I am a phyco

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Actually, on the contrary I detest any form of self-pity I give myself. It quickly gets turned to self-hate for me, or completely discarded. Though you could argue that's just a form of self-pity.

[Ram]

Sorry but what you are talking about does not apply

i gave up Steven when he was 10 and he went coo-coo
when he developed 3 other personalitys in himself
Steves dead...i am just picking up after him

yes we are filled with self pitty but do really want to see me with my anger built up...do you know what it is like to be dead tired but wide awake...do you know what it is like convulsing on your bed because your mind is going wild...do you know what it is like to be on a date and lose your mind (Go into Killer mode) do you, do you, because if you do then you would know why steve died yes it is my name, but the person associate has been lost forever...

My parents look at pics of me when i was younger and wonder where in hell there sun went

my dad asks me what happend to turn me this way...well dad i am sorry but the only thing that i can do is fight, try to hold on as a colapse my bridges...I use my best judgement when i chose what to do and that still is not enough...

im a junior when i graduate i have 90 days to either go to colledge or get a job

i was told by my docs that i am incapable of work
i cant afford colledge
do you know how much medication costs(When i am off it for long periods at a time what irrepairible damage i might do, to me or to others?)
so tell me what's next

[Ram]

i didnt see the second page