Things Left Unsaid *LA*

[Stawberry_Lollipops]

You will never understand, ever. You can't possibly understand and I don't expect you too but I wish you did.
I wish you knew just how hard breathing was at the moment. Just how hard living is. Just how much I
suffer. I wish you could see it but you can't. And even if you open your eys for once, you still won't
understand. It's wishful thinking to ever believe maybe you could.

[Annybelly]

I like you. A hell of a lot more than I should.

I can sit with who I like. I didn't leave you alone, I made sure of that. In fact, by moving, I stopped ANYONE having to sit on their own. What's the problem..?

[capricorn]

For fuck's sake.
Sleep is a bodily need. A need. It's not something I can decide to go without when I have lectures and practicals and work every day and have to get up at 8 so should be in bed by 12.
It's not something I'm making up to avoid you. It's not something I can postpone. It's not ABOUT you.
But you're making me scared to say I need to sleep. But I have to, because otherwise I'll end up dropping off while I am talking to you, and that'll make you think I'm ignoring you. So I'm in a bloody catch 22 aren't I?
I don't know what you expect, me to match my sleeping pattern to yours? You've got the most screwed up sleep pattern of anyone I've ever known. And you know it.
Please. Get a grip and stop making me feel guilty about what my body NEEDS.

[Stawberry_Lollipops]

Thank you. I never thought I'd ever be able to talk to you like that. Thank you for trying to understand me.

[DuchessN]

I think we could be so happy together.
I really want you to move back out here and be with me.

[xXelmoscaresmeXx]

im sorry i made shit awkward again.
we were finally getting to be friends, without the awkwardness.
and i fucked up.
just cause i gave u a stupid-ass fucking birthday gift.
it was supposed to be stupid and random
it wasn't supposed to mean anything.
i didn't mean to freak u out.
i miss you and i hate this fucking "just friends" stigma
and i still love you.
love you enough to want to still be friends.
to have my heart broken every fucking day
just so i can be around you
and see you smile and laugh
and be a fucking idiot.
you're a douche
but you're a lovable douche.

[stripysocks4christ]

JS - i wish i had the courage to actually send this to you.. for now, posting on here will have to do...

*REL*

JS, i dont think i can do this.
Because the only way out is for me to turn and face all the things ive been running from.
the only way out is for me to become so so broken my only option is God.
the only way out is for me to fight and to not give up.

I want so badly to be free from all the crap that controls me, i want so so badly to live the life God wants me to live.
But i honestly cant see how i can get from where i am now to where i could be with God.
What is the point? i cant see how this would work. i'll only end up in pain again and i cant face that.
I dont trust God to be gentle with me. I want God to be gentle. I cant cope with anything else.
Bacause i remember all too well how painful it has been in the past to 'face my giants' and i cant go through that again.
i just cant. i wont let myself get that vunerable...

I cant do this alone anymore, but im so scared to let anyone in.
because if you knew all of it, i would expect you to run away.
to run away as fast as you could.
I want someone who can hold my hand through this journey.
and im pretty sure god has put you in my life for a reason.
I dont want to ignore that.
But its so so painful. and so so scary. I dont think i can do it.

[strider 151]

D - i'm really missing u right now. i know it sounds cheesy and love sick and blah, i know....but i do miss you

[Annybelly]

If. Yeah. If. I'm so sorry. So so so so so sorry.

[volta]

i hate this.
fuck all of you.
i'm not coming back home this semester.
and you're insane if you think i'm coming back this summer.

[Beasty]

1. I would have been perfect if you had not said, "I think"

2. I don't understand, grey eyed girl. I don't understand.

[Chey]

to self, why do you have to get so uptight when people mention your name when they talk. They are not necessarily saying anything bad so relax already!

[Stormy Llwellyn]

What the fuck were you thinking????? You are so juvenile. Go home and deal with your real mother. Leave me the fuck out of your drama.

[DuchessN]

I realize the part that I have been playing in this craziness. I can't blame anyone else for my inner turmoil. I can't even say that you've been fucking with my head, because I let it happen. I held on to this ridiculous hope that's done nothing but cause me hurt in the long run. And I can't keep doing this. This morning was like a knife to my heart.

[Birdie]

I'm crying out for your attention. Please notice me. Please show me you care.

[Chey]

I miss you little sister.

[strider 151]

im dying for attention. yes, i literally need attention all the time. every second i dont get it, i crave it with everything i have. i need it, its my drug. i need it all the time. and i know thats impossible, and i know its unfair on everyone, but i cant help it. im fighting it but its stronger then me

[Chey]

I still don't know how I am going to manage this.... This seems impossible. Packing and moving.... I am tired of packing and moving.

[strider 151]

you hurt me. i know i hurt you, but im sorry. and i said sorry. but u hurt me deliberatly, and i wont forgive u this time

you think u can say u love me and then say u dont wanna be my friend and then say u love me again??? im sick of this. it happens too much

and u know what?? it took so much for me to say that my opinion matters. cos the voices say it doesnt and most of the time i believe them. why should i bother being a friend to u when u throw it back in my face??

you know what, u dont deserve a friend like me. and u dont deserve to have me waiting around for the next time when u come crawling back, saying ur sorry and feeding me lies like you love me again. well f off, i dont need this and u have no right to make me feel this way.

this is the last time im gonna be there for u. even though deep down i know i will still be there for u

[strider 151]

A - stop being so obsessed with your problems and complaining and making them worse then they are. im not gonna give u sympathy so shut up. your not the only one with problems, you not the only one whos struggling. i cant be around u when ur like this. stop telling me ur sympathy stories about how things are so hard and how ur life is aweful and how its not easy being you and how ur life is fun but sad but u wouldnt change aything. ugh!