what do you think about? *SI*

scarlit_sky · Post by **scarlit_sky** » Tue Jun 15, 2004 5:13 am

I guess all I want to know is what you think about to stop yourself from cutting or whatever self harming behavior you do. What I mean is, I used to think about how it would affect my boyfriend, but we aren't together anymore. Now I have nothing to get me to stop, and I don't really want to stop, but then I do at the same time. I just want to know what has helped all of you to work on stopping and gets you not to cut.

Thanks in advance.....

Emma

Searching · Post by **Searching** » Tue Jun 15, 2004 7:48 am

http://busmail.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=58243

^Inspiration for us all.

nirvana · Post by **nirvana** » Tue Jun 15, 2004 6:34 pm

the thing that motivates me is the number of days free. i know it takes a few days to build up, but once i have a few days, i can push myself to make it a little farther. not long ago, i got up to 104 days, but then i lost them. i had no motivation, because i couldn't call it a slip. but i've been working on getting back up there.

not sure what to do until then, other than to tell myself that i don't deserve to hurt or si.

love, tara.

scarlit_sky · Post by **scarlit_sky** » Wed Jun 16, 2004 2:18 pm

Thanks for the replies. I don't have time to read the link you posted, Searching, but I will read it when I get home. Again thanks. I guess I've been freaking out cuz my therapist was out of town, but I see him tomorrow, so hopefully everything will be okay soon.

Emma

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jun 16, 2004 4:08 pm

I know this thread is slightly different from what you were asking, but there might be something in it that helps...
http://busmail.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php? ... ht=#956650

MoonlightMelody · Post by **MoonlightMelody** » Thu Jun 17, 2004 7:23 pm

Si is something that always will be with you until one day you decide that it has no place in your life anymore. That does not mean that you will be able to stop so easily but it is a start to stop. I think SI is like something with layers, the more layers you shed by fighting the SI the more battles you will win. I am 6m 1 1/2 weeks free of SI. But just yesterday I had a "bad" day. I did not cut but the thought of it is weighing heavy in my thoguhts. It is a constant battle and with support of this site you can stop and you are in a place where you are letting people help you even thoguh you might feel alone. If you need anyone to talk to please pm me *HUGS* may you have an SI Free day.
Moonlight Melody

scarlit_sky · Post by **scarlit_sky** » Thu Jun 17, 2004 8:02 pm

Thanks.... I guess I'm starting to learn that I don't have the self control to stop right now. My life is so screwed up, it's impossible.

Emma

eyeris · Post by **eyeris** » Thu Jun 17, 2004 9:04 pm

hey, I don't have an answer for you, but I just wanted to let you know I read, and that I get what you are going through. I ask the same question, I've tried lots of different things that don't really work. The one thing that crosses my mind sometimes is that I am betraying my therapist ( I told her I wouldn't) and it doesn't help this "fixing me" thing go any better. I actually couldn't stop myself a couple of nights ago, and afterwards I felt so guilty and I knew I had to tell my T. I went into a session, and she immediately said I looked tense (I was soooo nervous), so after a while, I got it out, and she was just sad (she empathized, there wasn't any pitying me, I hate that). It really helped to tell her b/c I was really exposing myself by telling/trusting her. So long story short, I might think twice next time the urge comes b/c of how hard it was to tell her, and not telling her isn't an option for me. I don't know if this helps at all, but take care.
-e

XclippedXwingsX · Post by **XclippedXwingsX** » Thu Jun 24, 2004 5:56 pm

When ever I get SI urges I try to read, listen to music, anything to get my mind off of any sharp object I could use to SI with. Painting works wonders for me. That's what helps me the most. Painting and poetry. Unless of course the urge is so controlling, I need to SI I use my rubberband therapy or ice therapy. But no matter what, I'm still struggling with it. I've been in therapy for almost a year now and well I've finally gone a whole week without SIing. It's all about your will to carry on and actually defeat the darkness that's got a hold of you. It's a battle that I'm not always sure I'll win, but with ever defeat comes a victory and that helps me carry on and continue not SIing.

*hugs 4 u*

Reflections · Post by **Reflections** » Thu Jun 24, 2004 7:33 pm

i think about the fact that i want to move on. i want to be in a stable relationship (i am), i want to finish my degree (working on that), i want to get a house, i want to get a good job, i want to live a normal life and i don't want my mental health problems getting in the way of that. and part of that is learning to cope healthily, which means not cutting.

Reflections · Post by **Reflections** » Thu Jun 24, 2004 7:38 pm

i think about the fact that i want to move on. i want to be in a stable relationship (i am), i want to finish my degree (working on that), i want to get a house, i want to get a good job, i want to live a normal life and i don't want my mental health problems getting in the way of that. and part of that is learning to cope healthily, which means not cutting.

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