Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Callisto » Sat Jan 28, 2006 9:51 pm

you telling me that im gorgeous means more to me than when he does it...even though it should be the other way around.

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Post by Callisto » Sun Jan 29, 2006 12:28 am

i told him i didnt have an ED anymore...but i lied...and now im too scared to tell him the truth

i tell myself all how pathetic and worthless and loveless and fat and ugly and stupid and friendless i am everyday

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Post by Reisu » Sun Jan 29, 2006 1:00 am

i wish i could tell you how much more than this you deserve. but even more, i wish that you could believe me when i say it...
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"I'M A DISGUSTING WORTHLESS BILGESACK ON THE GARGANTUAN TEAT OF A LABORING, LEPROUS MUSCLEBEAST. MY SELF ESTEEM IS SO SMALL, ITS EXISTENCE IS A MATTER OF CONJECTURE AMONG THEORETICAL PHYSICISTS. THE ODOR MY BODY MAKES HAS MADE POETS CRY. I UNFAIRLY PULVERIZE THE COMPETITION IN ASSHOLE PAGEANTS, AND I HAVE RECEIVED A LIFETIME BAN FROM UGLY CONTESTS BY PRESIDENT SHITFACE HIMSELF. MY BLOOD IS NOT FIT TO FLOW THROUGH A SEWER, AND MY SIGN IS A PICTOGRAPHIC SYMBOL THAT LOOSELY TRANSLATES AS "PLEASE HIKE THESE PANTS UP TO THIS GUY'S ARMPITS, CHAIN HIM TO A FLOGGING JUT, AND MAKE A FUCKING EXAMPLE OUT OF THIS SORRY SACK OF SHIT." WHEN I LOOK IN A MIRROR, MY REFLECTION SLOWLY SHAKES HIS HEAD WHILE I WET MYSELF IN SHAME."
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Post by Strange_Panda » Sun Jan 29, 2006 1:50 am

This converation, that I'm having right now...I shouldn't be having this conversation.
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Post by Callisto » Sun Jan 29, 2006 2:07 am

no matter how good my life gets i always think about killing myself at some point in every week.

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Sun Jan 29, 2006 4:47 am

I wish I was choking. I wish I wasnt about to cry. I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE my friends because they aren't my friends. They dont say mean things they just hang out EVERY FUCKING DAY w/o me. They comment eachother 50 MILLION TIMES about how much fun they've had and how they love eachother. fuck it hurts so bad

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I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

Drop by my place & say hi :)
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Post by Callisto » Sun Jan 29, 2006 4:49 am

i lie compulsively at times

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Post by Callisto » Sun Jan 29, 2006 6:53 am

im crying right now and im not sure if i can stop

i can't even write any more like i used to because i refuse to let myself really feel any of my own feelings...because im scared of what might happen to me if i do

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Post by BlackKat13 » Sun Jan 29, 2006 7:34 am

(PM comments are fine)

:star: It was once my biggest fear that if I stopped self injuring I would lose my identity...That if I no longer suffered from depression I would not know myself.

I was wrong.

It took a while, but that day has come and I feel that I know myself better than I ever did before.

:star: December 28th. Does this date mean anything to you? It was my aniversary-as of that date I had not self-injured for two full years. That date meant so much to me.

But to you...That day was just *her* birthday. Yet another reminder that you will never love me-on a day that I was supposed to be proud of myself.
Wounded and empowered
I gaze to the sky
And say beneath my breath
"Never injure what cannot die."
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Post by Green Beauty » Sun Jan 29, 2006 12:26 pm

I worry non-stop that she will split up with me. I am not good enough for her.

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Post by Callisto » Sun Jan 29, 2006 8:13 pm

my big secrets scare me so much that i cant even write them down

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Post by daria » Sun Jan 29, 2006 8:40 pm

I fall asleep every night imagining him in bed with me, with his arms around me. It's the only way I can quiet my mind and calm my anxiety.

But I don't know how to let him know how I feel.
You'll find a place where you're beholden to no one
except yourself,
so let them come and see you standing naked
Full of passion, flowing inside out
into creation, becoming one with the present
So go get connected
unshackled essence
Let's f*ck away mortality, you might be independent
I want to get connected
so we can get electric
Then we'll set our souls free dancing into rapture
Immerse yourself in this moment...

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Post by Callisto » Sun Jan 29, 2006 9:49 pm

if i kill myself before he gets here, i wont ruin his life.

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Post by Callisto » Mon Jan 30, 2006 1:31 am

i only cry in the middle of the night when i know no one will hear me, but i wish that someone would

i cling to my teddy when i cry because its the only thing ive ever had that wont push me away

:star: pms ok :star:

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Post by Skyeler » Mon Jan 30, 2006 4:56 am

I don't give a fuck about the meaning behind the tattoos I'm doing.


Most of the time I feel like I don't belong.
But I got my new favorite record today.
My favorites change every single day.
Except you,
You'll always be number one.
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Post by Forget Me » Mon Jan 30, 2006 5:24 am

i love you i love you i love you






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Post by amyfairy » Mon Jan 30, 2006 3:10 pm

i went further with you last night then i have with any other guy.

i know we're going to end up sleeping together, but i need to take it at my pace.

i trust you and i don't know why. i don't trust many people. i've only known you a week.

you said i make you complete. you make me feel complete too. talking all night with you felt so right. what you did felt strange but i was ok with it.

i just hope you still like me!! well i know you do, you sent me a text saying miss you.

i've never felt this way about a guy before, ever. i've never been able to chat to one so easily, sleep with one.

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Post by Callisto » Mon Jan 30, 2006 5:12 pm

i'd buy paracetomol to deal with the headaches if i didnt know that i'd just take the whole box washed down with vodka

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Post by Callisto » Tue Jan 31, 2006 11:17 pm

im so jealous of her because i know i'll never look like that but i want to so bad...she is my idea of perfect

i want what they have, but i dont think i'll ever have it, because i think im too broken to ever be fixed enough for that

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