where does your anger come *from*? learn to recognise it. look at patterns. stop yourself. write out your thoughts. go outside and scream. etc etc. do you think you might benefit from anger management counselling or something?
with dissociation.. ive found a few things that ground me over the years. certain people i talk to, music, movies.. just sitting and recognising whats around me - smells, textures, colours. trying to stay *in* the moment.
i regret the words i've written most too. go look in sourcebook on stuff about scarring. i've found bio-oil (try googling it) to be the best thing ever for scars but it does take some time. if its healed, you can use concealer & keep it in play with hair spray..
SI is a coping mechanism. not a healthy one, but it is. in order to stop, you have to find new ones to put into place. do you have a therapist?
sorry im a little zonked out atm. i can come back to this later when im more coheratn.
