last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Twitter Mouse » Sat Oct 15, 2011 5:20 pm

It makes my friends upset
And it's hey babe, with your guardian eyes so blue,
Hey my baby, don't you know our love is true,
I've been so far from here,
Far from your loving arms,
Now I'm back again, and babe it's gonna work out fine.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by knocking » Sun Oct 30, 2011 3:07 am

I want to make it to a year.
Knocking grants you the POWER to achieve all of your greatest dreams!!

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Kind people are not born that way, they do not stumble into it,
kind people are forged in fire and darkness and imploding stars,
they have steel cores. Throw a punch and you're going to break your hand.
Kind people are kind because they know firsthand that life isn't."
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Post by capricorn » Tue Nov 01, 2011 9:51 pm

there were people present.
and then because my friend calmed me down and cheered me up :osmile:
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by RG » Sun Nov 06, 2011 7:24 pm

I didnt want to lose the amount of si free time I have
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Post by zyn » Sun Nov 06, 2011 8:07 pm

I didn't want to fail.
"If knew what I thought I wouldn't need to make anything."
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by knocking » Mon Nov 07, 2011 8:48 am

I knew deep down that I really didn't need it..
Knocking grants you the POWER to achieve all of your greatest dreams!!

"Kindness is often mistaken for softness and let me tell you,
friends, that is a mistake you don't want to make.
Kind people are not born that way, they do not stumble into it,
kind people are forged in fire and darkness and imploding stars,
they have steel cores. Throw a punch and you're going to break your hand.
Kind people are kind because they know firsthand that life isn't."
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by FilthSparrow » Wed Nov 09, 2011 12:57 am

because i knew people would be disappointed if they found out, and i would never want to hurt them :shakehead:
The kind of pain that makes you want to hurt everyone around you because you’re suffering & they’re not, because they can breathe without feeling guilty & hold a normal conversation without breaking down into fits of tears or rage
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Birdie » Thu Nov 10, 2011 12:59 am

knocking wrote:I want to make it to a year.
Ditto! I've made too much progress to turn back now.
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Post by knocking » Thu Nov 10, 2011 11:14 am

Good on ya birdie :)

We can do it!! :1grhug:
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"Kindness is often mistaken for softness and let me tell you,
friends, that is a mistake you don't want to make.
Kind people are not born that way, they do not stumble into it,
kind people are forged in fire and darkness and imploding stars,
they have steel cores. Throw a punch and you're going to break your hand.
Kind people are kind because they know firsthand that life isn't."
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by VerMOZZica » Wed Nov 30, 2011 12:55 pm

It`s been a while since I`ve self injured.I believe it`s been the longest time I`ve gone without it in years.It`s not been easy.I`ve been tempted for sure.I didn`t give in again because I didn`t want to dissapoint my mother.I didn`t want her to see the bandage on my arm in the morning.It`s been difficult but I am trying.
I am a poor freezingly cold soul
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Scavenging through life`s very constant lulls
So far from where I`m determined to go
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by zyn » Wed Nov 30, 2011 12:56 pm

^^ I am incredibly impressed with your avatar *giggles* I love Morrissey :D

I was a coward and couldn't. Not the best reason ever :-?
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by VerMOZZica » Wed Nov 30, 2011 1:02 pm

zyn wrote:^^ I am incredibly impressed with your avatar *giggles* I love Morrissey :D

I was a coward and couldn't. Not the best reason ever :-?
Thank You.

It`s wonderful to meet another Morrissey fan here on bus.I just adore him.

You are not a coward.If I can do it.Anyone can do it. :) :)

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Post by VerMOZZica » Wed Jan 18, 2012 12:42 pm

I don`t want to give in.I want to go as long as I possibly can without it.It`s been difficult but I am trying as hard as I can to be good.
I am a poor freezingly cold soul
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Post by VerMOZZica » Mon Feb 27, 2012 8:22 am

Gave in :( .I couldn`t stand it anymore.
I am a poor freezingly cold soul
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Post by shadowavenger » Thu Mar 01, 2012 8:01 pm

If I do my girlfriend will insist on taking me to A&E when she gets home from work, and I don't want to sit in A&E all night or worse have to talk to the Crisis Team.
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Post by knocking » Mon Mar 05, 2012 9:24 am

I knew that I was better than that.
Knocking grants you the POWER to achieve all of your greatest dreams!!

"Kindness is often mistaken for softness and let me tell you,
friends, that is a mistake you don't want to make.
Kind people are not born that way, they do not stumble into it,
kind people are forged in fire and darkness and imploding stars,
they have steel cores. Throw a punch and you're going to break your hand.
Kind people are kind because they know firsthand that life isn't."
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Post by Stormy Llwellyn » Sat Mar 31, 2012 3:58 am

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by knocking » Sat Apr 14, 2012 11:11 am

I dont want to go backwards. And I have discovered a new distraction technique...
Knocking grants you the POWER to achieve all of your greatest dreams!!

"Kindness is often mistaken for softness and let me tell you,
friends, that is a mistake you don't want to make.
Kind people are not born that way, they do not stumble into it,
kind people are forged in fire and darkness and imploding stars,
they have steel cores. Throw a punch and you're going to break your hand.
Kind people are kind because they know firsthand that life isn't."
- Quote found online years ago.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by grobie_girl » Sun Apr 15, 2012 11:14 pm

i know 'only one more time' with me always turns into a relapse

i have enough problems without adding SI to the list

SI won't solve anything (would likely make it worse)
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Chaocontrol6 » Thu Apr 19, 2012 11:23 pm

SI would undo all the outstanding progress that I have made in the last almost 4 years.

it would not only harm myself physically, but would also smash down the confidence other people had in me.
Just let time tell the story, and act accordingly. (Phrase by myself)
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These feelings too, shall pass. (BUS phrase?)
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