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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by stripin_hate » Fri May 14, 2004 10:48 pm

I have never cut myself before until like last week and now that is all I want to do cuz all it felt like was a like bee sting and that is it. And I felt clam and know I have to take the razors out of the bathroom cuz I want to cut so badly. And I can't think now cuz a I want to cut so badly please help
p.s what does si mean.

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Post by angelic212 » Fri May 14, 2004 11:12 pm

first of all i want to welcome you to bus, second SI means self injury, right now i really dont know what to say cause im struggling bad myself at the moment but i just want to let you know that im here for you

love always maria


p.s hope you find great support here

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Post by Laura » Sat May 15, 2004 5:52 pm

Hiya :wavey: and welcome.
I'm sorry you're feeling really bad right now, but glad you've come here.

Any idea what it is that's making you want to cut? Sometimes it helps to talk about it, or write it down. If you browse around this forum (especially the "Sticky" topics at the top of the page) you'll find lots of things people have suggested that help them resist the urge to self-injure.

Yeah, SI means "self-injury" and there are a few other abbreviations like that that you'll get used to. Some of that stuff and other things you need to know are here.

If you like, you can go and post a "Hi, I'm new" sort of post on the main Bodies Under Siege forum - lots more folk read there and will want to say hello and offer you lots of Welcome Cows :moove:

Take care of yourself
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Post by pinkllama » Mon May 17, 2004 6:13 am

stripin_hate.........
as this is your first week SIing ever.................
PLEASE PLEASE turn around and RUN....don't come down this road. You WANNA scar up the entirity of your body? Do you want to be stuck in the mental ward? Do you want to be looked at as if you're crazy? Do you want to struggle through for years, if not for the rest of your life? Do you want to be suicidal more often then not?? because that's what this cycle will lead.......you CAN get out now...you can...
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Post by Orange Crush » Mon May 17, 2004 9:48 am

Hi, I'm a newbie too so welcome.

Whats making you feel like this?
And you can get out of this, the longer it goes on the worse it gets. I've only been SIing for 5 months and I have to cover my whole body.
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Post by xPaintTheStarsx » Mon May 17, 2004 2:17 pm

Welcome to BUS :)

I hope you find the support you need here.
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Post by Middleground » Sun May 23, 2004 9:47 am

I came here after a friend showed me the site... I'm a really recent SIer as well and I want to stop before it gets serious.
Through early morning fog I see.. visions of the things to be....


I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad - the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had.

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I open them and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

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Post by kurdt_kobain » Sun May 23, 2004 11:04 am

Find a doctor and have them refer you to a T. Get put on "happy pills" (anti-depressents).

I promise you--you do NOT want to be stuck with scars for the rest of your life. You do not want to end up wandering around, totally alone because you lost all your friends and no one trusts you because of what you're doing to yourself. You do not want to lie alone at night and hate yourself for what you are doing to the people around you.

Self-injury leads you to horrible situations.

I'm with purpleflame--TURN AROUND AND RUN.

You should get help now, when you haven't had the habit for years. It's eaiser to quit now. And abuse BUS. Use it for all its worth. POST POST POST. Distract yourself. Post how your day went.

Get the support you need.

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sorry

Post by stripin_hate » Sun May 23, 2004 6:03 pm

i have already si like 20 times since this post it is not that i'm depressed it us that i'm stessed out over exams and sol's

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Post by nirvana » Sun May 23, 2004 8:46 pm

ditto to purpleflame and kurdt_kobain. it's a vicious cycle, horrible hole to fall into. you don't want to be here. stop yourself while you still can, before you get addicted and rely on it. because not all the scars fade, you're stuck remembering this forever.

try and find another outlet for your stress. excercise, writing, drawing, anything creative. take walks outside when you're feeling very low. listen to calming music, anything you can.

please try and stop before it takes over.
good luck, and hope you find what you need from bus.
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Post by Minigoth1 » Mon May 24, 2004 6:52 pm

Music
Art
beating the crap out of stuff

That should help you
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Post by snowangel_03 » Wed May 26, 2004 10:37 am

pinkllama wrote:stripin_hate.........
as this is your first week SIing ever.................
PLEASE PLEASE turn around and RUN....don't come down this road. You WANNA scar up the entirity of your body? Do you want to be stuck in the mental ward? Do you want to be looked at as if you're crazy? Do you want to struggle through for years, if not for the rest of your life? Do you want to be suicidal more often then not?? because that's what this cycle will lead.......you CAN get out now...you can...
Ditto.

It's not worth all the misery of SI'ing all the time...

Talk to people, find some outlet for all this stress or whatever you're feeling that's making you do this. PLEASE don't get caught up in all of this; it's not worth it.
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Post by lost down here » Wed Jun 02, 2004 11:00 pm

all i can say is please try to forget what happened...getting into this pattern will change your life immeasurably for the worst and it WILL be something that will be VERY difficult to get out of, its nothing you can just wake up one morning and say oh okay i think i'll stop this now/i don't need this anymore. if theres one piece of advice i can give to you its that...thinking of you...stay safe, please PM me if you need to talk

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