I don't think she believed me, it's been nagging at me. I swore I hadn't been doing any purging and in fact have been trying to keep a stable weight. I even said I could see how she could think I may be doing that (totally true, I've been sick, my stomach flipping out at pretty much anything- I could see how that could look like ed stuff), she seemed to blow it off though. I told her, yes, I've done some restricting but been trying to recognize when I am and correct it. Plus, we had been talking about EDs and distorted sense of *ideal* weight, I was agreeing with her and saying how back in middle school I thought x was a good weight but realize it is not a good weight and the rationale for the particular amount was silly- now she thinks I still believe that.
I know it took a lot for her to ask, and I appreciate her concern, but it is frustrating that she doesn't believe me and I have no clue how to bring it up without making a mess of things or making her not want to bring up concerns in the future. She struggled/struggles with EDs as well, I've periodically checked in with her- and she asked me to if I was concerned (she's getting pretty obsessive about loosing weight, even though she is thin and looks fine, she says she hasn't gone overboard so I don't bring it up unless she drops dramatically more- maybe this is what she thinks she is doing as well, I don't know, but I haven't lost weight for quite a while).
Any ideas on how to bring this up and/or convince her that I am being honest? I hope this is vaguely clear, lots on my mind and all jumbled up. Thanks
