Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

Mistress · Post by **Mistress** » Fri May 25, 2007 2:44 am

pms welcome.

I told him I'd never try to suicide again, because I hurt him. But I can't live with this much longer. How can I stop myslef ODing when I give him my meds for safekeeping and he gives them straight back?

MusicalMorphine · Post by **MusicalMorphine** » Fri May 25, 2007 7:45 pm

I have realised now that being happy is so much better. I'm not so scared to get better now.

amyfairy · Post by **amyfairy** » Fri May 25, 2007 8:21 pm

i am such a jealous person.

daisy_chain · Post by **daisy_chain** » Fri May 25, 2007 9:32 pm

I don't want him to be happy with her.

amyfairy · Post by **amyfairy** » Sun May 27, 2007 3:18 pm

also,
i always feel second best

in everything

Post by **strmdncr** » Sun May 27, 2007 5:14 pm

what could happen with my anger scares me

wilson · Post by **wilson** » Sun May 27, 2007 6:16 pm

i want you gone. but i want you here at the same time. i want you to be back here so i can tell you what i think of you

Post by **swirlish** » Sun May 27, 2007 6:38 pm

I miss you so much. I regret what I did. I wish you were here. I want you back.

Stripe · Post by **Stripe** » Sun May 27, 2007 8:08 pm

I forigve him, he dd that to me nad I forgive ihm. I feel so aolne and unwanted tat I wnt him back, jus to feel neded

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Mon May 28, 2007 5:12 am

what's to love?

Stripe · Post by **Stripe** » Mon May 28, 2007 5:13 pm

I am still in love with Alex

wilson · Post by **wilson** » Mon May 28, 2007 5:28 pm

i cant tell anyone how im really feeling anymore. not even people on bus. i lie to everyone cos im so afraid people wont believe me. i am scared to tell the truth to anyone anymore.

if only you knew how i truely feel

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Mon May 28, 2007 11:08 pm

i had a daydream abotu branding myself as a new way of selfharming....the fact that it was a daydream and not a dream dream scares the shit out of me. why would i envisage something so horrible when i have no conscious intention to act on it? what the fuck is wrong with me?!

HakunaMatata · Post by **HakunaMatata** » Tue May 29, 2007 12:52 am

Edited: for clarification, having re-read those rules, deleted my secret.

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Tue May 29, 2007 1:24 am

Just a routine reminder of the guidelines:

Pink Spider wrote:GUIDELINES:

- Secrets can often be painful and negative. That is okay. But that doesn't mean this thread can be used as a loophole to get around BUS rules.

- No attacks on other members. If you have a beef with another member, take it up with them.

- No suicide notes, and nothing that is pro-suicide.

- Nothing that is pro-SI or pro-ED - we understand that everyone here is in different stages of recovery, but there are places on the board where you can work out / through those feelings.

- No manipulative comments that you intend someone else to find and have a reaction to.

- You cannot post that you ARE hurting yourself, WILL WITHOUT DOUBT hurt yourself or HAVE hurt yourself if you need and don't intend to get medical help. "Hurting yourself" includes SI, SU, OD's, destructive eating disorder behaviour like purging or starving, as well as putting yourself in dangerous situations like approaching/ contacting an abuser. This stuff is either against BUS rules or belongs in the B&A forum, or somewhere you can get constructive feedback like main or some of the more "analys-y" coping threads.

Examples wrote:Can say:

I want to hurt myself.
I feel like I don't deserve to eat.
I feel like being skinny will solve my problems.
I want to die.
I feel fat.
I hurt myself.
Suicide feels like a good option.
I am scared to get help.

Can't say:

I have a blade in my hand and I'm cutting now.
Tomorrow at uni I'm going to hurt myself.
I've taken an OD and don't want anyone to know.
My friend wants to die and I think it's a good idea for him.
I'm not eating anything today because I don't deserve it.
I want to know how to purge better.
I'm going to kill myself next week.
Life sucks, so long y'all.

- You can ask for PM's/ comments, but if you really want replies, please don't be hesitant to go over to nest, or somewhere you'll know without doubt that you've been heard.

- As with anywhere else on the board, you must use spoilers if and when they are necessary.

WARNING

If this thread is not used constructively and continues to go against the spirit of the coping forum (as the old one did), it will be locked and it will stay that way.

Also, any person who continually uses this thread for unconstructive purposes (meaning, they violate the guidelines set above continually), will risk having their posting priveliges in this revoked.

Other Useful Links

<a href="http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php? ... 6">Secrets and More</a>

<a href="http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=96256">The Constructive Venting Thread</a>

<a href="http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=101831">How You Feel And What You're Going to Do About It</a>

<a href="http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=38812">Reasons For Living</a>

piano_life · Post by **piano_life** » Tue May 29, 2007 4:21 am

I am struggling, and have taken on far too much, in a bid to keep busy.

nzgurl · Post by **nzgurl** » Tue May 29, 2007 8:23 am

i was raped an didnt tell anyone

i want to take some time off my studies but dont want to hurt my mum

++Jigsaw++ · Post by **++Jigsaw++** » Tue May 29, 2007 4:24 pm

i miss my nan

i wish she were here to hold me right now. My best friend is dieing. My career is ruined. I truely am lost and alone.

Without even lifting a finger i already hurt so much...

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Wed May 30, 2007 12:00 am

I feel claustrophobic within myself.

starcatuk · Post by **starcatuk** » Thu May 31, 2007 4:15 pm

i did it again after 2 weeks

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