Hey guys im new here...i just need someone to talk to...

[browneyes]

hello all...id just like to start out saying that i have been reading posts on here for a couple weeks and finally decided to join because it just seemed liek such a wonderful community...the kind of thing i need right now.

but anyways....

i am a 16 year old female and i have been SI ing for about 3 months now. i have just recently told my parents and a few of my friends. i have just started therapy and medication. so i feel like i should be okay....but im not. i am trying so hard to not cut but i find it impossible when the urge hits me. i get so down on myself that i cant help it. and although i have people around me who care...i still feel so alone and like i am a burden to them all because i have basically forced my mom, dad, and sister into therapy. i am just feeling horrible right now and the thing i need most is to talk to people who know what i am going through. so i guess im not sure what this vent was all about...i just wanted you all to know i am here and if any of you need someone to talk to at any time i am here for you.


hugs and kisses,
Ali

[Russianpoetess]

Hello and welcome!!!!!!! make sure you introduce yourself on the other boards too! glad you gound bus here is your welcome cow.

[nirvana]

hey ali! welcome to bus!!

sounds like things are rough for you. i can definately relate. hugs for you for being able to tell your parents; that takes so much strength. i wish i could do that! and don't feel like you should be okay just because you're on medecine and you have a support group for you. it takes so much more than that. it's a long slow process, and you won't be able to stop si'ing until you want to and until you're ready to. it's a tough decision, because you're already used to having si to cope, and you need to find a new way to handle things. and sometimes a support group isn't enough. because you know they're there for you, but at the same time, you don't want them to get annoyed with you, and you feel like you should be happy because they're there. but it doesn't work like that.

i'm wishing you luck with everything, and i'm here to talk!!
love + hugs,
tara.

[soul sista]

hi welcome!
ur so brave tellin ur folks i havent told mine n i dont think i ever could
(hugs)
sarah

[Queen Zandra Ava]

Hi,

I feel the same way as you. I've been in therapy a few times and it hasn't helped me at all. I talk to my friends about cutting and my boss helps a lot. I've been trying to stop forever and it is so hard to stop. I give you credit for telling your parents because I still can't. I wish you the best of luck. Stay strong and keep fighting.

My friend made me join this because I refuse to go to therapy and she thinks i need to talk to someone about this who understands. I need to sleep. Goodnight

Lots of love

Leah

[Mundo Cani]

Welcome to the board

I hope that it does help you, I'm sure it will. You can never underestimate the value of being able to speak to people who understand you and know where you're coming from.

[JustAGirlInterrupted]

Hi, welcome to Bus. I am sure you will enjoy your visits here, as I have.
Oh, and like the others I admire you for telling your parents. I havent and dont think I will ever tell mine...
Hope to chat with ya soon...

~Tish

[Ardeth]

I think putting the strain on yourself - or anyone - of thinking the whole time that you should quit, is just wrong, because that just makes things worse and never gets you anywhere. Personally I'd just take things one step at a time right now and try to accept that you're an SI'er and move on from there. If you start out and immediately think "I HAVE to stop si'ing" you might discourage yourself more and more day-by-day if you don't fulfill that very steep expectation you have created within yourself.

Anyway, welcome!

*hugz*