Secrets Thread - Read first post!

[breathing]

If I didn't pass this one class in particular, I don't know what I'm going to do, but it won't be positive. Not having very positive thoughts about it (and myself) right now.

[styled_wrong]

I am struggling to find reasons to carry on

[Chey]

You really need to cut back on the sugar. I am worried about your health. You went from a healthy weight a year ago to being my weight and your a few inches shorter then me. I am trying to be healthy and since we both have gall bladder issues I look to you for advice but your sudden need to eat candy constantly and not eat anything else worries me greatly.

[zyn]

Your words made me cry in the best possible way. You've given me hope again, your words will guide me through this shit until I've sewn every star back into the sky, until I run out of thread, until I become who I want to be.

[strider 151]

your not who i thought you were. you dont love me as you say you do, your not there for me, and i really need you right now but your too wrapped up in your own problems and pretending to care about me anymore. i have realised this and am hiding it from you. thats my secret!

[demolition_lover]

I don't know how to stop being manipulative.

[broken123]

ED voices still speak to me, and they are stronger then before

[stripysocks4christ]

im so scared.. because the paranoia i feel around you isnt normal.. it is wrong.. we used to be so close, now whenever im around you, im paranoid that you will leave me, that you will walk away.. i want you to be mad at me, cos i can deal with that, i can understand it if you are mad at me.. and i look into your every word, every action, looking for a reason to tell myself you hate me.. and thats not right.. and i havnt told you this, and im scared, cos its not normal.. and i know im pushing you away, and i dont want to, but im scared, and i dont understand, and i will just end up hurting everyone else like the bitch i am.. im sorry..

[Chey]

I really want to abuse one medication. I need the extra energy and need to get stuff done. I wont do it though cause some of the medication was not cleaned up and it made my first cat very sick I nearly lost her. I promised I would never again do it as long as my kitty survived and she made it through. Still I am so tempted but I know I can't and I wont put my cats in danger ever again.

[zyn]

I wish I could tell you much your words mean to me. Now, and over the past few weeks...they're keeping what sanity I have held together. I wish I could tell you how amazing you are, how much I admire & respect you. I wish things were different. I wish I could talk freely with you, I think you'd understand.

[demolition_lover]

I'm just about ready to give up on being alcohol and drug-free, with the exception of my occasional sleep-aid abuse. I used to be so set on being the straight-edge kid, the one with the unshakable morals who could party with her friends substance-free. And it's not that - I do have fun with my friends. I want to escape and it seems so appealing right now, and it's just been getting stronger over the past 6 months. I don't know how much longer I will hold out.

[Lynds]

I do and I don't know what I want...both things scare the shit out of me. I feel so unhappy.

[Chey]

SA trigger. I am keeping the text small as its a serious trigger.
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I am keeping the text small as it is a serious SA trigger.


that made me so sick and I reported what I saw but I will never know if the kids will be rescued, if the evil perps will be prosecuted or caught. I feel so helpless and I know all I could do was report the picture but I feel so sick and angry and helpless. I feel so confused and I need to talk to someone but I don't know who to talk to.


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End of triggers.

[zyn]

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It makes me cry to know that you email me on a Sunday. I want to know if you email ALL your students on a Sunday, but I doubt it. I don't think anyone emails you as much as I do, because I'm not sure that everyone likes you much. But I like you, and I admire and respect you. Your words keep me going, and I look at the remedy you gave me every day and feel like crying because that needle and thread symbolises so much to me.

[Chey]

Thanks for the hugs Zyn



why do I keep getting time blanks. I have not had them in years. Maybe I kinda know why I am having them. I want them to stop. I have a lot to do. I just want the time blanks to stop.

[zyn]

Anytime

I'm going to fail my exam tomorrow.

[munchalot11]

Why do i always mess up everything?

[Alone]

I had an abortion many years ago. it is haunting me

[meadow14]

I wish I was worthy of the help I am receiving to overcome SI.

[Lynds]

I said my secret out loud to another human being today...it scared the shit out of me