So yeah. My body keeps freakin out on me. It's all shaky, and I can't breathe and I know that if I could just SH then it would stop, but I've gone a whole month SH free so I'm trying really hard not to do it. But it's so hard! What's the matter with my body?
It happened worst last Wednesday, I was hanging out with a mate who knows about my SH and I just started shaking and it was a bit weird for both of us. And he suggested praying about it, which was totally cool except that when he came over to pray my body just freaked, I couldn't breathe (like I hyperventilated) and it was worse than ever. I was lying across a bunch of chairs and he had to help me to the floor and physically restrain me sometimes. I got so angry and frustrated, that I had to ask him to hold me down coz I knew if I got away from him I would SH. My body was just scaring me so much, but it's like withdrawl and I knew that if I could just sit it out it would pass. So he was pretty much sitting on me for over an hour....
And it was especially strange because I became like two people (not like I think I'm possessed, just confused!). The part of me that wanted to SH and was wrestling with my friend to get him off me so I could SH and the other part that was telling him to sit on me and hold my hand until I could be normal again. It ended up that we stayed up til four thirty in the morning, when eventually I was all relaxed and we could get some sleep!
Has this happened to anyone else? What do I do if happens and no-one's around to sit on me?!
My body keeps freakin out!
My body keeps freakin out!
"You loosen my chains and just ask me to trust you. But it's so much easier this way, even though I know that I am bound."
hey there...
http://busmail.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=69886 - recent post about this.
you might want to try a search on bus for "panic attacks" or "shaking" or something of the sort. i've dealt with this a lot, and though i havn't been diagnosed, i think they're panic attacks. basically my body feels out of control, and the only way i feel it will be okay is if i si. but it's happened so many times that i've learned to control it. if the shaking doesn't take me completely by surprise, i try to start breathing regularly in a pattern, and focus everything just on the breathing. hugging a teddy bear, or another person might help, unless you're feeling violent. i wish i had more advice, but my mind's going blank right now. so good luck with everything, and pm me if you would like to talk.
love, tara.
http://busmail.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=69886 - recent post about this.
you might want to try a search on bus for "panic attacks" or "shaking" or something of the sort. i've dealt with this a lot, and though i havn't been diagnosed, i think they're panic attacks. basically my body feels out of control, and the only way i feel it will be okay is if i si. but it's happened so many times that i've learned to control it. if the shaking doesn't take me completely by surprise, i try to start breathing regularly in a pattern, and focus everything just on the breathing. hugging a teddy bear, or another person might help, unless you're feeling violent. i wish i had more advice, but my mind's going blank right now. so good luck with everything, and pm me if you would like to talk.
love, tara.
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hey i started the other thread and i know wat it feels like, the best thing to do is learn to control ur own body using techniques for eg. when u first start to notice signs of shaking get up and walk around the room a couple of times then go and get a drink of water Also find an activity that u know will distract u, TV isnt always good as it has ads, by doin all of this u stay calm and think about sumthing else and often its enough if you dont let it get to bad
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