how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
It will make it not better at least I know this now. It will make me lose my week and six days and everyone is so proud of me I want teh 2 week for them, and 4 me.
what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
It's what I do. I will not take away anything but depression and hopelessness
how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way? Hurting myself is only a way for me to punish myself, maybe, like my friend G said, i punish myself enough and I don't have to make it physical? I hope. I really don't know how I want to feel or be in the end I guess that's part of teh prob. All I know is how I don't want to be--like before.
if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then? A few minutes before I feel like a piece of shit for doing this for nothing (please say its nothing)
what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then? Watch my fav. southpark episode, cry (no bad Idea), read my book. Use a gumband, it will make me better if I practice better coping skills.
how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
Like crap have to hide disappoint all my friends. If I do the other thinsg I will feel pathetic stupid and weak.
what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now? just cry
