Before

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* how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?

* what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?

* how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?

* if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?

* what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?

* how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?

* what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?



urges aren't necessarily the enemy. they happen for reasons, and they're an expression of a desire to stay alive and stay sane and keep coping. remember that.

More Before Questions To Answer


* Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
Please excuse the overposting, I find this really helps me...


* Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
Yes, obviously. Um, exercised, listened to music, drawing.

* What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?

Played on the internet, posted to lj, listened to music. Don't know, scared to leave the house, not sure what to do now, cant sit still long enough to read or anything

* How do I feel right now?

Really anxious, angry, scared I don't know exactly, jsut bad and I can't stop..

* How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
Calmer, still, relieved
* How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
Really bad, tomorrow will be the 3 week mark if i don't cut, I will feel guilty, uncontrollable, it will start me down that path agian.

* Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
I don't know how to do that.
* Do I need to hurt myself?
I don't know, maybe if I had yesterday I wouldn't feel this bad today. Running out of things to try.