last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Post by indiegirl » Wed Jan 21, 2004 3:47 am

Just struck me that there was a thread about something similar on life-after;
http://busmail.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=36757
Its about what made people decide to quit, may be of interest :)

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Post by butterflydust » Wed Jan 21, 2004 3:53 am

i was mad at my mom. passive agressive seemed better than self injury. i took her best, sharpest sewing scissors and stabbed them into the wall.
she never knew, but she did throw away the scissors that night.
they were too dull.
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Post by butterflygirl348 » Wed Jan 21, 2004 5:00 am

too tired, not a good enough reason, and also didn't wanted to ruin my almost two years of being SI free... very long time... so is laziness an option?

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Post by Stellaria » Wed Jan 21, 2004 12:58 pm

I distracted myself, and kept putting it off, until I got the opportunity to talk about what was upsetting me, and now the urge isn't as strong anymore.
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Post by Chrystal » Wed Jan 21, 2004 1:10 pm

I was sitting in an advanced applied geophysics class.... and I wanted to do ANYTHING soooooo badly.... I would have just left... but the class only has like 6 people in it... so it would have been too obvious.

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Post by ~Claire~ » Wed Jan 21, 2004 4:53 pm

I watched friends videos and then curled up in a ball in bed and cried.

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Post by purpleflame » Wed Jan 21, 2004 7:36 pm

i thought about my bf and the promise we made to eachother not to si anymore.
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Post by limestone » Wed Jan 21, 2004 7:51 pm

i like this thread.

last time, I phoned people. actually was brave enough to call my cpn for the first time. phoned samaritans twice. phoned another person. I got there in the end. glad i did.

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Post by Twist » Wed Jan 21, 2004 9:02 pm

Please don't think I'm really silly - I talked to my teady bear. His name's Green Ted and he smells like happiness.

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Post by tenar » Wed Jan 21, 2004 9:39 pm

i can post here for first time from last night!! :D
i shut my eyes and pretended i was asleep till i believed myselff
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Post by Zebraseal » Wed Jan 21, 2004 10:28 pm

Twist--that's not silly! That's soooo cute! :D


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Post by yellowdreams » Thu Jan 22, 2004 12:31 am

I sat on my hands and cried instead.
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Post by Inwë Lessien » Thu Jan 22, 2004 12:35 am

I can't hurt my Adam anymore...

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Post by anythingbutordinary » Thu Jan 22, 2004 5:36 am

I have really wanted to SI every day, all week. Had a rough (sp?) time lately. The only reason that I haven't done anything is because I can't stand to see the pain in my boyfriend's eyes. It kills him everytime I cut.

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Post by limestone » Sun Jan 25, 2004 12:35 am

Why I didn't:

I reminded myself of the promise I made: to not si again in the way that I had done that day, in December, to the doctor who treated me. She held my hand and prayed for me.

If I did si in the same way in December, I would be breaking that promise to her and to me. I would be letting us both down. Whatever happens, I don't want to do that.

I am trying to create things that can be symbolic of the promise I made so that when I hit a rough patch I can draw on the strength and advice she gave me.

Some people in the past, have not been as genuine as she was - if I hurt myself, it would be an insult to her kindness.

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Post by sine nomine » Sun Jan 25, 2004 12:51 am

these are great! i've stickified this post. i like both kinds of replies the actual action i took and the way i thought about it ones.

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Post by angelafree » Sun Jan 25, 2004 1:21 am

a huge electrical storm came and distracted me!! i love storms!! then we had a black out, so i lit candles and wrote in my journal about my feelings.

i wrote them down!!!!
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Post by Twitter Mouse » Sun Jan 25, 2004 1:42 am

When I wanted to SI today, I didn't, and made a cake instead. Then I just ate cake :D
And it's hey babe, with your guardian eyes so blue,
Hey my baby, don't you know our love is true,
I've been so far from here,
Far from your loving arms,
Now I'm back again, and babe it's gonna work out fine.

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Post by Strange_Panda » Sun Jan 25, 2004 3:43 am

I did an internet search to teach myself how to knit!!

Now I own a scarf that is longer than me (I'm five foot)!!
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