next FOUR hours *SI*

[redshell]

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?

If I hurt myself now, the anxiety will diminish and my stomach won't feel so sick. It will release the pressure that is building up inside by the minute

what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?

It won't help a damn thing but I'll feel better


how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?

I don't want to have PTSD in the long run. The intrusions and body memories are driving me crazy ( even though I know I'm not) Wanting to SI or not doesn't seem to be related at the moment

if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?

It will last a few days to a week

what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?

i can't do anything cuz I'm at work and can't leave.

how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?

I won't be happy about it once the scars show.

what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now.

I'm asking for help now

[Tiarin]

sounds like you're in a really difficult place right now.

i don't know if this is at all helpful, but i once had a t who continually reminded me that intense negative emotions always subside again on their own, if i just have the patience to let them. and if i learn to acknowledge them instead of resisting them (or making them go away with self-destructive behavior), they get less potent over time. sometimes when things are awful and i don't know if i can hold on for another minute, i just keep reminding myself that as difficult as it is to be in this place, it won't last. it really won't.

keep breathing. i'm sending lots of encouragement.

dragonfly