my first "after" post here

[WithinTemptation]

Screwed up badly, so I'll have a go with this, hope it helps...




have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yes


what had happened just before? huge binge


what were you thinking and feeling? "I'm a disgusting fat cow without self-control and screwed everything up again"


why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was teh final straw? what was it?
combination of binging, being alone, feeling lonely, tough week at therapy


how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events thatled up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decisiona nd not arrived at the final straw.
maybe not binge?


were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
maybe not taking my meds and lack of sleep which I can adress

what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
watching tv, browsing the internet, didn't help for very long


in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
calling someone but just don't dare to
going to bed, read something

name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
pff don't know, usually I do remember them but just don't do it

how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
temporarily resolved by restricting and fasting but a binge is always waiting for me...so guess I need to work at my eating-problem and feelings about myself

are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
yes, I recognize it by binging or thinking of myself as disgusting

what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.
- try to go sleeping
-try to talk to someone
- try to think of a solution that does not include SI

[plantt]

how could you counter your thoughts?

"I'm a disgusting fat cow without self-control and screwed everything up again"

i'm sure you realize that's not a terribly productive way to think...

i know personally... often i can get myself into a chain... 'well i screwed up x so i might as well do y too. well i fucked up & did y... i might as well do all these other things...' sometimes... when i can step back a bit & admit to myself that adding in ineffective things doesn't make the situation better. it simply digs me deeper into the hole. the more effective thing to do is just say 'oops. i did x & i regret it' then move on.

maybe not taking my meds and lack of sleep which I can adress

those 2 things can really mess things up for sure...

pff don't know, usually I do remember them but just don't do it

what keeps you from doing them?

anyhow... haven't seen you around the board before... so hi

[WithinTemptation]

thank you for commenting, it's very helpful, it made me think why I don't do things that can help me while I know they might help