Secrets Thread - Read first post!

[Chey]

would you stop second guessing every thing I say, its getting really frustrating.

[Descent]

I comfort myself by saying that nothing really matters, because I'm going to die someday anyway.
And I constantly feel like my life is going to end soon. I don't know why. Maybe it's paranoia.
But it's making me feel like I don't really have to try anymore, because none of it matters in the end..

[stripysocks4christ]

im scared. more than that, im terrified. i dont know how im going to do this, but if i dont ill regret it forever... damn.

[strider 151]

*su*



suicide seems like a good option right now

[Kaleb]

I lied ..... I don't hate you. I'm just scared - thats all, scared you still have that effect on me ...but I don't hate you.

[mithz]

I miss my old bus friends who no longer visit here. I miss the randomness and the light hearted take on life's problems and challenges. I rarely post here any more. Now that I am SI free I find it difficult to relate. I want to help people, but I can't... so I usually don't post.

[capricorn]

I really miss it sometimes.

[xXelmoscaresmeXx]

**sex**


i let him suck on my breast. and i really liked it, but im scared that i wont be able to say 'no' to other stuff...
i'm 14, and he's almost 18.
it's not okay and i know it...

[Kltat]

I wish you would text me, I wish I knew what I did wrong

[elizabethpoe31]

I used to make up stories years and years ago, and now I know what they were about, and it scares me.

[Lynds]

I'm worried that buying my bike was a stupid idea and that I'll never be a good rider. I came off on my first go and now I'm scared to get back on I feel so stupid.

[strider 151]

that wasnt aimed at you, but i guess that doesnt matter anymore. i hate what we have become but idk how to change it. i have knowing that im hurting you, i hate that we dont tell eachother stuff and we cant help eachother. i know im holding you back so just tell me and i will back off, but i dont wanna loose your friendship.

[Beasty]

I've dreamed of you so many times. With the number of times we've kissed in my dreams, I wonder if I really do know the sensation. It drives me mad that I may never know

[Kaleb]

I really want to talk to you
But I don't know how to start the convo off - or if I should even talk to you.

[My Hazey Clarity]

I hate myself for being jealous of you , and hate you for making me feel that way to.

[Kltat]

I'm totally loosing myself in you. It scares me because I think it is a bad idea but I can't stop myself from feeling this way.

[Stawberry_Lollipops]

It's amazing how good I've become at convincing myself and everyone else that I'm okay.
I'm not okay. I thought I was but I'm not. I can't do this. I just can't anymore.
Everything will be okay in the end, I'm still sure of that but at what cost? And is it even really
worth it anyway? What if I'm not strong enough for this? What if this blackness is more fierce
than my will and determination? What if she's right? What if I can't stop her?
What if she kills me before I even get a chance at living? I suppose at least I'd have died trying...right?

[elizabethpoe31]

I like being back on BUS, but it's really triggery and that's affecting me. I'd like to think that triggers don't affect me, but that's a lie.

[strider 151]

i hate how you make me feel and how i act around you

[My Hazey Clarity]

when i see the thread > What Have You Accomplished in Your Life
I get a knot in my stomach, mostly because i am afraid admit how litle that would be.