you will pull me out of it.

now i have no one reason to keep trying
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i dont really mind if i just fade away
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Post by Li'lRuby » Mon Nov 12, 2007 9:06 pm

Where do I go???
The old grey donkey, Eeyore stood by himself in a thistly corner of the Forest, his front feet well apart, his head on one side, and thought about things. Sometimes he thought sadly to himself, "Why?" and sometimes he thought, "Wherefore?" and sometimes he thought, "Inasmuch as which?" and sometimes he didn't quite know what he was thinking about.
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Post by Callisto » Mon Nov 12, 2007 9:22 pm

i feel like im losing my only safe place

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Tue Nov 13, 2007 2:33 am

I have imagined just walking up to you.. and breaking your nose. I'm surprised I have the willpower to hold back.

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Post by Arcana » Tue Nov 13, 2007 5:46 am

i miss you. i want you. but you probably hate me. i'm so fucking fat, and gaining weight. even though you can see my ribs if i move my shoulders back a bit or raise my arms a little and my collar bone sticks out and i'm fucking cold all the time and everybody says i'm a stick, i'm still fucking fat. and a social retard. and that's why you don't want me, isn't it? the sad thing is that i still miss you so much
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Post by wilson » Tue Nov 13, 2007 3:43 pm

i need help.
<center>R.I.P. 23/07/89 - 05/11/01
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im over existing in limbo
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i dont really mind if i just fade away
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Post by caged bird » Tue Nov 13, 2007 5:25 pm

i'm supposed to be ok but i didn't even try and fight the urges

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Post by amyfairy » Tue Nov 13, 2007 9:47 pm

i'm maybe going to quit uni.
two and a bit years in, 7 months to go.

i can't do it.
nor can i fucking drive.

i'm shit at this stuff. :(

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Post by zombiepeople » Wed Nov 14, 2007 12:57 am

It's a really stupid secret, but...I accidentally ripped the hem off my little brother's pants :o
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Post by ChaosCat » Wed Nov 14, 2007 1:11 am

I want to quit DBT.
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Wed Nov 14, 2007 1:46 am

I want you to hold me.. just, hold me. I've thought about just feeling your arms wrap around me, making me feel safe..


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It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live - APWBD.


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Post by amyfairy » Wed Nov 14, 2007 4:03 pm

i'm giving up driving lessons
as well as uni

I.CAN'T.DO.IT
and yes i know you fucking can. stop rubbing it in my face. i feel useless enough already.

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Post by Blazergal3 » Thu Nov 15, 2007 5:30 am

It has been three years today since you passed away, it has been a hard day. I know I need to get on with life but........................I miss you and love you daddy. I wish I could just hear you tell me you love me one more time.[/quote]

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Post by Callisto » Thu Nov 15, 2007 8:39 am

i need other people's support and kindness more than i like to admit

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Thu Nov 15, 2007 1:02 pm

the_tempest wrote:i need other people's support and kindness more than i like to admit
.. I think we all do :)
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by Callisto » Thu Nov 15, 2007 8:49 pm

i appear to have lost everything in a matter of days, for the second time in mere months.........can i get off this ride now before i lose anything else?

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Post by Spidey » Thu Nov 15, 2007 11:56 pm

<b>Please read this, in its entirety.</b>

<i>The venting threads (this one, the secrets thread) are <u>not</u> to be used to execute your personal vendettas.</i>

Not only that, but they are not to be used for means of indirect communication, such as to backhandedly talk about another member of the board, in whatever way.

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