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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by (*Haven*) » Wed Nov 08, 2006 5:49 am

*PMs okay*



I truthfully believe that the only reason I haven't attempted suicide is because of my therapist. I think about how it would hurt her before I think about how it would hurt anyone else.
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Post by red umbrellas » Sun Nov 12, 2006 10:21 am

if i could choose who would find me...and if i could be assured of remembering everyone i should apologise to.....i think i'd just try to give up and let go.
and die.
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses

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Post by moo-moo » Sun Nov 12, 2006 10:58 am

the only reason that i am still here is because of you. but you still dont know that i love you, it hurts me more and more every time i see you, i wish you were still mine, but you arent, i wish i could be with you for the rest of my life. you said you loved me, i believed you, a couple of weeks later, you broke my heart, and i still love you. how can you not see that?


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your bottles almost empty..you know this cant go on, because of you my mind is always racing..
the needles breaking your skin..the scar is sinking in...and know your trip begins..
but its all over for...its all over for you.....you....
when your on the edge and falling off..its all over for you...for you..

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Post by K8ty » Sun Nov 12, 2006 5:27 pm

Please Comment - PM Me

- I am afraid I don't love my husband for the right reasons.

- I'm jealous of my family who aren't in recovery and 'get' to stay broken and never challenge their thoughts.

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- My husband is 27 years older than me, and is a father figure to me.. but I have sex with him anyway.
- I always dissociate while having sex with him, and let another part handle the sexual part of our relationship.
- I can't(don't) say no to sex.. ever. I had sex with my husbsand while suicidal.
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Post by moo-moo » Sun Nov 12, 2006 6:54 pm

i pm'ed u...
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your bottles almost empty..you know this cant go on, because of you my mind is always racing..
the needles breaking your skin..the scar is sinking in...and know your trip begins..
but its all over for...its all over for you.....you....
when your on the edge and falling off..its all over for you...for you..

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Post by ceci passera aussi » Sun Nov 12, 2006 7:05 pm

i don't know if i love my fiance.
formerly Justboo

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Post by mephistopheles » Mon Nov 13, 2006 10:01 pm

i thought, i thought on here i could say what i want. i thought on here, maybe i could say what i felt. if anyone else tells me not to talk about something i'll scream. except i can't scream. i'll just die a bit more inside.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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Post by April » Tue Nov 14, 2006 12:33 am

If I don't get an honest answer soon. I swear I'm gonna smack him.

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Post by poet with probs » Tue Nov 14, 2006 7:45 am

i am afraid that i am lesbian becasue the only guy that i am tracted to looks a bit female looking.
i am afraid that he dons love me like i love him.
i am afirad that he is goning to leave me and i will kill myself
i am afraid that i am still suadidal
i am afraid that i am sik , i am allwase dizzy and i allwase have a headaches
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Post by moo-moo » Tue Nov 14, 2006 7:49 am

[size=0]I take secret od's hoping i will die, but i dont...just want to get away from it ll.[/size]
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your bottles almost empty..you know this cant go on, because of you my mind is always racing..
the needles breaking your skin..the scar is sinking in...and know your trip begins..
but its all over for...its all over for you.....you....
when your on the edge and falling off..its all over for you...for you..

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Tue Nov 14, 2006 8:18 am

i'm not ok...
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Post by Twinky » Tue Nov 14, 2006 5:18 pm

I don't know who I am
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Post by black_23 » Tue Nov 14, 2006 11:41 pm

I am scared the su thoughts are back, slowly quietly creeping back into my life, I don't know what to do. I don't want them here I want to fight this, but I have no energy. Sorry Im a horrible person.
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Post by Lynds » Wed Nov 15, 2006 9:04 pm

I'm supposed to be helping people who are depressed or suicidal but I am one of them but when I'm working it helps me as well as them but I'm too scared to tell my collegues in case they make me take time off or leave...

I listen to cheesey 80s music-Total Eclipse of the Heart by Belinda Carlisle and Show Me Heaven by Maria Mckee give me goose bumps and sometimes I cry..how embarassing! :oops: O crap...

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Post by Guest » Fri Nov 17, 2006 2:53 pm

I've been SA'd.
And yet, I think I still love the man.
I'm a freak
What's wrong with me?


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Post by handmade mute » Fri Nov 17, 2006 11:52 pm

It should be me in that ward, not you. I wish I'd noticed something, or been able to take some of your pain away. I wish there was something I could do to help you see how loved, wanted and important you are.

The fact you SI'd, even if only for a while, is more painful to me than I'd ever have thought possible. If I could wish one thing for you, it's that you'd stop being so much like me.

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Post by Callisto » Sun Nov 19, 2006 6:28 pm

PM's ok

--Just because its been a while since I've si'd doesn't mean I'm getting better....it just means I don't have the energy right now.

--I love you. And one day you're going to have to stop fighting that.

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Sun Nov 19, 2006 8:30 pm

i'm going to let myself get hurt by this guy... i know it... i'll take anything from him aslong as it means i'll get to see him and be with him... i always swore i would go for 'friends with benefits'-relationships... but now i have... i know i shouldn't and i know i'll end up hurt... but i can't help it... for once i find a guy that i actually like... and who genuinly cares about me... and who's not just out to screw me... (though if he was i'd probably let him... ) and then he doesn't want to be anything more than friends with benefits... and i'll let it be like that...

i'll end up being hurt... i know it... but i'm not going to try and stop it...


PM's ok... i think i actually want them...
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Post by balletomane » Sun Nov 19, 2006 10:39 pm

Today my sister was joking around and she told my father that she learned to say "what the hell" from him. He told her that if she should learn how to control her temper from him.

I had to laugh.

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Post by wish » Mon Nov 20, 2006 3:24 pm

right now i hate him more than i ever thought possible.
i pretty much hate everyone right now
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