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I truthfully believe that the only reason I haven't attempted suicide is because of my therapist. I think about how it would hurt her before I think about how it would hurt anyone else.
I truthfully believe that the only reason I haven't attempted suicide is because of my therapist. I think about how it would hurt her before I think about how it would hurt anyone else.
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Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
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Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
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if i could choose who would find me...and if i could be assured of remembering everyone i should apologise to.....i think i'd just try to give up and let go.
and die.
and die.
And excuses and excuses and excuses
Hold On To Yourself - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
"We paint a picture of a scenario - and then we become afraid of it" - Andrea Fella
the only reason that i am still here is because of you. but you still dont know that i love you, it hurts me more and more every time i see you, i wish you were still mine, but you arent, i wish i could be with you for the rest of my life. you said you loved me, i believed you, a couple of weeks later, you broke my heart, and i still love you. how can you not see that?
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pm's welcome
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My Place "I will always love him"
your bottles almost empty..you know this cant go on, because of you my mind is always racing..
the needles breaking your skin..the scar is sinking in...and know your trip begins..
but its all over for...its all over for you.....you....
when your on the edge and falling off..its all over for you...for you..
My Place "I will always love him"
your bottles almost empty..you know this cant go on, because of you my mind is always racing..
the needles breaking your skin..the scar is sinking in...and know your trip begins..
but its all over for...its all over for you.....you....
when your on the edge and falling off..its all over for you...for you..
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- I am afraid I don't love my husband for the right reasons.
- I'm jealous of my family who aren't in recovery and 'get' to stay broken and never challenge their thoughts.
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- My husband is 27 years older than me, and is a father figure to me.. but I have sex with him anyway.
- I always dissociate while having sex with him, and let another part handle the sexual part of our relationship.
- I can't(don't) say no to sex.. ever. I had sex with my husbsand while suicidal.
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- I am afraid I don't love my husband for the right reasons.
- I'm jealous of my family who aren't in recovery and 'get' to stay broken and never challenge their thoughts.
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- My husband is 27 years older than me, and is a father figure to me.. but I have sex with him anyway.
- I always dissociate while having sex with him, and let another part handle the sexual part of our relationship.
- I can't(don't) say no to sex.. ever. I had sex with my husbsand while suicidal.
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i pm'ed u...
hugs and pms welcome*****
My Place "I will always love him"
your bottles almost empty..you know this cant go on, because of you my mind is always racing..
the needles breaking your skin..the scar is sinking in...and know your trip begins..
but its all over for...its all over for you.....you....
when your on the edge and falling off..its all over for you...for you..
My Place "I will always love him"
your bottles almost empty..you know this cant go on, because of you my mind is always racing..
the needles breaking your skin..the scar is sinking in...and know your trip begins..
but its all over for...its all over for you.....you....
when your on the edge and falling off..its all over for you...for you..
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- mephistopheles
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i thought, i thought on here i could say what i want. i thought on here, maybe i could say what i felt. if anyone else tells me not to talk about something i'll scream. except i can't scream. i'll just die a bit more inside.
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i am afraid that i am lesbian becasue the only guy that i am tracted to looks a bit female looking.
i am afraid that he dons love me like i love him.
i am afirad that he is goning to leave me and i will kill myself
i am afraid that i am still suadidal
i am afraid that i am sik , i am allwase dizzy and i allwase have a headaches
PMS wanted
i am afraid that he dons love me like i love him.
i am afirad that he is goning to leave me and i will kill myself
i am afraid that i am still suadidal
i am afraid that i am sik , i am allwase dizzy and i allwase have a headaches
PMS wanted
( ) i think this is the first cow that was ever on here
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R.I.P. Matthew August 14, 1988 - July 25, 2006
You will always be remembered.
R.I.P Nicole october 25, 1987 - May 12, 2005
both of you will allwase be remberd
my poems http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=99532
R.I.P. Matthew August 14, 1988 - July 25, 2006
You will always be remembered.
R.I.P Nicole october 25, 1987 - May 12, 2005
both of you will allwase be remberd
[size=0]I take secret od's hoping i will die, but i dont...just want to get away from it ll.[/size]
hugs and pms welcome*****
My Place "I will always love him"
your bottles almost empty..you know this cant go on, because of you my mind is always racing..
the needles breaking your skin..the scar is sinking in...and know your trip begins..
but its all over for...its all over for you.....you....
when your on the edge and falling off..its all over for you...for you..
My Place "I will always love him"
your bottles almost empty..you know this cant go on, because of you my mind is always racing..
the needles breaking your skin..the scar is sinking in...and know your trip begins..
but its all over for...its all over for you.....you....
when your on the edge and falling off..its all over for you...for you..
- Quiet little Angel
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i'm not ok...
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Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
I am scared the su thoughts are back, slowly quietly creeping back into my life, I don't know what to do. I don't want them here I want to fight this, but I have no energy. Sorry Im a horrible person.
'Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life' Picasso
'IS THERE NO WAY OUT OF THE MIND?' Sylvia Plath
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'IS THERE NO WAY OUT OF THE MIND?' Sylvia Plath
My Poetry
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97459
My Place
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97307
I'm supposed to be helping people who are depressed or suicidal but I am one of them but when I'm working it helps me as well as them but I'm too scared to tell my collegues in case they make me take time off or leave...
I listen to cheesey 80s music-Total Eclipse of the Heart by Belinda Carlisle and Show Me Heaven by Maria Mckee give me goose bumps and sometimes I cry..how embarassing! O crap...
I listen to cheesey 80s music-Total Eclipse of the Heart by Belinda Carlisle and Show Me Heaven by Maria Mckee give me goose bumps and sometimes I cry..how embarassing! O crap...
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It should be me in that ward, not you. I wish I'd noticed something, or been able to take some of your pain away. I wish there was something I could do to help you see how loved, wanted and important you are.
The fact you SI'd, even if only for a while, is more painful to me than I'd ever have thought possible. If I could wish one thing for you, it's that you'd stop being so much like me.
The fact you SI'd, even if only for a while, is more painful to me than I'd ever have thought possible. If I could wish one thing for you, it's that you'd stop being so much like me.
- Quiet little Angel
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i'm going to let myself get hurt by this guy... i know it... i'll take anything from him aslong as it means i'll get to see him and be with him... i always swore i would go for 'friends with benefits'-relationships... but now i have... i know i shouldn't and i know i'll end up hurt... but i can't help it... for once i find a guy that i actually like... and who genuinly cares about me... and who's not just out to screw me... (though if he was i'd probably let him... ) and then he doesn't want to be anything more than friends with benefits... and i'll let it be like that...
i'll end up being hurt... i know it... but i'm not going to try and stop it...
PM's ok... i think i actually want them...
i'll end up being hurt... i know it... but i'm not going to try and stop it...
PM's ok... i think i actually want them...
/May
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
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right now i hate him more than i ever thought possible.
i pretty much hate everyone right now
i pretty much hate everyone right now
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