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flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Tue Jan 24, 2006 3:50 am

language....

I am such a poser. I can't do anything right. I'm a fucked up whiny bitch and I fucking deserve everything I've gotten, and instead of standing up for myself when my parents are being parents, I whine and bitch and moan just so I can blame all my problems on depression...because if I'm not depressed than I'm not anything at all

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Tue Jan 24, 2006 6:30 am

*su trigs* everything welcome.

i'm afraid to go to rory's funeral tomorrow......because i know what he did, and how bad I want to do it.

and for some reason, I want to know how he did it.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Tue Jan 24, 2006 6:17 pm

im scared of opening up to anyone irl because im convinced they'll just run away

i starve myself to punish myself for being me and for eating in the first place

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Tue Jan 24, 2006 10:00 pm

im fat and no one will believe me

shadow of a smile · Post by **shadow of a smile** » Wed Jan 25, 2006 12:34 am

i never feel justified about being mad at people. they never deserve it, i'm always the one who fucks it up. nothing is their fault, it's always mine. just when i think i'm right, and i can be really mad, i'm proved wrong. it really is all on me.

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Wed Jan 25, 2006 4:54 am

i totally brought all this shit on myself. if i had been a better person this wouldn't have happened. i have no values, and i don't try, and i push people away. what my mom does is a perfectly reasonable reaction to me, but i bitch and moan about it as though it were my fucking fault! i am a fuckhead and i deserve to be locked up like they threatened.

Catylyx · Post by **Catylyx** » Wed Jan 25, 2006 5:51 am

((comments welcome -- pm))

....sometimes i wish i could abuse laxitives.....but i can't, cause that would land my ass in the hospital for surgery faster than i could blink....

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Wed Jan 25, 2006 5:40 pm

im convinced that the only reason ppl tell me to eat more is so that they can keep me fat so they can laugh at me....i dont see it as caring i see it as them picking on me even tho i know its not.

gin and kerosene · Post by **gin and kerosene** » Thu Jan 26, 2006 6:54 am

She finally got what she wanted. The breakdown of all breakdown. I cried until i hyperventilated and all she could say was "i dont know how to help you". I keep remembering thoes words "i dont know how to help you". i wish i could say that I feel better for getting it all out but I dont. If anything this is allowing me to fall deeper in it. For once im not hiding behind a smile. Finally she knows that im messed up. Now who's going to help me because neither of us knows the way out.

When he touches me I feel disgusting.

i love my good friend but part of me wishes I were in love with my good friend.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Thu Jan 26, 2006 4:15 pm

part of me is in love with him even though i know he loves someone else and some days it kills me to be happy for him because of it

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Thu Jan 26, 2006 6:09 pm

i am a doormat because i am afraid
i am always scared of losing those who say they love me....and i'm always scared they must have an ulterior motive, even though i think too much of their integrity for that....which makes no sense
im afraid of getting fat
i'm desperate for someone to hold me and *never* let me go

smr89 · Post by **smr89** » Thu Jan 26, 2006 7:50 pm

I'm starting to feel the way I know I should but I still want to do this. I'm just worried about the future. What should I do? The problem is, I know exactly what I should do. We all know that. The real question is what am I going to do and how and when? I don't want you to worry though. I'll be ok (I hope).
I miss when he used to say I love you. Even though I know he probably didn't mean it the way I wanted him to. I really don't know how he feels about me now. I hope I'm not what I think I am to him.
I want to cut really bad but I promised him I wouldn't so I really have to try.

Koru · Post by **Koru** » Fri Jan 27, 2006 12:31 pm

I've spent my life being academic and focussing on my work. I've always denied that I'd ever want children. Now I would love to have a baby of my own but I'm too stubborn to back down and admit it, besides, my parents will be so dissapointed with me if I give up a career for children

PM's OK

Copasetic · Post by **Copasetic** » Fri Jan 27, 2006 7:52 pm

I only got angry with her because I knew she was entirely correct and that I'm a total fuck-up. I wasn't angry that she thought I'm becoming a big failure, I was angry that it is true. I just masked it as outrage.

Then when she apologized and obviously felt bad, I felt even worse - because I'm about to be a big disappointment. I'm ruining my life, but I don't know how to stop and I've been so afraid for so long to explain it to them.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Fri Jan 27, 2006 9:05 pm

i think that without all the stuff that makes me fucked up i'd be nothing at all

wish · Post by **wish** » Fri Jan 27, 2006 9:15 pm

i dont know if i love my husband anymore
i hate him for not seeing my pain
im scared im going to turn out like my dad

comments fine-pm

BlackKat13 · Post by **BlackKat13** » Sat Jan 28, 2006 4:50 am

(PMs okay)

I gave up the financial support of my wealthy parents, to live in a tiny apartment on less than $600 a month...

And I have *Never* been happier

My athiest and agnostic parents don't know that I have been baptised...Or that I take weekly theology classes

My parents know less about me than probably anyone else I know... And I trust them less than anyone else in my life.

kermit · Post by **kermit** » Sat Jan 28, 2006 9:15 am

I'm scared of people I care about getting hurt.

I'm scared when I can see they will get hurt but know that I cant say anything

amyfairy · Post by **amyfairy** » Sat Jan 28, 2006 12:48 pm

i'm scared i will get hurt

Strange_Panda · Post by **Strange_Panda** » Sat Jan 28, 2006 9:46 pm

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